I started getting high at the age of 12, was chewing tobacco since the age of 9.( I no longer use any tobacco products with the exception of a fine cigar now and again) Have never entertained the thought of taking my own life, now there have been a few peeps I have met along the way that I wished a bridge would collapse on them, but who hasn't.
I am now nearing 51, have 5 children, 2 grandchildren, another grandchild on the way and I consider myself one of the luckiest people on the planet that my children ( 2 of them smoke weed daily, the others once in a while if ever) seem to be doing well and carrying their own weight. None have tried to move back home and have only asked for assistance a couple of times since they graduated high school.
I am proof God looks after damn fools and babies, I just know I got to fit in there somewhere.
Peace
Asmallvoice