I did hot tar roofing in the 70's in S. Fla - that shit was brutal & it didn't trash my back but I've had several spots burned off & cut out of my hide.
Excessive sun exposure ain't funny.
What did you accomplish today?
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Excessive sun exposure ain't funny.
Mitchician
Well-Known Member
Hi everybody, this is just an update on my situation and a genuine apology for my behaviour on this site.
I don't expect forgiveness or to be accepted back here now that I have realised what I've done.
Some of you may not think I've done too much wrong, but I now realise that many of the things I've said and posted about have been ridiculously overzealous, rude, insensitive, and maybe even racist. I broke many boundaries while showing an utter lack of respect for many things, including the history of The United States in particular. I'm so very sorry. From the bottom of my heart.
I used Japanese words with no thought for their history with the US, and didn't even 'click' when I saw pictures on here that should have made me realise what I had done. I have little sense of patriotism and have blocked out many things that cause me mental distress. I occasionally use a few Japanese words in daily speech because I studied Karate for a short time, and while I was doing so, learned a tiny bit of their language. It occurred to me at the time that Karate became quite popular around the world, especially the United States, during the 80's and early 90's. Maybe because this was in my mind, I underestimated the underlying pain still lingering from war times. I also have very little knowledge of history in general.
I posted a recipe for "Afghan" biscuits. I was only thinking of their land race strains and their relevance to this site, nothing more.
I see now how that was completely insensitive.
I'm so sorry, especially to any war veterans in here, who were offended by anything at all that I've posted in my time here.
I acted like a creep to LG and posted pics in her thread without permission. Sorry LG, it was my lousy attempt at making friends.
I wasn't trying to 'woo' a beautiful woman from halfway across the world who's already taken and will always be completely out of my league even when I have sorted my life out. All posts were in good spirits, and I hope you're well and have a happy and successful life.
I didn't support jerryb when his house got broken into, even after he told me personally about that and other stressful things happening with him and his family. I was so low at that point I didn't know if what I said, would sound like it was coming from an honest place or not. I thank you dearly for your support Jerry, even at a time of such pain for you. I want to wish you and your loved ones all the best.
If it looks like I was trying to gain attention for the bush fires, I really hope it didn't look like that and it truly breaks my heart to see so much destruction and was only trying to show support for our friends over there.
I talked about my Indian friends down the road in an insensitive manner, and pretended like I'm some kind of growing sage.
The truth is I'm just a novice in far more areas other than growing and was trying to get attention and praise because of my codependency.
I posted many full sized pictures in many peoples threads including this one, about things that weren't even interesting or accomplishments.
I posted things that had some kind of underlying hidden message, trying to look all clever or something. Don't even know what that was all about.
I acted like I was some kind of hero out to save the planet. Now I realise what I was doing. 'Virtue signalling'.
I was insensitive about a friend's admission of their bipolar disorder, and mental health disorders in general. I also failed to see the irony.
I apologise to anyone on this forum who suffers from any mental distress and feels I hurt them in any way.
I expected empathy but offered not a lot to others when they needed it.
I spoke with far more cuss words than I usually do just to try to fit into a certain unruly mob (of bloody good people).
I probably ruined a lot of threads with my pessimism, arrogance, and generally disrespectful attitude.
I had a complete disaster in a certain thread in The Black Briefcase section. That was rock bottom. I was completely gone.
I hope you all believe me when I say it wasn't intentional, but pure ignorance that I displayed, not only in that post, but many others too.
Any and all abusive posts openly or discretely aimed at me were most probably well deserved.
I was/am still sick but that's no excuse, and you all had every right to be mad at me for the things I said and did.
I want to extend my gratitude to any and all members who recognised I wasn't well and defended me when others probably hated my guts.
I also want to thank all you wonderful people who personally offered to 'lend an ear' if I needed it, that really means a lot.
I failed to thank all the staff working behind the scenes who all contribute to keeping this place alive and well.
Thank you all so much for your work.
Over the last few days I've been getting some really good help with my problems and also doing tons of exercise and eating very little and very modest foods while smoking much less herb. I've decided to ditch my outdoor plants until if/when we go legal and also plan to shut my closet grow down for a while too while trying to taper off completely for a much needed tolerance break.
Finally, I apologise (especially to the cellphone users) for such a long post, but I feel like everything I wrote needed to be said.
I put it in here because I feel like it's where it belongs. My accomplishment today is starting to recover my true self and making a real apology.
I won't be making a return here any time soon, as I'm trying to focus on recovery and self discipline, and being on here is likely to distract me from my goals. I'm also extremely embarrassed. Thank you all for this lesson. I really needed it.
I don't expect forgiveness or to be accepted back here now that I have realised what I've done.
Some of you may not think I've done too much wrong, but I now realise that many of the things I've said and posted about have been ridiculously overzealous, rude, insensitive, and maybe even racist. I broke many boundaries while showing an utter lack of respect for many things, including the history of The United States in particular. I'm so very sorry. From the bottom of my heart.
I used Japanese words with no thought for their history with the US, and didn't even 'click' when I saw pictures on here that should have made me realise what I had done. I have little sense of patriotism and have blocked out many things that cause me mental distress. I occasionally use a few Japanese words in daily speech because I studied Karate for a short time, and while I was doing so, learned a tiny bit of their language. It occurred to me at the time that Karate became quite popular around the world, especially the United States, during the 80's and early 90's. Maybe because this was in my mind, I underestimated the underlying pain still lingering from war times. I also have very little knowledge of history in general.
I posted a recipe for "Afghan" biscuits. I was only thinking of their land race strains and their relevance to this site, nothing more.
I see now how that was completely insensitive.
I'm so sorry, especially to any war veterans in here, who were offended by anything at all that I've posted in my time here.
I acted like a creep to LG and posted pics in her thread without permission. Sorry LG, it was my lousy attempt at making friends.
I wasn't trying to 'woo' a beautiful woman from halfway across the world who's already taken and will always be completely out of my league even when I have sorted my life out. All posts were in good spirits, and I hope you're well and have a happy and successful life.
I didn't support jerryb when his house got broken into, even after he told me personally about that and other stressful things happening with him and his family. I was so low at that point I didn't know if what I said, would sound like it was coming from an honest place or not. I thank you dearly for your support Jerry, even at a time of such pain for you. I want to wish you and your loved ones all the best.
If it looks like I was trying to gain attention for the bush fires, I really hope it didn't look like that and it truly breaks my heart to see so much destruction and was only trying to show support for our friends over there.
I talked about my Indian friends down the road in an insensitive manner, and pretended like I'm some kind of growing sage.
The truth is I'm just a novice in far more areas other than growing and was trying to get attention and praise because of my codependency.
I posted many full sized pictures in many peoples threads including this one, about things that weren't even interesting or accomplishments.
I posted things that had some kind of underlying hidden message, trying to look all clever or something. Don't even know what that was all about.
I acted like I was some kind of hero out to save the planet. Now I realise what I was doing. 'Virtue signalling'.
I was insensitive about a friend's admission of their bipolar disorder, and mental health disorders in general. I also failed to see the irony.
I apologise to anyone on this forum who suffers from any mental distress and feels I hurt them in any way.
I expected empathy but offered not a lot to others when they needed it.
I spoke with far more cuss words than I usually do just to try to fit into a certain unruly mob (of bloody good people).
I probably ruined a lot of threads with my pessimism, arrogance, and generally disrespectful attitude.
I had a complete disaster in a certain thread in The Black Briefcase section. That was rock bottom. I was completely gone.
I hope you all believe me when I say it wasn't intentional, but pure ignorance that I displayed, not only in that post, but many others too.
Any and all abusive posts openly or discretely aimed at me were most probably well deserved.
I was/am still sick but that's no excuse, and you all had every right to be mad at me for the things I said and did.
I want to extend my gratitude to any and all members who recognised I wasn't well and defended me when others probably hated my guts.
I also want to thank all you wonderful people who personally offered to 'lend an ear' if I needed it, that really means a lot.
I failed to thank all the staff working behind the scenes who all contribute to keeping this place alive and well.
Thank you all so much for your work.
Over the last few days I've been getting some really good help with my problems and also doing tons of exercise and eating very little and very modest foods while smoking much less herb. I've decided to ditch my outdoor plants until if/when we go legal and also plan to shut my closet grow down for a while too while trying to taper off completely for a much needed tolerance break.
Finally, I apologise (especially to the cellphone users) for such a long post, but I feel like everything I wrote needed to be said.
I put it in here because I feel like it's where it belongs. My accomplishment today is starting to recover my true self and making a real apology.
I won't be making a return here any time soon, as I'm trying to focus on recovery and self discipline, and being on here is likely to distract me from my goals. I'm also extremely embarrassed. Thank you all for this lesson. I really needed it.
DustyDuke
Well-Known Member
I remember when I believed my chicks lies. Those were the daysMade my girl cum lol
DustyDuke
Well-Known Member
Bloody kiwis lol. Go build some damn scaffold sit the hell down and chill the fuck out.Hi everybody, this is just an update on my situation and a genuine apology for my behaviour on this site.
I don't expect forgiveness or to be accepted back here now that I have realised what I've done.
Some of you may not think I've done too much wrong, but I now realise that many of the things I've said and posted about have been ridiculously overzealous, rude, insensitive, and maybe even racist. I broke many boundaries while showing an utter lack of respect for many things, including the history of The United States in particular. I'm so very sorry. From the bottom of my heart.
I used Japanese words with no thought for their history with the US, and didn't even 'click' when I saw pictures on here that should have made me realise what I had done. I have little sense of patriotism and have blocked out many things that cause me mental distress. I occasionally use a few Japanese words in daily speech because I studied Karate for a short time, and while I was doing so, learned a tiny bit of their language. It occurred to me at the time that Karate became quite popular around the world, especially the United States, during the 80's and early 90's. Maybe because this was in my mind, I underestimated the underlying pain still lingering from war times. I also have very little knowledge of history in general.
I posted a recipe for "Afghan" biscuits. I was only thinking of their land race strains and their relevance to this site, nothing more.
I see now how that was completely insensitive.
I'm so sorry, especially to any war veterans in here, who were offended by anything at all that I've posted in my time here.
I acted like a creep to LG and posted pics in her thread without permission. Sorry LG, it was my lousy attempt at making friends.
I wasn't trying to 'woo' a beautiful woman from halfway across the world who's already taken and will always be completely out of my league even when I have sorted my life out. All posts were in good spirits, and I hope you're well and have a happy and successful life.
I didn't support jerryb when his house got broken into, even after he told me personally about that and other stressful things happening with him and his family. I was so low at that point I didn't know if what I said, would sound like it was coming from an honest place or not. I thank you dearly for your support Jerry, even at a time of such pain for you. I want to wish you and your loved ones all the best.
If it looks like I was trying to gain attention for the bush fires, I really hope it didn't look like that and it truly breaks my heart to see so much destruction and was only trying to show support for our friends over there.
I talked about my Indian friends down the road in an insensitive manner, and pretended like I'm some kind of growing sage.
The truth is I'm just a novice in far more areas other than growing and was trying to get attention and praise because of my codependency.
I posted many full sized pictures in many peoples threads including this one, about things that weren't even interesting or accomplishments.
I posted things that had some kind of underlying hidden message, trying to look all clever or something. Don't even know what that was all about.
I acted like I was some kind of hero out to save the planet. Now I realise what I was doing. 'Virtue signalling'.
I was insensitive about a friend's admission of their bipolar disorder, and mental health disorders in general. I also failed to see the irony.
I apologise to anyone on this forum who suffers from any mental distress and feels I hurt them in any way.
I expected empathy but offered not a lot to others when they needed it.
I spoke with far more cuss words than I usually do just to try to fit into a certain unruly mob (of bloody good people).
I probably ruined a lot of threads with my pessimism, arrogance, and generally disrespectful attitude.
I had a complete disaster in a certain thread in The Black Briefcase section. That was rock bottom. I was completely gone.
I hope you all believe me when I say it wasn't intentional, but pure ignorance that I displayed, not only in that post, but many others too.
Any and all abusive posts openly or discretely aimed at me were most probably well deserved.
I was/am still sick but that's no excuse, and you all had every right to be mad at me for the things I said and did.
I want to extend my gratitude to any and all members who recognised I wasn't well and defended me when others probably hated my guts.
I also want to thank all you wonderful people who personally offered to 'lend an ear' if I needed it, that really means a lot.
I failed to thank all the staff working behind the scenes who all contribute to keeping this place alive and well.
Thank you all so much for your work.
Over the last few days I've been getting some really good help with my problems and also doing tons of exercise and eating very little and very modest foods while smoking much less herb. I've decided to ditch my outdoor plants until if/when we go legal and also plan to shut my closet grow down for a while too while trying to taper off completely for a much needed tolerance break.
Finally, I apologise (especially to the cellphone users) for such a long post, but I feel like everything I wrote needed to be said.
I put it in here because I feel like it's where it belongs. My accomplishment today is starting to recover my true self and making a real apology.
I won't be making a return here any time soon, as I'm trying to focus on recovery and self discipline, and being on here is likely to distract me from my goals. I'm also extremely embarrassed. Thank you all for this lesson. I really needed it.
Metasynth
Well-Known Member
I think 5800 lbs would be over 700 gallons. A 70 gallon tank, including gravel and decorations shouldn’t weigh much over 600lbs. The water weight of 70 gallons of just water is about 560 lbs, but the gravel and decorations weigh a little more.
Still, a lot of weight to lug one bucket at a time
Metasynth
Well-Known Member
This may be part of his 12 step program, making amends for his earlier transgressions in life.
DustyDuke
Well-Known Member
Sorry I should translate from A/NZ language!
Do something to take your mind off it, then relax and smoke a fatty.
I get why backpackers think we are assholes hahahahaha
@Mitchician knows my pm always open, he’s been solid since if been speaking to him. Tbh I’ve never witnessed anything untoward’s that he has done. But you are always your own biggest critic.
Actually I got that LOL So straya shipped all the peeps with feels to NZ?
Whoa! My uncles fought in the Pacific Theater and then my husband was stationed in Japan for 3 years and spoke fluent Japanese. He still uses some words. It bothered no one in my family. Most of your long emoting post is non issues or at least stuff I do so feel free to be insensitive with me anytime you want. Now listen to your neighbor and go chillHi everybody, this is just an update on my situation and a genuine apology for my behaviour on this site.
I don't expect forgiveness or to be accepted back here now that I have realised what I've done.
Some of you may not think I've done too much wrong, but I now realise that many of the things I've said and posted about have been ridiculously overzealous, rude, insensitive, and maybe even racist. I broke many boundaries while showing an utter lack of respect for many things, including the history of The United States in particular. I'm so very sorry. From the bottom of my heart.
I used Japanese words with no thought for their history with the US, and didn't even 'click' when I saw pictures on here that should have made me realise what I had done. I have little sense of patriotism and have blocked out many things that cause me mental distress. I occasionally use a few Japanese words in daily speech because I studied Karate for a short time, and while I was doing so, learned a tiny bit of their language. It occurred to me at the time that Karate became quite popular around the world, especially the United States, during the 80's and early 90's. Maybe because this was in my mind, I underestimated the underlying pain still lingering from war times. I also have very little knowledge of history in general.
I posted a recipe for "Afghan" biscuits. I was only thinking of their land race strains and their relevance to this site, nothing more.
I see now how that was completely insensitive.
I'm so sorry, especially to any war veterans in here, who were offended by anything at all that I've posted in my time here.
I acted like a creep to LG and posted pics in her thread without permission. Sorry LG, it was my lousy attempt at making friends.
I wasn't trying to 'woo' a beautiful woman from halfway across the world who's already taken and will always be completely out of my league even when I have sorted my life out. All posts were in good spirits, and I hope you're well and have a happy and successful life.
I didn't support jerryb when his house got broken into, even after he told me personally about that and other stressful things happening with him and his family. I was so low at that point I didn't know if what I said, would sound like it was coming from an honest place or not. I thank you dearly for your support Jerry, even at a time of such pain for you. I want to wish you and your loved ones all the best.
If it looks like I was trying to gain attention for the bush fires, I really hope it didn't look like that and it truly breaks my heart to see so much destruction and was only trying to show support for our friends over there.
I talked about my Indian friends down the road in an insensitive manner, and pretended like I'm some kind of growing sage.
The truth is I'm just a novice in far more areas other than growing and was trying to get attention and praise because of my codependency.
I posted many full sized pictures in many peoples threads including this one, about things that weren't even interesting or accomplishments.
I posted things that had some kind of underlying hidden message, trying to look all clever or something. Don't even know what that was all about.
I acted like I was some kind of hero out to save the planet. Now I realise what I was doing. 'Virtue signalling'.
I was insensitive about a friend's admission of their bipolar disorder, and mental health disorders in general. I also failed to see the irony.
I apologise to anyone on this forum who suffers from any mental distress and feels I hurt them in any way.
I expected empathy but offered not a lot to others when they needed it.
I spoke with far more cuss words than I usually do just to try to fit into a certain unruly mob (of bloody good people).
I probably ruined a lot of threads with my pessimism, arrogance, and generally disrespectful attitude.
I had a complete disaster in a certain thread in The Black Briefcase section. That was rock bottom. I was completely gone.
I hope you all believe me when I say it wasn't intentional, but pure ignorance that I displayed, not only in that post, but many others too.
Any and all abusive posts openly or discretely aimed at me were most probably well deserved.
I was/am still sick but that's no excuse, and you all had every right to be mad at me for the things I said and did.
I want to extend my gratitude to any and all members who recognised I wasn't well and defended me when others probably hated my guts.
I also want to thank all you wonderful people who personally offered to 'lend an ear' if I needed it, that really means a lot.
I failed to thank all the staff working behind the scenes who all contribute to keeping this place alive and well.
Thank you all so much for your work.
Over the last few days I've been getting some really good help with my problems and also doing tons of exercise and eating very little and very modest foods while smoking much less herb. I've decided to ditch my outdoor plants until if/when we go legal and also plan to shut my closet grow down for a while too while trying to taper off completely for a much needed tolerance break.
Finally, I apologise (especially to the cellphone users) for such a long post, but I feel like everything I wrote needed to be said.
I put it in here because I feel like it's where it belongs. My accomplishment today is starting to recover my true self and making a real apology.
I won't be making a return here any time soon, as I'm trying to focus on recovery and self discipline, and being on here is likely to distract me from my goals. I'm also extremely embarrassed. Thank you all for this lesson. I really needed it.
glad you didn't leave.
tangerinegreen555
Well-Known Member
New windshield, no more crack or stickers.
They cut them out and wrap them in a paper towel so you don't get cut. Just hand them to the cops if you get pulled over and let them get cut I guess.
Can't wash with pressure water out of a hose until tomorrow. Can't drive for an hour. Can't slam doors shut with windows up for 24 hours.
The can't drive for an hour isn't about the sealer setting as much as it's if you wreck and deploy the air bag, it can blow the windshield the fuck out.
You gotta wonder who discovered that one. Lol.
Feb. 3 appointment for inspection anyway, it's due. Fuck their 5 business day law to replace stickers, who gives car inspection appointments in 5 days? You go when they have the next opening. My car place is busy but they would sell you replacement stickers for $16 I think. Not paying extra if it's due anyway, that's stupid.
I've seen lots of your post's & never witnessed any abusive or churlish behavior.Hi everybody, this is just an update on my situation and a genuine apology for my behaviour on this site.
I don't expect forgiveness or to be accepted back here now that I have realised what I've done.
Some of you may not think I've done too much wrong, but I now realise that many of the things I've said and posted about have been ridiculously overzealous, rude, insensitive, and maybe even racist. I broke many boundaries while showing an utter lack of respect for many things, including the history of The United States in particular. I'm so very sorry. From the bottom of my heart.
I used Japanese words with no thought for their history with the US, and didn't even 'click' when I saw pictures on here that should have made me realise what I had done. I have little sense of patriotism and have blocked out many things that cause me mental distress. I occasionally use a few Japanese words in daily speech because I studied Karate for a short time, and while I was doing so, learned a tiny bit of their language. It occurred to me at the time that Karate became quite popular around the world, especially the United States, during the 80's and early 90's. Maybe because this was in my mind, I underestimated the underlying pain still lingering from war times. I also have very little knowledge of history in general.
I posted a recipe for "Afghan" biscuits. I was only thinking of their land race strains and their relevance to this site, nothing more.
I see now how that was completely insensitive.
I'm so sorry, especially to any war veterans in here, who were offended by anything at all that I've posted in my time here.
I acted like a creep to LG and posted pics in her thread without permission. Sorry LG, it was my lousy attempt at making friends.
I wasn't trying to 'woo' a beautiful woman from halfway across the world who's already taken and will always be completely out of my league even when I have sorted my life out. All posts were in good spirits, and I hope you're well and have a happy and successful life.
I didn't support jerryb when his house got broken into, even after he told me personally about that and other stressful things happening with him and his family. I was so low at that point I didn't know if what I said, would sound like it was coming from an honest place or not. I thank you dearly for your support Jerry, even at a time of such pain for you. I want to wish you and your loved ones all the best.
If it looks like I was trying to gain attention for the bush fires, I really hope it didn't look like that and it truly breaks my heart to see so much destruction and was only trying to show support for our friends over there.
I talked about my Indian friends down the road in an insensitive manner, and pretended like I'm some kind of growing sage.
The truth is I'm just a novice in far more areas other than growing and was trying to get attention and praise because of my codependency.
I posted many full sized pictures in many peoples threads including this one, about things that weren't even interesting or accomplishments.
I posted things that had some kind of underlying hidden message, trying to look all clever or something. Don't even know what that was all about.
I acted like I was some kind of hero out to save the planet. Now I realise what I was doing. 'Virtue signalling'.
I was insensitive about a friend's admission of their bipolar disorder, and mental health disorders in general. I also failed to see the irony.
I apologise to anyone on this forum who suffers from any mental distress and feels I hurt them in any way.
I expected empathy but offered not a lot to others when they needed it.
I spoke with far more cuss words than I usually do just to try to fit into a certain unruly mob (of bloody good people).
I probably ruined a lot of threads with my pessimism, arrogance, and generally disrespectful attitude.
I had a complete disaster in a certain thread in The Black Briefcase section. That was rock bottom. I was completely gone.
I hope you all believe me when I say it wasn't intentional, but pure ignorance that I displayed, not only in that post, but many others too.
Any and all abusive posts openly or discretely aimed at me were most probably well deserved.
I was/am still sick but that's no excuse, and you all had every right to be mad at me for the things I said and did.
I want to extend my gratitude to any and all members who recognised I wasn't well and defended me when others probably hated my guts.
I also want to thank all you wonderful people who personally offered to 'lend an ear' if I needed it, that really means a lot.
I failed to thank all the staff working behind the scenes who all contribute to keeping this place alive and well.
Thank you all so much for your work.
Over the last few days I've been getting some really good help with my problems and also doing tons of exercise and eating very little and very modest foods while smoking much less herb. I've decided to ditch my outdoor plants until if/when we go legal and also plan to shut my closet grow down for a while too while trying to taper off completely for a much needed tolerance break.
Finally, I apologise (especially to the cellphone users) for such a long post, but I feel like everything I wrote needed to be said.
I put it in here because I feel like it's where it belongs. My accomplishment today is starting to recover my true self and making a real apology.
I won't be making a return here any time soon, as I'm trying to focus on recovery and self discipline, and being on here is likely to distract me from my goals. I'm also extremely embarrassed. Thank you all for this lesson. I really needed it.
Take a break if you must but come on back when you get back on an even keel - you have quite a few friends here.
Myself included.
Couch_Lock
Well-Known Member
Not sure what you're on about, but I do like real ppl. You sure seem to accept responsibility so you are better then most in todays world. Hang in there, bud.Hi everybody, this is just an update on my situation and a genuine apology for my behaviour on this site.
I don't expect forgiveness or to be accepted back here now that I have realised what I've done.
Some of you may not think I've done too much wrong, but I now realise that many of the things I've said and posted about have been ridiculously overzealous, rude, insensitive, and maybe even racist. I broke many boundaries while showing an utter lack of respect for many things, including the history of The United States in particular. I'm so very sorry. From the bottom of my heart.
I used Japanese words with no thought for their history with the US, and didn't even 'click' when I saw pictures on here that should have made me realise what I had done. I have little sense of patriotism and have blocked out many things that cause me mental distress. I occasionally use a few Japanese words in daily speech because I studied Karate for a short time, and while I was doing so, learned a tiny bit of their language. It occurred to me at the time that Karate became quite popular around the world, especially the United States, during the 80's and early 90's. Maybe because this was in my mind, I underestimated the underlying pain still lingering from war times. I also have very little knowledge of history in general.
I posted a recipe for "Afghan" biscuits. I was only thinking of their land race strains and their relevance to this site, nothing more.
I see now how that was completely insensitive.
I'm so sorry, especially to any war veterans in here, who were offended by anything at all that I've posted in my time here.
I acted like a creep to LG and posted pics in her thread without permission. Sorry LG, it was my lousy attempt at making friends.
I wasn't trying to 'woo' a beautiful woman from halfway across the world who's already taken and will always be completely out of my league even when I have sorted my life out. All posts were in good spirits, and I hope you're well and have a happy and successful life.
I didn't support jerryb when his house got broken into, even after he told me personally about that and other stressful things happening with him and his family. I was so low at that point I didn't know if what I said, would sound like it was coming from an honest place or not. I thank you dearly for your support Jerry, even at a time of such pain for you. I want to wish you and your loved ones all the best.
If it looks like I was trying to gain attention for the bush fires, I really hope it didn't look like that and it truly breaks my heart to see so much destruction and was only trying to show support for our friends over there.
I talked about my Indian friends down the road in an insensitive manner, and pretended like I'm some kind of growing sage.
The truth is I'm just a novice in far more areas other than growing and was trying to get attention and praise because of my codependency.
I posted many full sized pictures in many peoples threads including this one, about things that weren't even interesting or accomplishments.
I posted things that had some kind of underlying hidden message, trying to look all clever or something. Don't even know what that was all about.
I acted like I was some kind of hero out to save the planet. Now I realise what I was doing. 'Virtue signalling'.
I was insensitive about a friend's admission of their bipolar disorder, and mental health disorders in general. I also failed to see the irony.
I apologise to anyone on this forum who suffers from any mental distress and feels I hurt them in any way.
I expected empathy but offered not a lot to others when they needed it.
I spoke with far more cuss words than I usually do just to try to fit into a certain unruly mob (of bloody good people).
I probably ruined a lot of threads with my pessimism, arrogance, and generally disrespectful attitude.
I had a complete disaster in a certain thread in The Black Briefcase section. That was rock bottom. I was completely gone.
I hope you all believe me when I say it wasn't intentional, but pure ignorance that I displayed, not only in that post, but many others too.
Any and all abusive posts openly or discretely aimed at me were most probably well deserved.
I was/am still sick but that's no excuse, and you all had every right to be mad at me for the things I said and did.
I want to extend my gratitude to any and all members who recognised I wasn't well and defended me when others probably hated my guts.
I also want to thank all you wonderful people who personally offered to 'lend an ear' if I needed it, that really means a lot.
I failed to thank all the staff working behind the scenes who all contribute to keeping this place alive and well.
Thank you all so much for your work.
Over the last few days I've been getting some really good help with my problems and also doing tons of exercise and eating very little and very modest foods while smoking much less herb. I've decided to ditch my outdoor plants until if/when we go legal and also plan to shut my closet grow down for a while too while trying to taper off completely for a much needed tolerance break.
Finally, I apologise (especially to the cellphone users) for such a long post, but I feel like everything I wrote needed to be said.
I put it in here because I feel like it's where it belongs. My accomplishment today is starting to recover my true self and making a real apology.
I won't be making a return here any time soon, as I'm trying to focus on recovery and self discipline, and being on here is likely to distract me from my goals. I'm also extremely embarrassed. Thank you all for this lesson. I really needed it.
Singlemalt
Well-Known Member
You're fine, relax a bitHi everybody, this is just an update on my situation and a genuine apology for my behaviour on this site.
I don't expect forgiveness or to be accepted back here now that I have realised what I've done.
Some of you may not think I've done too much wrong, but I now realise that many of the things I've said and posted about have been ridiculously overzealous, rude, insensitive, and maybe even racist. I broke many boundaries while showing an utter lack of respect for many things, including the history of The United States in particular. I'm so very sorry. From the bottom of my heart.
I used Japanese words with no thought for their history with the US, and didn't even 'click' when I saw pictures on here that should have made me realise what I had done. I have little sense of patriotism and have blocked out many things that cause me mental distress. I occasionally use a few Japanese words in daily speech because I studied Karate for a short time, and while I was doing so, learned a tiny bit of their language. It occurred to me at the time that Karate became quite popular around the world, especially the United States, during the 80's and early 90's. Maybe because this was in my mind, I underestimated the underlying pain still lingering from war times. I also have very little knowledge of history in general.
I posted a recipe for "Afghan" biscuits. I was only thinking of their land race strains and their relevance to this site, nothing more.
I see now how that was completely insensitive.
I'm so sorry, especially to any war veterans in here, who were offended by anything at all that I've posted in my time here.
I acted like a creep to LG and posted pics in her thread without permission. Sorry LG, it was my lousy attempt at making friends.
I wasn't trying to 'woo' a beautiful woman from halfway across the world who's already taken and will always be completely out of my league even when I have sorted my life out. All posts were in good spirits, and I hope you're well and have a happy and successful life.
I didn't support jerryb when his house got broken into, even after he told me personally about that and other stressful things happening with him and his family. I was so low at that point I didn't know if what I said, would sound like it was coming from an honest place or not. I thank you dearly for your support Jerry, even at a time of such pain for you. I want to wish you and your loved ones all the best.
If it looks like I was trying to gain attention for the bush fires, I really hope it didn't look like that and it truly breaks my heart to see so much destruction and was only trying to show support for our friends over there.
I talked about my Indian friends down the road in an insensitive manner, and pretended like I'm some kind of growing sage.
The truth is I'm just a novice in far more areas other than growing and was trying to get attention and praise because of my codependency.
I posted many full sized pictures in many peoples threads including this one, about things that weren't even interesting or accomplishments.
I posted things that had some kind of underlying hidden message, trying to look all clever or something. Don't even know what that was all about.
I acted like I was some kind of hero out to save the planet. Now I realise what I was doing. 'Virtue signalling'.
I was insensitive about a friend's admission of their bipolar disorder, and mental health disorders in general. I also failed to see the irony.
I apologise to anyone on this forum who suffers from any mental distress and feels I hurt them in any way.
I expected empathy but offered not a lot to others when they needed it.
I spoke with far more cuss words than I usually do just to try to fit into a certain unruly mob (of bloody good people).
I probably ruined a lot of threads with my pessimism, arrogance, and generally disrespectful attitude.
I had a complete disaster in a certain thread in The Black Briefcase section. That was rock bottom. I was completely gone.
I hope you all believe me when I say it wasn't intentional, but pure ignorance that I displayed, not only in that post, but many others too.
Any and all abusive posts openly or discretely aimed at me were most probably well deserved.
I was/am still sick but that's no excuse, and you all had every right to be mad at me for the things I said and did.
I want to extend my gratitude to any and all members who recognised I wasn't well and defended me when others probably hated my guts.
I also want to thank all you wonderful people who personally offered to 'lend an ear' if I needed it, that really means a lot.
I failed to thank all the staff working behind the scenes who all contribute to keeping this place alive and well.
Thank you all so much for your work.
Over the last few days I've been getting some really good help with my problems and also doing tons of exercise and eating very little and very modest foods while smoking much less herb. I've decided to ditch my outdoor plants until if/when we go legal and also plan to shut my closet grow down for a while too while trying to taper off completely for a much needed tolerance break.
Finally, I apologise (especially to the cellphone users) for such a long post, but I feel like everything I wrote needed to be said.
I put it in here because I feel like it's where it belongs. My accomplishment today is starting to recover my true self and making a real apology.
I won't be making a return here any time soon, as I'm trying to focus on recovery and self discipline, and being on here is likely to distract me from my goals. I'm also extremely embarrassed. Thank you all for this lesson. I really needed it.
I don't recall you being creepy with me and your posts in my grow thread were helpful. ~Making friends achievement unlocked~Hi everybody, this is just an update on my situation and a genuine apology for my behaviour on this site.
I don't expect forgiveness or to be accepted back here now that I have realised what I've done.
Some of you may not think I've done too much wrong, but I now realise that many of the things I've said and posted about have been ridiculously overzealous, rude, insensitive, and maybe even racist. I broke many boundaries while showing an utter lack of respect for many things, including the history of The United States in particular. I'm so very sorry. From the bottom of my heart.
I used Japanese words with no thought for their history with the US, and didn't even 'click' when I saw pictures on here that should have made me realise what I had done. I have little sense of patriotism and have blocked out many things that cause me mental distress. I occasionally use a few Japanese words in daily speech because I studied Karate for a short time, and while I was doing so, learned a tiny bit of their language. It occurred to me at the time that Karate became quite popular around the world, especially the United States, during the 80's and early 90's. Maybe because this was in my mind, I underestimated the underlying pain still lingering from war times. I also have very little knowledge of history in general.
I posted a recipe for "Afghan" biscuits. I was only thinking of their land race strains and their relevance to this site, nothing more.
I see now how that was completely insensitive.
I'm so sorry, especially to any war veterans in here, who were offended by anything at all that I've posted in my time here.
I acted like a creep to LG and posted pics in her thread without permission. Sorry LG, it was my lousy attempt at making friends.
I wasn't trying to 'woo' a beautiful woman from halfway across the world who's already taken and will always be completely out of my league even when I have sorted my life out. All posts were in good spirits, and I hope you're well and have a happy and successful life.
I didn't support jerryb when his house got broken into, even after he told me personally about that and other stressful things happening with him and his family. I was so low at that point I didn't know if what I said, would sound like it was coming from an honest place or not. I thank you dearly for your support Jerry, even at a time of such pain for you. I want to wish you and your loved ones all the best.
If it looks like I was trying to gain attention for the bush fires, I really hope it didn't look like that and it truly breaks my heart to see so much destruction and was only trying to show support for our friends over there.
I talked about my Indian friends down the road in an insensitive manner, and pretended like I'm some kind of growing sage.
The truth is I'm just a novice in far more areas other than growing and was trying to get attention and praise because of my codependency.
I posted many full sized pictures in many peoples threads including this one, about things that weren't even interesting or accomplishments.
I posted things that had some kind of underlying hidden message, trying to look all clever or something. Don't even know what that was all about.
I acted like I was some kind of hero out to save the planet. Now I realise what I was doing. 'Virtue signalling'.
I was insensitive about a friend's admission of their bipolar disorder, and mental health disorders in general. I also failed to see the irony.
I apologise to anyone on this forum who suffers from any mental distress and feels I hurt them in any way.
I expected empathy but offered not a lot to others when they needed it.
I spoke with far more cuss words than I usually do just to try to fit into a certain unruly mob (of bloody good people).
I probably ruined a lot of threads with my pessimism, arrogance, and generally disrespectful attitude.
I had a complete disaster in a certain thread in The Black Briefcase section. That was rock bottom. I was completely gone.
I hope you all believe me when I say it wasn't intentional, but pure ignorance that I displayed, not only in that post, but many others too.
Any and all abusive posts openly or discretely aimed at me were most probably well deserved.
I was/am still sick but that's no excuse, and you all had every right to be mad at me for the things I said and did.
I want to extend my gratitude to any and all members who recognised I wasn't well and defended me when others probably hated my guts.
I also want to thank all you wonderful people who personally offered to 'lend an ear' if I needed it, that really means a lot.
I failed to thank all the staff working behind the scenes who all contribute to keeping this place alive and well.
Thank you all so much for your work.
Over the last few days I've been getting some really good help with my problems and also doing tons of exercise and eating very little and very modest foods while smoking much less herb. I've decided to ditch my outdoor plants until if/when we go legal and also plan to shut my closet grow down for a while too while trying to taper off completely for a much needed tolerance break.
Finally, I apologise (especially to the cellphone users) for such a long post, but I feel like everything I wrote needed to be said.
I put it in here because I feel like it's where it belongs. My accomplishment today is starting to recover my true self and making a real apology.
I won't be making a return here any time soon, as I'm trying to focus on recovery and self discipline, and being on here is likely to distract me from my goals. I'm also extremely embarrassed. Thank you all for this lesson. I really needed it.
We're all good as far as I'm concerned.
pabloesqobar
Well-Known Member
Glad I could help.Hi everybody, this is just an update on my situation and a genuine apology for my behaviour on this site.
I don't expect forgiveness or to be accepted back here now that I have realised what I've done.
Some of you may not think I've done too much wrong, but I now realise that many of the things I've said and posted about have been ridiculously overzealous, rude, insensitive, and maybe even racist. I broke many boundaries while showing an utter lack of respect for many things, including the history of The United States in particular. I'm so very sorry. From the bottom of my heart.
I used Japanese words with no thought for their history with the US, and didn't even 'click' when I saw pictures on here that should have made me realise what I had done. I have little sense of patriotism and have blocked out many things that cause me mental distress. I occasionally use a few Japanese words in daily speech because I studied Karate for a short time, and while I was doing so, learned a tiny bit of their language. It occurred to me at the time that Karate became quite popular around the world, especially the United States, during the 80's and early 90's. Maybe because this was in my mind, I underestimated the underlying pain still lingering from war times. I also have very little knowledge of history in general.
I posted a recipe for "Afghan" biscuits. I was only thinking of their land race strains and their relevance to this site, nothing more.
I see now how that was completely insensitive.
I'm so sorry, especially to any war veterans in here, who were offended by anything at all that I've posted in my time here.
I acted like a creep to LG and posted pics in her thread without permission. Sorry LG, it was my lousy attempt at making friends.
I wasn't trying to 'woo' a beautiful woman from halfway across the world who's already taken and will always be completely out of my league even when I have sorted my life out. All posts were in good spirits, and I hope you're well and have a happy and successful life.
I didn't support jerryb when his house got broken into, even after he told me personally about that and other stressful things happening with him and his family. I was so low at that point I didn't know if what I said, would sound like it was coming from an honest place or not. I thank you dearly for your support Jerry, even at a time of such pain for you. I want to wish you and your loved ones all the best.
If it looks like I was trying to gain attention for the bush fires, I really hope it didn't look like that and it truly breaks my heart to see so much destruction and was only trying to show support for our friends over there.
I talked about my Indian friends down the road in an insensitive manner, and pretended like I'm some kind of growing sage.
The truth is I'm just a novice in far more areas other than growing and was trying to get attention and praise because of my codependency.
I posted many full sized pictures in many peoples threads including this one, about things that weren't even interesting or accomplishments.
I posted things that had some kind of underlying hidden message, trying to look all clever or something. Don't even know what that was all about.
I acted like I was some kind of hero out to save the planet. Now I realise what I was doing. 'Virtue signalling'.
I was insensitive about a friend's admission of their bipolar disorder, and mental health disorders in general. I also failed to see the irony.
I apologise to anyone on this forum who suffers from any mental distress and feels I hurt them in any way.
I expected empathy but offered not a lot to others when they needed it.
I spoke with far more cuss words than I usually do just to try to fit into a certain unruly mob (of bloody good people).
I probably ruined a lot of threads with my pessimism, arrogance, and generally disrespectful attitude.
I had a complete disaster in a certain thread in The Black Briefcase section. That was rock bottom. I was completely gone.
I hope you all believe me when I say it wasn't intentional, but pure ignorance that I displayed, not only in that post, but many others too.
Any and all abusive posts openly or discretely aimed at me were most probably well deserved.
I was/am still sick but that's no excuse, and you all had every right to be mad at me for the things I said and did.
I want to extend my gratitude to any and all members who recognised I wasn't well and defended me when others probably hated my guts.
I also want to thank all you wonderful people who personally offered to 'lend an ear' if I needed it, that really means a lot.
I failed to thank all the staff working behind the scenes who all contribute to keeping this place alive and well.
Thank you all so much for your work.
Over the last few days I've been getting some really good help with my problems and also doing tons of exercise and eating very little and very modest foods while smoking much less herb. I've decided to ditch my outdoor plants until if/when we go legal and also plan to shut my closet grow down for a while too while trying to taper off completely for a much needed tolerance break.
Finally, I apologise (especially to the cellphone users) for such a long post, but I feel like everything I wrote needed to be said.
I put it in here because I feel like it's where it belongs. My accomplishment today is starting to recover my true self and making a real apology.
I won't be making a return here any time soon, as I'm trying to focus on recovery and self discipline, and being on here is likely to distract me from my goals. I'm also extremely embarrassed. Thank you all for this lesson. I really needed it.
Kidding, I don't know you. But it appears the assimilation is complete. Is it possible you've over-estimated, based on what you've read here, your guilt regarding anything? I'd caution against relying on content and accusations posted on this site to conclude you are rude, racist, insensitive to folks with mental disabilities, and everything else you apologized for.
That would be a big mistake.
Are you Canadian?
Chunky Stool
Well-Known Member
I bet you are harder on yourself than you are on others.Hi everybody, this is just an update on my situation and a genuine apology for my behaviour on this site.
I don't expect forgiveness or to be accepted back here now that I have realised what I've done.
Some of you may not think I've done too much wrong, but I now realise that many of the things I've said and posted about have been ridiculously overzealous, rude, insensitive, and maybe even racist. I broke many boundaries while showing an utter lack of respect for many things, including the history of The United States in particular. I'm so very sorry. From the bottom of my heart.
I used Japanese words with no thought for their history with the US, and didn't even 'click' when I saw pictures on here that should have made me realise what I had done. I have little sense of patriotism and have blocked out many things that cause me mental distress. I occasionally use a few Japanese words in daily speech because I studied Karate for a short time, and while I was doing so, learned a tiny bit of their language. It occurred to me at the time that Karate became quite popular around the world, especially the United States, during the 80's and early 90's. Maybe because this was in my mind, I underestimated the underlying pain still lingering from war times. I also have very little knowledge of history in general.
I posted a recipe for "Afghan" biscuits. I was only thinking of their land race strains and their relevance to this site, nothing more.
I see now how that was completely insensitive.
I'm so sorry, especially to any war veterans in here, who were offended by anything at all that I've posted in my time here.
I acted like a creep to LG and posted pics in her thread without permission. Sorry LG, it was my lousy attempt at making friends.
I wasn't trying to 'woo' a beautiful woman from halfway across the world who's already taken and will always be completely out of my league even when I have sorted my life out. All posts were in good spirits, and I hope you're well and have a happy and successful life.
I didn't support jerryb when his house got broken into, even after he told me personally about that and other stressful things happening with him and his family. I was so low at that point I didn't know if what I said, would sound like it was coming from an honest place or not. I thank you dearly for your support Jerry, even at a time of such pain for you. I want to wish you and your loved ones all the best.
If it looks like I was trying to gain attention for the bush fires, I really hope it didn't look like that and it truly breaks my heart to see so much destruction and was only trying to show support for our friends over there.
I talked about my Indian friends down the road in an insensitive manner, and pretended like I'm some kind of growing sage.
The truth is I'm just a novice in far more areas other than growing and was trying to get attention and praise because of my codependency.
I posted many full sized pictures in many peoples threads including this one, about things that weren't even interesting or accomplishments.
I posted things that had some kind of underlying hidden message, trying to look all clever or something. Don't even know what that was all about.
I acted like I was some kind of hero out to save the planet. Now I realise what I was doing. 'Virtue signalling'.
I was insensitive about a friend's admission of their bipolar disorder, and mental health disorders in general. I also failed to see the irony.
I apologise to anyone on this forum who suffers from any mental distress and feels I hurt them in any way.
I expected empathy but offered not a lot to others when they needed it.
I spoke with far more cuss words than I usually do just to try to fit into a certain unruly mob (of bloody good people).
I probably ruined a lot of threads with my pessimism, arrogance, and generally disrespectful attitude.
I had a complete disaster in a certain thread in The Black Briefcase section. That was rock bottom. I was completely gone.
I hope you all believe me when I say it wasn't intentional, but pure ignorance that I displayed, not only in that post, but many others too.
Any and all abusive posts openly or discretely aimed at me were most probably well deserved.
I was/am still sick but that's no excuse, and you all had every right to be mad at me for the things I said and did.
I want to extend my gratitude to any and all members who recognised I wasn't well and defended me when others probably hated my guts.
I also want to thank all you wonderful people who personally offered to 'lend an ear' if I needed it, that really means a lot.
I failed to thank all the staff working behind the scenes who all contribute to keeping this place alive and well.
Thank you all so much for your work.
Over the last few days I've been getting some really good help with my problems and also doing tons of exercise and eating very little and very modest foods while smoking much less herb. I've decided to ditch my outdoor plants until if/when we go legal and also plan to shut my closet grow down for a while too while trying to taper off completely for a much needed tolerance break.
Finally, I apologise (especially to the cellphone users) for such a long post, but I feel like everything I wrote needed to be said.
I put it in here because I feel like it's where it belongs. My accomplishment today is starting to recover my true self and making a real apology.
I won't be making a return here any time soon, as I'm trying to focus on recovery and self discipline, and being on here is likely to distract me from my goals. I'm also extremely embarrassed. Thank you all for this lesson. I really needed it.
Even if you don't play, I highly recommend the book 'Zen of Golf'.
Most libraries have a copy.
jerryb73
Well-Known Member
We had a freeze this morning. Chilly day. I’ve been home sick last 2 days so I haven’t been out until just now. Had to get rillos
I'm jelly of your weather.
Good news is: I don't have to plow/shovel today.
Bad news is: That's because the shit is frozen solid as a rock!
Good news is: I don't have to plow/shovel today.
Bad news is: That's because the shit is frozen solid as a rock!