BBYY
Well-Known Member
Ill say about 98% of you will probably not know what the fuck im talkin about.
If so read on if you wish, but forewarning. You may have more questions at the end and or feel like you've wasted a few minutes of your precious life.
When I first started growing I met a like minded grower off an old cannabis forum that no longer exists. Over the years of building friendship on that site and soon both of us moderating and running the whole forum with hand selected moderators bringing that forum to a higher level and almost able to compete with the big names at the time. Unknownily the site owner and seed salesman betrayed us and eventually we left that site.
During our time together we became like brothers, In love with the whole world surrounding the cannabis culture. From breeding our own stock from land race seeds and stabilizing special phenos also to collecting and preserving old genetics and new to continue our search for more holy grails.
We eventually started visiting each other across the country - Having parties and meeting each others families becoming more or less a family of our own.
Anyways years have passed and we coninued our passion of breeding and trying out new strains while still trying to stabilize our many project. As many growers we encountered many issues, Losing valuable fathers, prize moms an even a catastrophic split of us as friends.
This time it seems (almost 1 - 1/2 year's later) That once your friendship becomes greater than the shared love of cannabis its too late. You soon will see diffrenty, Wish that we should have meet over different terms
Now my biggest vent is that now I started to grow again , I feel half empty, Every strain I grow or project I try to pic back up reminds me of my buddy.
Its a heartache at some times. I lost a brother and did things that I should have rethought and same for his part.
Well in a nutshell. Ive started to grow again and try to continue my projects but always feel like some part of me is missing.
Im trying to continue and will undoubtedly , I just never knew how empty something I used to love can become
Im not sorry for ranting, more or less happy I can share my feelings with a group whom judgement affects me in no way and is more or less something I cannot go talk to my RL friends..
So any words of wisdom from other broken partnerships and what eventually happen...Did you guys bury the hatchet or if you did was things never the same between them?
We had massive plans on breeding top quality genetics, with love of genetics and leaning towards a more medicinal specific strains with highest CBD - THC for each aliment, We were just starting three years so far of testing and working various strains all halted that I just want to finish, but I feel I am missing my partner in crime and dont know if I can finish it rather just start new projects.
Anyways. I feel to wrong to apologize , maybe he wont forgive me and if he does how awkward will our relationship be from here on out.. AHHH this been eating me for weeks. Cant sleep for many nights.
Well if you read this and wanna talk to me , Im mostly friendly and if you know me from the last few years im not afraid to share my thoughts even if they are obtrusive
Very Respectfully
BBYY
If so read on if you wish, but forewarning. You may have more questions at the end and or feel like you've wasted a few minutes of your precious life.
When I first started growing I met a like minded grower off an old cannabis forum that no longer exists. Over the years of building friendship on that site and soon both of us moderating and running the whole forum with hand selected moderators bringing that forum to a higher level and almost able to compete with the big names at the time. Unknownily the site owner and seed salesman betrayed us and eventually we left that site.
During our time together we became like brothers, In love with the whole world surrounding the cannabis culture. From breeding our own stock from land race seeds and stabilizing special phenos also to collecting and preserving old genetics and new to continue our search for more holy grails.
We eventually started visiting each other across the country - Having parties and meeting each others families becoming more or less a family of our own.
Anyways years have passed and we coninued our passion of breeding and trying out new strains while still trying to stabilize our many project. As many growers we encountered many issues, Losing valuable fathers, prize moms an even a catastrophic split of us as friends.
This time it seems (almost 1 - 1/2 year's later) That once your friendship becomes greater than the shared love of cannabis its too late. You soon will see diffrenty, Wish that we should have meet over different terms
Now my biggest vent is that now I started to grow again , I feel half empty, Every strain I grow or project I try to pic back up reminds me of my buddy.
Its a heartache at some times. I lost a brother and did things that I should have rethought and same for his part.
Well in a nutshell. Ive started to grow again and try to continue my projects but always feel like some part of me is missing.
Im trying to continue and will undoubtedly , I just never knew how empty something I used to love can become
Im not sorry for ranting, more or less happy I can share my feelings with a group whom judgement affects me in no way and is more or less something I cannot go talk to my RL friends..
So any words of wisdom from other broken partnerships and what eventually happen...Did you guys bury the hatchet or if you did was things never the same between them?
We had massive plans on breeding top quality genetics, with love of genetics and leaning towards a more medicinal specific strains with highest CBD - THC for each aliment, We were just starting three years so far of testing and working various strains all halted that I just want to finish, but I feel I am missing my partner in crime and dont know if I can finish it rather just start new projects.
Anyways. I feel to wrong to apologize , maybe he wont forgive me and if he does how awkward will our relationship be from here on out.. AHHH this been eating me for weeks. Cant sleep for many nights.
Well if you read this and wanna talk to me , Im mostly friendly and if you know me from the last few years im not afraid to share my thoughts even if they are obtrusive
Very Respectfully
BBYY
