ya, that bitch has some mental issues herself, but I love her still. we just had a huge fight, and I've been really rethinking our relationship. we've been hanging out a lot, but I've basically been her boyfriend without benefits because I'm still lovin that girl but she's over me. I buy her food, movie tickets, show tickets, drive her places, and basically act like her boyfriend, but without the benefits one would expect. After I told her a couple things while in a vicodin stupor that turned out to be a big mistake I got really mad at her for doing verbatim what I had said I wanted to do with her (just hold her close and be with her) right in front of me.
she bothers me for a couple hours to come see her, then she says she's at jacob's house and when I get there she's all over jacob, fucking pissed me off. I got nothing against jacob, he didn't know, it's not his fault, it's just that she can do these things right in front when she knows how I'll react. The way she's messed with my emotions has actually brought out personal rage against her. The other day I almost jumped her because of a couple snide comments, it just struck a nerve with me and I didn't care that she's a skinny girl and 35 pounds less than me, I wanted to beat her goddamn face in.
You can see why I'm not in a great mood towards women right now if what I just ranted made any sense to you.