hom36rown
Well-Known Member
Hmmm...I'm not that bad. One time though, I got a nosebleed...which never happens to me...anyway, I went to the bathroom, and looked at myself in the mirror, and saw blood coming out of my nose, All of a sudden I had this vivid mental picture of blood pouring out of my nose...I felt sick to my stomach, and laid down on the floor because I could feel myself about to faint. Then I woke up with my room mate freaking out with a phone in his hand. He thought I was having a siezure or something, because apparently my eyes were rolling back in my head, and I was sort of convulsing for about a minute(the Dr. said it was a normal reaction, my body was fighting passing out). So yeah, long story short I went to the ER over a nosebleed, lol.people talk about oh im scared of this or that or im scared of spiders
not many people know what its like to experience a primal fear
mine happens to be syringes
i know what your all saying " i hate needles too"
no not like i do you dont
when i had to get the stupid hepatitis shot to get into JR high a long time ago,
i was under the chair in the doctors office in the fetal position
all of the blood drains from my face and i come pretty damn close to passing out
i go into shock
whats left of me after being 3/4 passed out has the fight or flight response like i have never felt before
im ready to run for my life or kill somebody, cant thin rationally
i cant even look at one, if im watching tv and one comes up on screen as part of the show i still freak out, cant look at it
lets see if i can explain it this way
lets pretend that you know me, you have known me for a while
im a pretty normal chill 20 y/o male who likes to smoke
if you even say "hey look" and you happen to have one in your hand i dont care how good of friends we are, ill just turn around and run
run far away, and i cant really control it, fight or flight response is a very intense and unpleasant feeling
Im having trouble even talking about it... my hands are shaking