Im a guy, so iv never done anything slutty....
No one has anything to be ashamed of. Sex is just part of the human animal, natural as sunshine and cannabis....
and from what iv seen of your pics kuroi, you have nothing to be ashamed of, he was probly afraid of falling in love
some of us are like that now....
I hear.
I'm genuinely saddened by the stories I hear of some of you guys dating bitchy useless women while you were nice to her, then becoming jaded. Like when I see Beardo's 'I'm going to get me some booze and hookers' posts I thought there was more to it. Th he posted saying another woman screwed him over. It is the bitches who ruin the already rare 'nice guys' for the rest of us.
I did try to confront him about that whole episode (about a year long of him using me) and 'D' said he was afraid of ruining our friendship. Well the 'secret servicing' was ruining our friendship as I started hanging up the phone and avoiding him if I thought he was going to try and make me do something. I'm offended that he didn't think I was worth the risk, because even though he kept coming back to me and telling me how mindblowing my 'service' was, he dated anyone but me. But from speaking to these 'girlfriends' of his, I think he did have real commitment issues. Not laziness... more like fear. We'd get really close and then he's suddenly feel the need to pull back and detach himself again.
T-bird was hoping I'd find a guy to keep my mind off him but the funny thing is, the crush who wouldn't reciprocate my feelings was infuriated with what 'D' was up to.
Urca- it's all a little screwed up, isn't it? I was the setting, and the sneaking around I particularly hated. But I didn't belong to anyone and I really felt like I HAD to please him. Like you, he was afraid to kiss me. Maybe it's seem like he'd have to acknowledge me properly if he did that, or it would become 'emotional'. The closest thing he did to reciprocating was entering the back door... without knocking first or oiling the hinges, to use an analogy. It hurt, but I took it because I wanted him to be happy with me. If he ever walked away dissatisfied, I would have died from the awkwardness, were things not awkward enough. Meh- maybe I'll have a man by the time I'm 40.\