But what he probably really did was spend his time trying to survive, any action was because of the fuckers trying
To kill him all fuckin day, day after fucking day.
Are those "fuckers" wrong for doing that?! I mean, their country was invaded for no particular reason! What would you do?
And to the fella who acually went to these wars. While I think it is totally important to not regret anything. Surely you must regret your government's desicion to send you there in the first place? I like your mentality on not wishing war on anyone though, if an actual ex-soldier feels this way, I don't really understand what is going on in the world these days. It's all pretty fucked up.
And to High hgih, my wife has had on and off depression for as long as I can remember, and she goes through many of the same things as what you have been explaining. What has been said is true, doctor's or more so, psyciatrists know almost nothing about depression, they just take in the information you give them (symptoms and what not) and prescibe the drug that their little text book tells them to. You should go see a psycologist man. Do some therapy, it can teach you a lot about yourself, and maybe get you thinking on a different wave length.
Also, educate yourself a little, some authors I can recomend to you that deal with psyco-analysis and psycology: Sigmund Freud, Carl Jung, Friedrich Nietzsche, there are many more obviously. But these guys are the kings of the psycological world. Anyway get reading, the human mind and how and why it works the way it does is incedible, there is so much to learn that most people have absolutely no idea about (including doctor's). Honestly after knowing my wife, it opened my eye's so, so much. Don't be afraid to tackle this shit head on. It's worth it.
My wife no longer takes any drugs, she has the odd set back every now and then, but nothing in comparison to what she used to go through. She went to therapy, and still does once every 2 week for an hour or so, and she reads like a maniac! And it does help. I have read a lot aswell, even though I'm o.k, but it taught me of a world that more and more people are starting to experience, it can be pretty scary man, but your ultimate goal must be to surpass it, no?
Anyway man, that's my advice. Take it or leave it. Up to you!
Peace