right now Im just like mildly buzzed after havin 2 (heavy on the rum) rum & cokes, and siping some whiskey. dosn't matter how much more I drink I'm not gonna feel anymore drunk. most likely gonna passout in couple hrs, and wake up at 4 feeling like total shit
I rarely ever puke, but still feel awefull.
I'm in the same situation, If I go out lookin for some I can ask like 100 people (and I seriously ask about that many ppl) I may get lucky and get like a hit off a joint, or a couple grams but once thats gone, It right back to drinkin agin.
Its tough as shit when you get older, and don't got friends, and live in a remote area. damn I sound like a broken record.