jonnynobody
Well-Known Member
I've been holed up with my wife since last April. She's high risk due to a number of health issues. Her sister and her husband who live in another state just tested positive for covid last week. My sister in law was admitted to the hospital 2 nights ago. She went critical yesterday. Covid has given her pneumonia in both lungs and she's now fighting for her life. She's in so much pain that she can't speak anymore. Her husband of over 25 years is at home worrying if his wife will live or die. My wife and I couldn't sleep last night. I feel like I could puke at any second. My dad, his wife, and mother in law all tested positive several weeks ago but made it through without much fuss. My dad still can't taste or smell anything but is otherwise healthy. Since last April I have buried my anxiety deep inside of me and I've feverishly worked on my garden. It's the only thing that has kept me sane and provides me a sense of peace in this fucking madness. Today I'm struggling to keep the train on the tracks. There was a little 9 year old boy who just had both legs amputated due to a covid related complication. This is the scariest thing I've ever seen in my life and it's not going to end any time soon. I'm going to bury myself in the garden today, and pray for a phone call that provides some good news and desperately needed relief. If anyone else reads this and has had a seriously ill family member or experienced loss due to covid I will pray for you. I don't know what else to do at this point. Heading downstairs to the garden to avoid reality for a little while...
