Hobbes
Well-Known Member
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Does anyone else live in a state of rage?
We talk of having a bad temper and getting mad but I read ... nothing of others who live in a constant state of rage.
The amount of self control it takes to get through the day is exhausting. I spend most of my time alone with my dogs.
Last year I almost strangled a client to unconsciousness because he was being agressive with an elder partner and his body stance changed to a natural attack position, I was around the desk, did a duck under and had him in a rear naked choke in about 2 seconds.
Today a random idiot wanted things his way regardless of the realities of law and how many different ways the issue was explained to him, and he decided to take the aggressive root. I had no tincture with me so I popped 2 clonozapam before the guy got there, planned on staying behind my desk, seated, with my hand on my seat rests, it's about all that saved me. I did get up when he came in though, then caught myself and sat down.
It's exhausting, after I have a couple of Volcano bags I come down and I'm a different person - but it's so tiring. One of the things I treasure about marijuana - peace.
I've got to make some canna-corn syrup candy to keep me level all day.
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How do you do it? How do you get through the day without ailienating or terrifying everyone around you?
How do you find peace?
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Does anyone else live in a state of rage?
We talk of having a bad temper and getting mad but I read ... nothing of others who live in a constant state of rage.
The amount of self control it takes to get through the day is exhausting. I spend most of my time alone with my dogs.
Last year I almost strangled a client to unconsciousness because he was being agressive with an elder partner and his body stance changed to a natural attack position, I was around the desk, did a duck under and had him in a rear naked choke in about 2 seconds.
Today a random idiot wanted things his way regardless of the realities of law and how many different ways the issue was explained to him, and he decided to take the aggressive root. I had no tincture with me so I popped 2 clonozapam before the guy got there, planned on staying behind my desk, seated, with my hand on my seat rests, it's about all that saved me. I did get up when he came in though, then caught myself and sat down.
It's exhausting, after I have a couple of Volcano bags I come down and I'm a different person - but it's so tiring. One of the things I treasure about marijuana - peace.
I've got to make some canna-corn syrup candy to keep me level all day.
.
How do you do it? How do you get through the day without ailienating or terrifying everyone around you?
How do you find peace?
.
![bongsmilie bongsmilie bongsmilie](/styles/smilies/bong7bp.gif)