to my rehab alumni

CreepyStevie69

Well-Known Member

• Aug 21, 2011

• #1

You ever get that bitter sweet nostalgia I got right now?

Medically speaking I have "relapsed" but its not the extent it used to be. You ever get the feeling you miss the old days of just not giving a fuck?

 

lambofgod

Well-Known Member

• Aug 21, 2011

• #2

I'm still living those days


and your avatar is simply awesome.

 

hazed06

Active Member

• Aug 21, 2011

• #3

yes.. iv felt like that alot lately.. i made it sumin like 90days outta treatment b4 i said fuck it and smoke sum bud.. and i haven't gone back to the pills.. yet anyways..
the whole sobriety thing is not what its cracked up to be imo..

 

dirtsurfr

Well-Known Member

• Aug 21, 2011

• #4

As long as you don't hurt someone.
Personally for me sobriety means I Might hurt someone.
And screw those pills!!!!!
Sobriety is a word made up by the Pharmaceutical Co.

 

CreepyStevie69

Well-Known Member

• Aug 21, 2011

• #5

Oh why thank you lamb.

I miss the days of not caring about a thing! Of course under it all I was miserable. I don't miss the lying the stealing the worry the constant need to get my next fix the fact I spent all my money.

But there's just something so appealing about that lifestyle. The "sober" life is great and all. I enjoy working, my family (now that were on good terms), and not worrying about the law. I can't quite put my finger on how to describe the bitter sweetness I feel sometimes.

 

CreepyStevie69

Well-Known Member

• Aug 21, 2011

• #6

That's a long time haze! I made it hardly a month before I started drinking again. Then I said fuck it and dipped my feet in other things again. Tip... don't meet a girl in rehab if you're even semi serious about staying clean.

Dirt...I'm with you on that. Sometimes I feel brainwashed when I think about how I was and how I am now.

 

Perfextionist420

Well-Known Member

• Aug 21, 2011

• #7

So what did you relapse onto? Pills dope?

 

jonblaze420

Well-Known Member

• Aug 21, 2011

• #8

OP call your sponsor!

 

CreepyStevie69

Well-Known Member

• Aug 22, 2011

• #9

Benzos coke dope alcohol amphetamines opiates weed.

That'd kinda looks like a lot. I've never had a drug of choice. But recently I've found myself craving that warm blanket.

Lol I've never had a sponsor. I still consider myself "sober" as I am not high or trying to get high 24/7 anymore.

 

woobystein

Active Member

• Aug 22, 2011

• #10

All things in moderation as the saying goes, includes sobriety. Congrats on being clean tho stevie.

 

CreepyStevie69

Well-Known Member

• Aug 22, 2011

• #11

As of lately I think happy and contributing is more suitable than clean.

But thanks anyway!

But the saying that keeps running thru my head is "its an honest program". I think that should explain this thread then...

 

CreepyStevie69

Well-Known Member

• Aug 22, 2011

• #12

As of lately I think happy and contributing is more suitable than clean.

But thanks anyway!

But the saying that keeps running thru my head is "its an honest program". I think that should explain this thread then...

 

Perfextionist420

Well-Known Member

• Aug 22, 2011

• #13

I've been all over hallucinogens ecstasy coke alcohol etc but at the end of the day all we need is weed