HeatlessBBQ
Well-Known Member
so as most of you know about my batch of dmt I've obtained that i brought up in my thread....
1 gram of n,n-dmt
just last night I had what I thought couldn't be possible under the influence of dmt...
I had a bad trip.
every single time I have smoked dmt, it has been VERY euphoric and pleasant. Ever done nitrous? similar euphoria effect for sure but dmt is A LOT more familiar.
like something I have felt before, maybe on a normal basis but my conscious knew it but could barley remember. just like waking up from a dream and trying to remember what happened.
but anyways.
last night I was lazy and felt there was still some dmt loaded into my free base, oil burner.
i grab the torch lighter and light it up.
I notice no smoke filling the chamber so i move the flame around different parts of the burner so I could get all the left overs.
I mainly heated the top of the burner (which contained a moist, condensation, water dropplet looking substance stuck to the top of the burn, on the inside)
I believe these to be IMPURITIES after my experience I'm about to describe...
I take one toke, the smoke feels a lot more harsh and toxic tasting then usual. this was the first sign that this was wrong. and when I blew out my hit, I could see smoke. I never exhale visible smoke when I normally smoke dmt. this was the second sign.
you know the first feeling you get when you exhale your first hit of dmt. It was similar but a lot more heavy. very un easy. I thought maybe I just need another hit. this was before I wish I wouldn't have done this. I have always taken 2 rips at least when I blast off.
so I hit it again for the second time.
I never broke through in this experience. I never have broken through but I have seen the tunnel and bridge that leads to the gateway into hyperspace. just a matter of time til Ill have a report...
anywho...
this is where I wish I hadn't done taken that rip....or even the first.
this feeling was as if it was a bad saliva trip but more nauseous.
i felt like I was about to puke. My head felt like a frisbee, but in a bad way.
I always have a good sense of time on dmt, due to not breaking through yet.
but this time the 5-10 minutes trance turned out to be a life time experience.
NOT what I want or anyone wants on the most intense substance known to man when seeing its negative effects.
anyone ever had a bad trip on mushrooms or LSD?
just like that but this time this 10 minutes in reality was FOREVER it seemed.
"I wish I had never of taken this, I want this to stop. NOW! why do I feel sick? Im gunna throw up...no im not. Why am I sweating?....think happy thoughts....I cant.....I feel horrible. There are things observing me as if I was an unconscious, injured man, going into surgery with surgeons above me. They seemed to be concerned, like I wasn't going to make it. but I'm on dmt....right? yes i am! but why am I having this experience? every time its been pure good. no bad thoughts. pure bliss and euphoria. utopias of magnificent magnitude.
I tried to bring my mind to remember what a good thought was.
I was sweating, I was hot. I wanted to run to the bathroom and throw up but my body couldn't move or didn't want to. but my mind did."
once I finally got back to my normal self. I could tell if my eyes were open or closed. when my eyes were open it felt like I was LOADED on LSD and mushrooms. my vision was still engulfed with visuals. best way I can describe these visuals as small green matrix letters/colors/light falling and swirling together. making shapes and forms. but these visuals went across my field of vision just like a screen or filter.
all I could think about is that I am never smoking dmt again.
HOW SAD?!?!
I was thinking about all the bad things i've done recently and the trip made me believe that this trip was to make me realize what I am doing.
it was as if the God of dmt arranged this trip to mind fuck me and drive me almost NUTS to realize what I was doing was wrong. and it wouldnt stop the bad trip until I finally realized. just like a punishment.
this is the last thing I can remember before I just instantly crashed and fell asleep.
I awoke this morning. My sober self. ahhhh what a relief!
was happened last night?
was that a dream or did that happen?
do I seriously feel drawn away from dmt now? my sober self is now scared.
why?!?!?!
I was at my buddies apartment, on his couch. I was by myself during this whole experience. Everything felt "too familiar".
I wanted to leave. so I did. I came home, took a shower, smoked a bowl of some AMBER afghan goo buds. relaxed, got on the oll RIU. and did some dmt research....
always reading other brother's trip reports of smoked dmt experiences always intrigued me so I thought this would help guide me back to wanting to use dmt again.
at this time I didn't think about the impurities and how I smoked the dmt after reading a post in one of these threads.
more and more I did research the more and more I got excited and wanted to smoke dmt again.
I call up my buddy that helped me obtain this dmt a week or so ago...
I get to his house, one of my good homies was chilling with him.
we smoke a bowl and he asks me if I'd like a blast off. while me noticing his breath REEKS of moth balls and dmt.
I said, of course! with a comforting smile, knowing my true friend and brother wouldn't show me a shitty time.
we go outside, smoke another bowl and right after we finish. my buddies said "alright buddy, we will leave you be. meet back up in my room when you are done. tell us what you experience when you come back. fare well brother"
they leave me in his back yard.
I grab my pipe loaded with about 65 mgs that was loaded by my friend.
I notice its a regular, glass pipe used to bud smoking.
I thought this wouldn't work as well as vaporizing in an oil burner.
I have never smoked dmt like this. I thought it may kill or burn most of the substance....
I hold the pipe up to my lips.
hope this time is a good one, not like last night.
I take a rip.......
1 gram of n,n-dmt
just last night I had what I thought couldn't be possible under the influence of dmt...
I had a bad trip.
every single time I have smoked dmt, it has been VERY euphoric and pleasant. Ever done nitrous? similar euphoria effect for sure but dmt is A LOT more familiar.
like something I have felt before, maybe on a normal basis but my conscious knew it but could barley remember. just like waking up from a dream and trying to remember what happened.
but anyways.
last night I was lazy and felt there was still some dmt loaded into my free base, oil burner.
i grab the torch lighter and light it up.
I notice no smoke filling the chamber so i move the flame around different parts of the burner so I could get all the left overs.
I mainly heated the top of the burner (which contained a moist, condensation, water dropplet looking substance stuck to the top of the burn, on the inside)
I believe these to be IMPURITIES after my experience I'm about to describe...
I take one toke, the smoke feels a lot more harsh and toxic tasting then usual. this was the first sign that this was wrong. and when I blew out my hit, I could see smoke. I never exhale visible smoke when I normally smoke dmt. this was the second sign.
you know the first feeling you get when you exhale your first hit of dmt. It was similar but a lot more heavy. very un easy. I thought maybe I just need another hit. this was before I wish I wouldn't have done this. I have always taken 2 rips at least when I blast off.
so I hit it again for the second time.
I never broke through in this experience. I never have broken through but I have seen the tunnel and bridge that leads to the gateway into hyperspace. just a matter of time til Ill have a report...
anywho...
this is where I wish I hadn't done taken that rip....or even the first.
this feeling was as if it was a bad saliva trip but more nauseous.
i felt like I was about to puke. My head felt like a frisbee, but in a bad way.
I always have a good sense of time on dmt, due to not breaking through yet.
but this time the 5-10 minutes trance turned out to be a life time experience.
NOT what I want or anyone wants on the most intense substance known to man when seeing its negative effects.
anyone ever had a bad trip on mushrooms or LSD?
just like that but this time this 10 minutes in reality was FOREVER it seemed.
"I wish I had never of taken this, I want this to stop. NOW! why do I feel sick? Im gunna throw up...no im not. Why am I sweating?....think happy thoughts....I cant.....I feel horrible. There are things observing me as if I was an unconscious, injured man, going into surgery with surgeons above me. They seemed to be concerned, like I wasn't going to make it. but I'm on dmt....right? yes i am! but why am I having this experience? every time its been pure good. no bad thoughts. pure bliss and euphoria. utopias of magnificent magnitude.
I tried to bring my mind to remember what a good thought was.
I was sweating, I was hot. I wanted to run to the bathroom and throw up but my body couldn't move or didn't want to. but my mind did."
once I finally got back to my normal self. I could tell if my eyes were open or closed. when my eyes were open it felt like I was LOADED on LSD and mushrooms. my vision was still engulfed with visuals. best way I can describe these visuals as small green matrix letters/colors/light falling and swirling together. making shapes and forms. but these visuals went across my field of vision just like a screen or filter.
all I could think about is that I am never smoking dmt again.
HOW SAD?!?!
I was thinking about all the bad things i've done recently and the trip made me believe that this trip was to make me realize what I am doing.
it was as if the God of dmt arranged this trip to mind fuck me and drive me almost NUTS to realize what I was doing was wrong. and it wouldnt stop the bad trip until I finally realized. just like a punishment.
this is the last thing I can remember before I just instantly crashed and fell asleep.
I awoke this morning. My sober self. ahhhh what a relief!
was happened last night?
was that a dream or did that happen?
do I seriously feel drawn away from dmt now? my sober self is now scared.
why?!?!?!
I was at my buddies apartment, on his couch. I was by myself during this whole experience. Everything felt "too familiar".
I wanted to leave. so I did. I came home, took a shower, smoked a bowl of some AMBER afghan goo buds. relaxed, got on the oll RIU. and did some dmt research....
always reading other brother's trip reports of smoked dmt experiences always intrigued me so I thought this would help guide me back to wanting to use dmt again.
at this time I didn't think about the impurities and how I smoked the dmt after reading a post in one of these threads.
more and more I did research the more and more I got excited and wanted to smoke dmt again.
I call up my buddy that helped me obtain this dmt a week or so ago...
I get to his house, one of my good homies was chilling with him.
we smoke a bowl and he asks me if I'd like a blast off. while me noticing his breath REEKS of moth balls and dmt.
I said, of course! with a comforting smile, knowing my true friend and brother wouldn't show me a shitty time.
we go outside, smoke another bowl and right after we finish. my buddies said "alright buddy, we will leave you be. meet back up in my room when you are done. tell us what you experience when you come back. fare well brother"
they leave me in his back yard.
I grab my pipe loaded with about 65 mgs that was loaded by my friend.
I notice its a regular, glass pipe used to bud smoking.
I thought this wouldn't work as well as vaporizing in an oil burner.
I have never smoked dmt like this. I thought it may kill or burn most of the substance....
I hold the pipe up to my lips.
hope this time is a good one, not like last night.
I take a rip.......