life sucks i will die soon im shure

i have been depressed lately i have sever social anxiety and no frinds i want frinds but my social anxiety is horrable. if it wasnt for my dog i would have killed myself a long time ago. im 22 no frinds no family closes family to me is 800 miles away my grandmother who i never talk to. i am about to be homeless cause i cant work cause of my anxiety and the only thing im good at i cant do cause it is illegal where i live i would give anything to have a chance to move to a legal state so i can grow and get medicen for my anxiety without a prison sentance. im not an ugly person i actuly dont look bad at all but i still dont have enough cofidence to go outside much less talk to a girl my dog is about to die he is 18 and i probably wont be to far behide him. i bought a 20 gauge and i keep 1 hollow point slug just incase so i will have a way out of this horrable life. i inderstand that lots of people have it worse than me but it dosent make me feel any better. i mean i have food and drinks and people are out there starveing but i still hate my life. i have no hope and o see no end to this dark tunnel i only relly see one way out...
peace and much love
sticky

Sticky, it's clear we don't know eachother. I'm around your age and I don't think you're thinking about any of what you're saying man! What would your Grandma tell you if you told her you were going to kill yourself? Suicide is the most selfish thing someone could ever do! Think about all the people you've ever met and imagine how they'll feel if you ever did something so stuipd...

C'mon man. Weed is still on this earth, and as long as I'm alive, I'm gonna' be breathing it in. Stick with me!

find your passion bro...throw yourself into unique situations, it's the ONLY way you'll overcome your anxiety. and exercise. I'd also suggest to stop smoking weed as that can and will make your anxiety worse more often than not.


if you're feeling really low (i am too right now, dealing with a VERY stressful situation)...ask yourself..."will THIS situation i find myself in RIGHT NOW be an issue a month from now? 6 months/a year from now?


If you take certain steps to overcome it, then it won't be

Counseling is the only thing that is going to help you. You can cover up your feelings with marijuana and Rx drugs but the only way to fix the problem is to tackle it head on. I have social anxiety, I battle it everyday, but I know that if I don't tackle it head on, I'll be a loser. I don't want to be a loser. I don't want to be a prisoner of my mind. I want to go out and allow myself to have fun. Don't hide from the world because eventually the world comes in for you and when she does it's much harder to handle.

im in a similiar position to you,but nowhere near as bad.probably because i still believe my life will get better,because i have plans to make it better,so i havent lost hope.
and when it comes to talking to ppl,yeah at first you worry,and think youre gunna say something stupid,so that makes you not want to talk to anyone,but most ppl have that same worry.
also once you start talking to ppl its really not as bad as you thought it would be,then your able to relax more,and it becomes enjoyable.so you have to force youself at first,but eventually it becomes more and more natural.then you make friends,and all of a sudden they wanna hang out with you all the time.thats when you know they like ya,and thats when you know you have nothing to worry about and life can be enjoyable.sometimes you have to go outside of your comfort zone to get to where you wanna be in life,but once you get there you know it was all worth it.
keep ya head up man,stay strong and never lose hope.

No matter how bad you think you have it there is always someone that wishes they were you. Go to a hospise center and Volunteer, you will, after a week, have a much dif look on life. Killing yourself is not the answer to any problem. Save your money, do without and move to where you will be happy.

Move becasue you want to grow not becasue you think it will make things better. You are the only one that can make things better and you have the power to turn your life into something you love.

Go for it man, reach out to others, enjoy your life, Have a Powerfull Day!

Yea Sticky sounds like you have a lot of excuses and no solutions you need to start looking for solutions and not letting problems get to you, even if you don't have the solution in front of you search for it while staying positive that there is a solution, I know easier said than done, been trying to work with the wife on this for 2 years. There are 2 kinds of people I call then "talkers" and "doers" a talkers fill themselves and others with hope always having that next big idea but never seeing it thru. Doers see a goal and accomplish it never letting things get them down and never listening to those who say "it'll never happen" or "yea how you going to do that". Thing is don't be a talker, be a doer, set goals for yourself that are reachable and start reaching.

I was busted allegedly growing in 2002, no court case but I did have about a 6month stupor but I always swore I will grow again just not in this state, I got a job and took a vacation in 2004 to Canada via Washington and came back home saying I'm moving there and year later I was moved and 6 years after that i was growing again, legally this time.

I'll leave you with a video song I wasn't sure which but this ones best - also youtube Always Look on the Bright Side of Life - Monty Python or Life is Shit by Dead Milkmen.

[video=youtube;Do6kcmN6Kx4]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Do6kcmN6Kx4[/video]

BuddySkunk said:

Sticky, it's clear we don't know eachother. I'm around your age and I don't think you're thinking about any of what you're saying man! What would your Grandma tell you if you told her you were going to kill yourself? Suicide is the most selfish thing someone could ever do! Think about all the people you've ever met and imagine how they'll feel if you ever did something so stuipd...

C'mon man. Weed is still on this earth, and as long as I'm alive, I'm gonna' be breathing it in. Stick with me!

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Until you have had thoughts of suicide, you have no idea what it's like. There is no amount of "thinking straight" that will make them go away.
It's like telling a schizo to just stop being that way.

Sticky, you need to see a doctor and get on some antianxiety/antidepression meds. Paxil worked well for me. Some people will say it's a dangerous drug, but it's not as dangerous as suicide. I know just how you feel...you need to get on something that helps...

Morgan Lynn said:

Counseling is the only thing that is going to help you.

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I have to disagree. Counseling will not help a chemical imbalance.

kelly4 said:

Until you have had thoughts of suicide, you have no idea what it's like. There is no amount of "thinking straight" that will make them go away.
It's like telling a schizo to just stop being that way.

Sticky, you need to see a doctor and get on some antianxiety/antidepression meds. Paxil worked well for me. Some people will say it's a dangerous drug, but it's not as dangerous as suicide. I know just how you feel...you need to get on something that helps...

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My wives high school best friend has been on a mixed cocktail of pills for 15 years, Zoloft, Paxil, Wellbruterall most recently Lithium (think Labotomy in a pill) they are finally trying to wane her off all that shit, not good. Need some legal less harmful alternative.

LOL Dead Milkmen make me wanna skip class and smoke cigarettes outside Barf Burgers lol life was easier than.

Grojak said:

My wives high school best friend has been on a mixed cocktail of pills for 15 years, Zoloft, Paxil, Wellbruterall most recently Lithium (think Labotomy in a pill) they are finally trying to wane her off all that shit, not good. Need some legal less harmful alternative.

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I have severe anxiety, and when younger thought about suicide on a daily basis. I'm not saying that those drugs are the optimal answer, but no matter how bad the drug, it's better than suicide. Certain strains of MMJ do wonders. I've stopped taking paxil within the last 3 months and things are going very well.

thanks for the replys every one u gave me a little more hope in my life im so supprised how many people try to help someone they never knew or met i apriceate it if you only know how much this(advice) is helping me

You might be able to file for disability. Also sounds like you need to get a new dog as well to cheer you up.

stickyicky0420 said:

i have been depressed lately i have sever social anxiety and no frinds i want frinds but my social anxiety is horrable. if it wasnt for my dog i would have killed myself a long time ago. im 22 no frinds no family closes family to me is 800 miles away my grandmother who i never talk to. i am about to be homeless cause i cant work cause of my anxiety and the only thing im good at i cant do cause it is illegal where i live i would give anything to have a chance to move to a legal state so i can grow and get medicen for my anxiety without a prison sentance. im not an ugly person i actuly dont look bad at all but i still dont have enough cofidence to go outside much less talk to a girl my dog is about to die he is 18 and i probably wont be to far behide him. i bought a 20 gauge and i keep 1 hollow point slug just incase so i will have a way out of this horrable life. i inderstand that lots of people have it worse than me but it dosent make me feel any better. i mean i have food and drinks and people are out there starveing but i still hate my life. i have no hope and o see no end to this dark tunnel i only relly see one way out...
peace and much love
sticky

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1st You gotta get over that social anxiety.Remember no one is above you, we are all equal.You are nothing less than the next person as well.Go to some forums where u can find females to talk to,it wont be in person of course but this will help with not having to put yurself into direct anxiety or pressure,just find some and talk to them honestly but not in a depressed way u know?...the same applies in life but you gotta work your way to that.
2nd Give yourself a break from smoking weed,let your mind clear out of the fog for a bit,it will help.
3rdTake the 20 gauge and get rid of it,you dont really want that specter looming in the room with you.U actualy want to live,I can see that much from your post.
4th when going out in public,your going to have to imagine everyone buck ass naked,it will take that anxiety away real quick replacing it with disgust or delight.Trust me it works,ya just gotta try!

I have severe social anxiety too, it used to be much worse than it is now. The way I coped with the whole job thing was to get a job where human interaction was at a minimum, night stocker at walmart, janitorial work, things like that.

I currently work as a janitor, it's the easiest laid back job I've ever had and I only have to interact with a handful of people, over time you will slowly warm up to your co workers and they can become your friends.

That's about the only way I was able to make friends for a while, once you see that others are not out to judge and attack you it becomes easier, it will always be in the back of your mind and it will always be tough but you can at least have a somewhat normal life.

I am well liked among my friends because I am so trustworthy and helpful, which is just me trying to fit in and have friends because I was so lonely for such a long time.

I know it's hard but it will get easier with time if you make a slight effort, you might try making friends with the elderly, I get along very well with old people and children because I don't see them as a threat like I do with everyone else.

I don't know if any of my advice will help at all but I had to reach out, I always felt that nobody understood what I was going through but we are out there.

Dislexicmidget2021 said:

Go to some forums where u can find females to talk to,it wont be in person of course but this will help with not having to put yurself into direct anxiety or pressure,just find some and talk to them honestly but not in a depressed way u know?!

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Morgan Lynn, just saying

cant quit now bro gotta keep pushin

Dislexicmidget2021 said:

4th when going out in public,your going to have to imagine everyone buck ass naked,it will take that anxiety away real quick replacing it with disgust or delight.Trust me it works,ya just gotta try!

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Trust me, that's not going to work, if it was that easy no one would have this problem. The best way I can describe what is going on, is that I'm like a dog that has been beaten and mistreated it's whole life, in my mind everyone is an enemy out to do me wrong. It's better for me to not trust anyone and just avoid them, it's very hard to get a dogs trust back that has had that happen to them.

I grew up a white kid in a border town and used to get picked on and gang beaten daily, then add the teachers, store clerks, next door neighbors, random people in the stores and on the streets treating me like shit too, along with an asshole stepdad at home and you can see why I don't trust anyone.

I was suicidal at age 10, if it wasn't for the fact that I couldn't bear to think about my mother crying over me killing myself I wouldn't be here. I'm not saying the OP went through a similar experience but he's probably had that ingrained in him for years and years like I did, it's not an easy fix.

what strains help you with anxiety im growing some chrystal right now cause i have herd its a relly up lifting high but i dont relly know marajuana is great for anxiety i just wish i had acess to strains and quality marajuana insted of risking my ass literly on growing it illegaly i dont understand god put this plant on the earth for a reason and why my state talks away from my right to acess any and all herb bearing plant it says that in the bible about god giveing us acess to all herb bearing plants. but i would go to prison for years just for growing not to sell but just for me to have a natural alternative to xanx withdraw is horrable i was on it for years i finaly stoped talking it when i found out the benefits of marajuana.