suicidal without weed

anonymuss

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when you smoke for severe depression (not a qualified disease for an MMC btw)...U pretty much need a steady supply of weed. at least 1-2 grams per day. which aint askin a WHOLE lot from life but hey.

when a manic depressive is off their meds, it is code reds.

when not high all i think about is blowin my brains out or hanging myself or all around doing the dutch (ironically due to lack of dutch)


for those that are depressed i hope u have alotta weed


but no take forever to grow plants take your fucking cock sucking time u always do anyway NEVER there when u r needed ALWAYS ALWAYS just a month away!!!
 

Sr. Verde

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weed is just going to suppress the depression which is why it comes out when you dont have any

seek alternate methods to help yourself
 

Bilstaaa

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weed is just going to suppress the depression which is why it comes out when you dont have any

seek alternate methods to help yourself
+1, its a tempoary solution, obviously anti-depressants is not the way either, im sure they do councelling for this sort of thing? Sorry i cant help anymore, i dont know much about it :(
 

Pipe Dream

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I find growing it to be a very powerful anti depressant myself. It gives me a sense of purpose and meaning sometimes when I feel down. When doing mushrooms I make sure that I am in a good mood and not stressing about anything or I might have a bad trip and sometimes if things aren't going well for me smoking weed makes me feel even worse.
 

Benassi

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Mostly stress problems I have. Ironically enough 2 hours ago coming back from getting lunch (sober) someone almost sideswipes my new car, then flips me off... I cut them off, locked up the brakes, got out of the car, walked straight to theirs and front kicked their side mirror to shit. Turned around, got in my car, sped off with my dealer plates.

Sober isn't fucking safe.

and I've never done something like that since I used my streetbike as a daily driver
 

anonymuss

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I find growing it to be a very powerful anti depressant myself. It gives me a sense of purpose and meaning sometimes when I feel down. When doing mushrooms I make sure that I am in a good mood and not stressing about anything or I might have a bad trip and sometimes if things aren't going well for me smoking weed makes me feel even worse.
my motto / proven technique is, if weed doesnt make u feel better than smoke some more. Ive found that the right amount of weed can make any shitty situation manageable.

weed doesnt always do the trick for me either, than i tell myself UR NOT SMOKIN ENOUGH!

as for growing being an anti depressant, i agree, as long as u have weed while growing.

growing sober is bullshit
 

anonymuss

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Mostly stress problems I have. Ironically enough 2 hours ago coming back from getting lunch (sober) someone almost sideswipes my new car, then flips me off... I cut them off, locked up the brakes, got out of the car, walked straight to theirs and front kicked their side mirror to shit. Turned around, got in my car, sped off with my dealer plates.

Sober isn't fucking safe.

and I've never done something like that since I used my streetbike as a daily driver
woa too much GTA!
 

anonymuss

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+1, its a tempoary solution, obviously anti-depressants is not the way either, im sure they do councelling for this sort of thing? Sorry i cant help anymore, i dont know much about it :(
nah i know exactly whats wrong with me and therapy would be ineffective

weed is my therapy, where i can slow down and actually figure out my problems.

then i do what little is in my power to correct my problems.

but with weed out of the picture there is no calm introspection, just anger, breaking things, yelling, and wanting to die.

its not lack of weed its lack of options (including weed)
 

Sr. Verde

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Mostly stress problems I have. Ironically enough 2 hours ago coming back from getting lunch (sober) someone almost sideswipes my new car, then flips me off... I cut them off, locked up the brakes, got out of the car, walked straight to theirs and front kicked their side mirror to shit. Turned around, got in my car, sped off with my dealer plates.

Sober isn't fucking safe.

and I've never done something like that since I used my streetbike as a daily driver
THAT WAS YOU?! :O


jk :)
 

Carne Seca

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Therapy isn't a cure for bipolar disorder. Bipolar disorder is physiological and psychological in nature. You need to get to a psychiatrist, get diagnosed and get medication. My nephew struggles with Bipolar Disorder as does my mother. When he was in the psych ward for a suicide attempt he was told by the resident psychiatrist to try marijuana as a treatment. He is in Colorado so he actually has a card. He uses Sativa for the depressive episodes and indica for the manic episodes. So far it has been working for him. He has the same problem you do when he runs out. That's why you need to have a back-up plan.

Bipolar Disorder isn't something to play around with. Get to a good psychiatrist/psychologist and work with them. Trust me, with the right medications and coping tools you can a have depression free life. I have two relatives that are doing very well despite the Bipolar Disorder. Good luck. :)
 

purplehazin

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Mostly stress problems I have. Ironically enough 2 hours ago coming back from getting lunch (sober) someone almost sideswipes my new car, then flips me off... I cut them off, locked up the brakes, got out of the car, walked straight to theirs and front kicked their side mirror to shit. Turned around, got in my car, sped off with my dealer plates.

Sober isn't fucking safe.

and I've never done something like that since I used my streetbike as a daily driver
Whoa there turbo :-|
 

PussymOneyWeed

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Mostly stress problems I have. Ironically enough 2 hours ago coming back from getting lunch (sober) someone almost sideswipes my new car, then flips me off... I cut them off, locked up the brakes, got out of the car, walked straight to theirs and front kicked their side mirror to shit. Turned around, got in my car, sped off with my dealer plates.

Sober isn't fucking safe.

and I've never done something like that since I used my streetbike as a daily driver
Not gonna lie, If i was out of weed, I very well could have done the same exact thing. I've always had a temper that was very easy too set off, and weed is honestly the only thing that i have found that allows me too not kick the teeth in of every asshole I encounter in my day to day life. So when i run out its just like this ^

Me being sober when assholes are around = Not safe forsure.
 

jhopkins34

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I know what your going through man, I'm just coming out of severe depression myself. Weed is the number one thing that helped me, its not a crutch or something that just covers the problem for a second, its a true lifesaver. When I was at my worse I could go from one moment thinking about the easiest way to end my life then smoke even the tiniest snap and I would feel so much better immediately. The main thing that heals depression is time man, and weed actually allows you to have that time because you don't pull the trigger and make a huge mistake. Just so you know man I love you very much, even though I don't know who you are, I can understand what your going through and if you ever want to talk you can pm me or many others one here too. Hopefully one day in the future we may meet up share a few bowls and have some crazy conversations about life
 

Karmapuff

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I can't judge you, I don't know your situation in which the reasons you have for these thoughts of depression which are leading you to suicidal thoughts. I can recommend you stop smoking weed for a while. Withdrawal from weed is real, I know many people that have gotten withdrawal granted it's not nearly as bad as heroin withdrawal or benzo withdrawal but it does make you depressed.

Your best bet is to stop smoking weed for a bit, go outside get fresh air drink plenty of fluids to flush out the toxins in your system. Think positive, no matter how small the positive thought is always think up beat, your mood will change and your whole outlook on your situation will change also.
 

juleswinnfield

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Not gonna lie, If i was out of weed, I very well could have done the same exact thing. I've always had a temper that was very easy too set off, and weed is honestly the only thing that i have found that allows me too not kick the teeth in of every asshole I encounter in my day to day life. So when i run out its just like this ^

Me being sober when assholes are around = Not safe forsure.
Same here.. I don't get sad, I get mad.

whenever I go a couple days without smoking I tend to have alot of energy.
 
I won't get specific, but I've been diagnosed with something, and weed has done far more than medications have to help me. A good body high to keep me from acting on my bad thoughts, and a nice head high to help me get my mind off it, (who says losing a train of thought is a bad thing?) and I usually end up thinking of hilariously funny stuff, and even when I do occasionally remember why I was upset, it doesn't stick! I can just keep laughing at whatever I was laughing at, and "all my cares, go up in smoke," after that I usually just play video games or read, I got some of the "George Carlin" books, damn funny stuff.
 
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