WHATFG
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If anyone cares....
I am two days shy of being off morphine for 6 months....it's been a bit rough on a few fronts. I had the shits for about 3 months but I ate and ate and ate. I put about 10 lbs on in 4 months, it's not an issue but more of an observation...I obviously needed to eat to get good crap going through my body. I exercise everyday to my ability and I've lost a few pounds. Sleep eludes me...if I were to go to bed at 9pm, I will be up every 11/2 to 2 hours because of pain or sweats...I am starting to think that my body hasn't quite adjusted to not having this crap even though it has been a good period of time...I have a little bit of a social life...I have been going out to jams since about February, meeting lots of local musicians and having a blast...I love singing...I have been going for massage every two weeks since February because my back seems to be in perpetual spasm, and from that has flowed something interesting. The masseuse I have know for several years...she is training to be an osteopath and asked me to be her practicum guinea pig so for the next two months I get "free" osteopathic treatments. I tell you, I didn't really realize how connected everything is until it was disconnected. Pain changes people...it has certainly changed me. I find I have no patience for bullshit...I feel like I missed a big part of my life but not to dwell, I move forward. My personal life is in the ditch, but I maintain my focus on having the best day I can every day. And of course I come here every day for love, laughter, information. My garden is growing well, and although I have shitty pain control right now (plants take time to grow) and life is kinda sucking the big one, I am clear headed and that in and of itself, is something I wouldn't give up to have better pain control.
I am two days shy of being off morphine for 6 months....it's been a bit rough on a few fronts. I had the shits for about 3 months but I ate and ate and ate. I put about 10 lbs on in 4 months, it's not an issue but more of an observation...I obviously needed to eat to get good crap going through my body. I exercise everyday to my ability and I've lost a few pounds. Sleep eludes me...if I were to go to bed at 9pm, I will be up every 11/2 to 2 hours because of pain or sweats...I am starting to think that my body hasn't quite adjusted to not having this crap even though it has been a good period of time...I have a little bit of a social life...I have been going out to jams since about February, meeting lots of local musicians and having a blast...I love singing...I have been going for massage every two weeks since February because my back seems to be in perpetual spasm, and from that has flowed something interesting. The masseuse I have know for several years...she is training to be an osteopath and asked me to be her practicum guinea pig so for the next two months I get "free" osteopathic treatments. I tell you, I didn't really realize how connected everything is until it was disconnected. Pain changes people...it has certainly changed me. I find I have no patience for bullshit...I feel like I missed a big part of my life but not to dwell, I move forward. My personal life is in the ditch, but I maintain my focus on having the best day I can every day. And of course I come here every day for love, laughter, information. My garden is growing well, and although I have shitty pain control right now (plants take time to grow) and life is kinda sucking the big one, I am clear headed and that in and of itself, is something I wouldn't give up to have better pain control.
