Anyone Grow But Rarely Smokes?

MintyDreadlocks

MintyDreadlocks

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So, I'm turning 30 soon. I've been a burnout smoking like crazy since I was 16. As of last year I suddenly started feeling super anxious from smoking weed so I now only do so on rare occasions at night. I just have so much responsibility right now in life and kids that I feel guilty if Im stoned. I also can't smoke weed at my job because for once in my life I have a job that I actually need to give a shit about and if I don't keep my head on a swivel I can end up dead. But the job pays me a living wage. I kind of feel like I broke up with a girlfriend or ended a long lasting relationship. However I still love to grow it and love what it does for people who like to smoke it daily. I feel like I got a lot of the spiritual "lessons" I needed and done my fair share of psychedelics and other illicit substances. I kind of started enjoying being a pissed off adult who just goes to work everyday and pays the bills.

Does anyone relate or have any advice? Just wondering if there are other people here that kind of feel the same way. Is this kind of normal ?
 
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joesoap2013

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You do lose the tolerance quick enough and weed does blow the chops off you
Hit used to ware off me about hour and a half 2 hours cause I didn't smoke anymore such a munchie you get
I never really liked the really strong hit off it
 
Tolerance Break

Tolerance Break

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That's me, brother.

Smoked pretty much daily from 16 to 23. Took a T break when I got a house and a dog to spend more time taking care of each of them. Came back to smoking after 6 months and made a point of getting high less often, with occasional T breaks... now I'm 29, about to turn 30, I'm in the third year of a union apprenticeship and while I'm ready to pass a drug test at all times regardless, I just dont feel the same desire to remain doded all the time. I'm lucky if I smoke a couple times a week, but growing? I'm between grows right now, with some small plants in solo cups, and my life feels incomplete. My job is what I do for a living, growing is what I do. It completes me, and I don't ever plan on stopping.

I love the plant. It's done more for me than I can put into words. It keeps me connected to my mentor, who passed some years back, and it gives me something to study all year round.

It helps that this community has been here for me when my social life kind of fell into ruin during the dark times following covid. The only downside is I don't want to let all my co workers know, but it's such an integral part of my identity, I don't have much else to talk about when people ask me what I do outside of work.

Edit: if I had one piece of advice, it's find strength in your growth as a person and the perserverence it takes. Change is scary, It's okay to not feel happy about change all the time. Every day I wish I had a life I had once before, but there's no going backwards. Sometimes you have to sacrifice the life you have for the life you want.
 
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curious2garden

curious2garden

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Tolerance Break said:
That's me, brother.

Smoked pretty much daily from 16 to 23. Took a T break when I got a house and a dog to spend more time taking care of each of them. Came back to smoking after 6 months and made a point of getting high less often, with occasional T breaks... now I'm 29, about to turn 30, I'm in the third year of a union apprenticeship and while I'm ready to pass a drug test at all times regardless, I just dont feel the same desire to remain doded all the time. I'm lucky if I smoke a couple times a week, but growing? I'm between grows right now, with some small plants in solo cups, and my life feels incomplete. My job is what I do for a living, growing is what I do. It completes me, and I don't ever plan on stopping.

I love the plant. It's done more for me than I can put into words. It keeps me connected to my mentor, who passed some years back, and it gives me something to study all year round.

It helps that this community has been here for me when my social life kind of fell into ruin during the dark times following covid. The only downside is I don't want to let all my co workers know, but it's such an integral part of my identity, I don't have much else to talk about when people ask me what I do outside of work.

Edit: if I had one piece of advice, it's find strength in your growth as a person and the perserverence it takes. Change is scary, It's okay to not feel happy about change all the time. Every day I wish I had a life I had once before, but there's no going backwards. Sometimes you have to sacrifice the life you have for the life you want.
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^^ what he said
 
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OldDude420

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MintyDreadlocks said:
So, I'm turning 30 soon. I've been a burnout smoking like crazy since I was 16. As of last year I suddenly started feeling super anxious from smoking weed so I now only do so on rare occasions at night. I just have so much responsibility right now in life and kids that I feel guilty if Im stoned. I also can't smoke weed at my job because for once in my life I have a job that I actually need to give a shit about and if I don't keep my head on a swivel I can end up dead. But the job pays me a living wage. I kind of feel like I broke up with a girlfriend or ended a long lasting relationship. However I still love to grow it and love what it does for people who like to smoke it daily. I feel like I got a lot of the spiritual "lessons" I needed and done my fair share of psychedelics and other illicit substances. I kind of started enjoying being a pissed off adult who just goes to work everyday and pays the bills.

Does anyone relate or have any advice? Just wondering if there are other people here that kind of feel the same way. Is this kind of normal ?
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I had to quit smoking suddenly in the mid 80's due to my job incorporating random drug testing. Hated it. Always, hated not being able to smoke, but needed to keep the family fed and life commitments. Went from one job that tested to another over the last 40 plus years. Fast forward to now. Turning 65 soon, so I figured it was time to grow a crop and get ready. Crop isn't done yet, but I will not wait any longer. Feels like an old love came back into my life. Not saying what i did was right, it was just right for me.
"We do what we think is right at the time". You gotta do you.
 
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