kids change people.... I used to be absolutely CRAZY! I went to a good school in a really seedy area in the northeast. Never touched a drug before going there. By the time I left I had 6 new connections there for everything from weed to blow to Ecstasy. I did way too many drugs over a couple years and started dealing around here. Got a reputation with the cops and the local dealers around here. Reputation is one of the things that helps you either make the best decision you can or the worst decision you can. And I think it all comes down to maturity. I made some really bad decisions back then. Stupid drunken decisions..... I remember one kid saying something lude to my girlfriend at a highway rest stop around 2:00 in the morning and when I said something he got out of his car went to the back and pulled out a crowbar being a tough guy. I went to the back of my truck and grabbed a chainsaw. I proceeded to start it and walk towards the kid. Needless to say he took off... Actually dropped his phone in mid conversation on the ground ran back to his car, drove over the curb and took off.... I've never seen someone so scared in all my life. Funny as hell to me then. I guess before I realized that had a state trooper (who are normally crawling all over that particular rest stop) had seen me do it, he probably wouldn't of thought twice about taking a shot at me. Or at the very least arresting me and going to jail for 5-10 years. Doesn't cross your mind at all.
Same year, some kid I had bad blood with threw a bottle at my new truck. I was shitfaced and had a gun. I got out, beat the crap out of him, and stuck the gun in his mouth. Sure it felt great then I felt like a real tough guy.Now, their two of the most embarrassing decisions I've ever made looking back at them. Didn't think twice about it then. And it all boils down to maturity. I don't know if I cared about myself back then. Def didn't think ahead ever. Now I live so someone else can. It's a life changing thing. If something happens to me, their gonna have a harder life. And I can't have that. Amazing how much a child changes your thinking.