My weekend in the looney bin.

[wvblazin]

Sativas make my anxiety/panic attacks much worse. I'll fall asleep and wake up gasping for o2.. its weird. For me, heavy indicas help me tremendously.

 

[Da Mann]

Just curious what did you find Sativas make worse, PTSD?

Severe Anxiety, Depression, and PTSD. Yes. In a way they are all related. Like a mini bad trip. Nervous as hell. Anxiety is far worse. A few are not bad. As a rule I just stay away from the pure Sativas, Some Sative Hybrids are ok. One of my favorites is trainwreck.

 

[puffdatchronic]

[QUOTE="puffdatchronic, post: 10559774have you never watched 'one flew over the cuckoo's nest'?

You took a big risk going in there voluntary, once your in there, they can keep you there for the rest of your life if someone takes the notion.

I would think it would be far better to go in voluntarily....... than to be commited involuntarily
There must be different rules for each application.
I'm not talking from experience even though there are 2 mental institutions within 15 miles of my home.......damn here comes nurse Ratched gotta go !!!![/QUOTE]

Yeah it is better in theory, but just like the film, if he happened to run into a nurse or doctor who took a dislike to him, they could in theory conspire to keep him there for as long as they want. I wouldn't be the least bit surprised if there is a patient locked up somewhere that should be free, but for some sociopathic doctor enjoying a cruel game.

my main point is once you step into their house, it's their rules and they can fuck your whole life up on a whim.

 

[Da Mann]

Just a side note here. I quit pot for a long time. I was taking 3 xanax a day and 4-5 norco a day. Now I take 1/2 of a xanax and 1/2 a norco a day. I only smoke in the evening after all my stuff is done. I wake up fresh and it seems like it is there still but not the high. If you get what I mean. Pain and anxiety are at a level I can deal with.

 

[rory420420]

find your triggers,and fight to keep them away..i keep my anxiety to a minimum by staying out public,and doing things like having my wife interact with strangers(like paying bills over the phone,returning products to the store)..i found prevention helps alot...

 

[puffdatchronic]

find your triggers,and fight to keep them away..i keep my anxiety to a minimum by staying out public,and doing things like having my wife interact with strangers(like paying bills over the phone,returning products to the store)..i found prevention helps alot...

Reminds me of myself. But lately I have been trying to improve myself in these areas. I think the key to overcoming anxiety is first and foremost get in good shape. A positive identity has it's base in a positive body image. Get to a stage where you love your own body image and it helps a lot. Secondly is to practice eye contact and conversation skills. Anxiety must have it's roots in the fear of being rejected by others, you need to come to terms with 2 things. 1- Most people are just as scared of you as you are of them, if you act comfortable and confident ,they will reciprocate. 2 - a small percentage WILL reject you, you just have to learn to accept that some people are jerks. Be confident with everyone you see and do not even register rejection, move on without thinking about it, because you don't want to know assholes anyway. Don't go down the 'let your wife do everything' route.. I've been down it ,and it ends up with you losing social skills and confidence. Life is actually more enjoyable when you engage with others, especially attractive women, just don't tell your wife.

 

[greenlikemoney]

If you smoke I have found Sativas make it a lot worse. For me Indicas work but it does keep me a bit on the tired side.

Dude, I would highly recommend you exit Gods' Country ASAP......seriously, unless you go west of the Mississippi, WV is the worst place you could be considering your mental state.

 

[iamnobody]

Yeah, the stuff I'm smoking now does wonders for the most part, but if I over indulge it makes everything worse. I found 2 weeks on/2 weeks off is a good balance. Although I'm not sure of the strain or anything else. Just street regs.

I hate to hear how the VA suffers like that. My brother is a vet. He made it out scott free though and I'm grateful of that. I'd hate to think of how he would be if he had to rely on 3rd world grade medical care.

Texas has amazing mental health care, surprisingly. I almost regret moving away from there, just for that reason.

Where I live doesn't have medical.

I'm hoping to start group again, by next week. Not sure how well it will go, but it will help me get back on my meds, and get me out of the house for a little bit each week.

 

[wvblazin]

Dude, I would highly recommend you exit Gods' Country ASAP......seriously, unless you go west of the Mississippi, WV is the worst place you could be considering your mental state.

Aside from being a little too conservative for my tastes.. even though I consider myself somewhat conservative.. I think WV is a great place to live. The only places that I could think of that'd be better would be Alaska or Montana. I like being able to do my own thing without a million neighbors breathing down my back or calling the fuzz. Gives me a lot of time to reflect on different things and I have to say that where I live is one of the best places in the US to raise my children.

 

[wvblazin]

Yeah, the stuff I'm smoking now does wonders for the most part, but if I over indulge it makes everything worse. I found 2 weeks on/2 weeks off is a good balance. Although I'm not sure of the strain or anything else. Just street regs.

I hate to hear how the VA suffers like that. My brother is a vet. He made it out scott free though and I'm grateful of that. I'd hate to think of how he would be if he had to rely on 3rd world grade medical care.

Texas has amazing mental health care, surprisingly. I almost regret moving away from there, just for that reason.

Where I live doesn't have medical.

I'm hoping to start group again, by next week. Not sure how well it will go, but it will help me get back on my meds, and get me out of the house for a little bit each week.

Group would definitely be a good idea and if you need meds I'd recommend trying Paxil out. There are only two meds approved for PTSD and Paxil has the least amount of side effects and is very soothing. I was on Xanax for a long time.. also Oxycontin and Morphine for chronic pain. I didn't truly start to feel better until I quit taking all of that stuff. I still have episodes of anxiety and panic attacks sometimes but nowhere near like before.. Best of luck to you my friend. You're definitely not alone.

 

[rory420420]

Reminds me of myself. But lately I have been trying to improve myself in these areas. I think the key to overcoming anxiety is first and foremost get shape. A positive identity has it's base in a positive body image. Get to a stage where you love your own body image and it helps a lot. Secondly is to practice eye contact and conversation skills. Anxiety must have it's roots in the fear of being rejected by others, you need to come to terms with 2 things. 1- Most people are just as scared of you as you are of them, if you act comfortable and confident ,they will reciprocate. 2 - a small percentage WILL reject you, you just have to learn to accept that some people are jerks. Be confident with everyone you see and do not even register rejection, move on without thinking about it, because you don't want to know assholes anyway. Don't go down the 'let your wife do everything' route.. I've been down it ,and it ends up with you losing social skills and confidence. Life is actually more enjoyable when you engage with others, especially attractive women, just don't tell your wife.

my anxeity isnt from fear of rejection..the main population of the word disgusts me,i get in public and no one know how to act right,be a normal person..i get the fear..i feel like the worlds gonna end any minute due to these horrible unknowin unobservant people...ive almost got in fistfights at walmart from this..people thinking they are the only ones on earth,stopping in an isle,talking in a doorway,making others uncomfortable sd they have to slide by..i get angry and paranoid about conforming to what everyone else sees as normal..i see people walk by(in numbers)struggling elderly people without asking for help..and it makes me fear society,that we can be this fucked up on a regular basis and not even realize it..that fear builds,knowing myself,ill speak out angrily at these offenders or keep clammed up,usually choosing the latter,or staying deathly afraid of the former(who really wants a hostil confrontation?not me)
so i just stay away from those situations,and,ive learned to be a fast shopper!lol...i guess caring too much can hurt..yourself..

 

[greenlikemoney]

Aside from being a little too conservative for my tastes.. even though I consider myself somewhat conservative.. I think WV is a great place to live. The only places that I could think of that'd be better would be Alaska or Montana. I like being able to do my own thing without a million neighbors breathing down my back or calling the fuzz. Gives me a lot of time to reflect on different things and I have to say that where I live is one of the best places in the US to raise my children.

I wasn't knocking WV, it's a beautiful place.

 

[wvblazin]

my anxeity isnt from fear of rejection..the main population of the word disgusts me,i get in public and no one know how to act right,be a normal person..i get the fear..i feel like the worlds gonna end any minute due to these horrible unknowin unobservant people...ive almost got in fistfights at walmart from this..people thinking they are the only ones on earth,stopping in an isle,talking in a doorway,making others uncomfortable sd they have to slide by..i get angry and paranoid about conforming to what everyone else sees as normal..i see people walk by(in numbers)struggling elderly people without asking for help..and it makes me fear society,that we can be this fucked up on a regular basis and not even realize it..that fear builds,knowing myself,ill speak out angrily at these offenders or keep clammed up,usually choosing the latter,or staying deathly afraid of the former(who really wants a hostil confrontation?not me)
so i just stay away from those situations,and,ive learned to be a fast shopper!lol...i guess caring too much can hurt..yourself..

I know exactly what you mean.. I normally go to wally world at like 2am and do my xmas shopping in September-October to avoid the crowds of inconsiderate assholes.

 

[rory420420]

we have a religious college across the street from wally world..young rich kids who have no idea how to interact with the world,no manners,got their way all their life..one of these fucks walked in front of my 8month pregnant wife,standing in line with a cart of groceries,and just stand there..cut in line like we were invisible..i went completely slap the fuck off on this dude..got to the point where i started in on him,and he said "i think.." i interrupted him with "you dont think! if you did,youd say im sorry and get behind,or,youd think now about how im getting ready to crack your fucking head open right here and now!"..i dont like it when i turn into that...

 

[puffdatchronic]

my anxeity isnt from fear of rejection..the main population of the word disgusts me,i get in public and no one know how to act right,be a normal person..i get the fear..i feel like the worlds gonna end any minute due to these horrible unknowin unobservant people...ive almost got in fistfights at walmart from this..people thinking they are the only ones on earth,stopping in an isle,talking in a doorway,making others uncomfortable sd they have to slide by..i get angry and paranoid about conforming to what everyone else sees as normal..i see people walk by(in numbers)struggling elderly people without asking for help..and it makes me fear society,that we can be this fucked up on a regular basis and not even realize it..that fear builds,knowing myself,ill speak out angrily at these offenders or keep clammed up,usually choosing the latter,or staying deathly afraid of the former(who really wants a hostil confrontation?not me)
so i just stay away from those situations,and,ive learned to be a fast shopper!lol...i guess caring too much can hurt..yourself..

That is very interesting, I wonder what would have caused these feelings. I know what you mean, the world is messed up, but you gotta just give people the benefit of the doubt, and empathise, ask yourself.. am I the asshole blocking the aisle sometimes too? Do I always help the pregnant woman? People are just trying to get through their own existence with their own problems. Here is an idea, it is shock therapy , Try looking through the entire bestgore.com website. Once you see how really depraved and sick some people are, maybe you won't feel so annoyed about minor things.. once you have seen teenage boys torture and murder an innocent old man in a forest with a hammer and screwdriver, the guy who cuts in line wont look so bad

 

[rory420420]

ahh..but see,the guy that cuts in line,to me,also has his grandmas tied up in the basement..that,or hes gonna pull some trenchcoat mafia shit,or start stabbin!..id you know walmart projects @1000 deaths from acts of violence in their stores,every holiday season..shit like this terrifys me..i walk around when i go out with knifes..ive been known to tote a pistol to get gas!..i have problems..lol

 

[clownfreak9000]

lol welcome to thhe club bro, glad your out though man for real

 

[Happygirl]

So I got out of the psyche ward yesterday. Oh what a fun experience that was.

I ended up checking myself in... for reasons... and it was just crap from the start. Long story short, after cussing out my doc for the 2nd time for being dismissive and requesting to see a different psychologist they released me against doctors recommendation.

I guess it's easier to write a patient off rather than offer them help that they requested.

Gotta love the American medical system

Been there done that bs if you ask me!!!!

 

[iamnobody]

So follow up appointment with the therapist today. They're going to start random drug testing, because I tested positive at the hospital. Wish I lived in medical state. The herb has less side effects then the pills that the jam down my throat, but... for reasons... I need to play their game and keep clean.

As far as actual treatment goes they're giving me 3 therapy groups that I need to attend weekly, as well as a healthy does of pharmaceuticals that have yet to be determined.

On the plus side, this guy seems to actually be competent, which is more than I can say for anyone else that I've seen. I still don't trust him though.

 

[abe supercro]

good luck with all that somebody... man life sure does have it's unique challenges at times. I like the adage that we aren't ever given, or presented by life, anything we can't handle or get through... we made ok this far right?

I can relate to a lot of what I've read here!
peace friends