nicely put Luger.
I too suffer from depression.. anxiety and panic attacks. My anxiety and panic attacks are very similar in nature... however, my anxiety has been so bad on occasions to where I would pass out for a short amount of time. It's really more of a quick black-out that overpowers me when it happens. It sucks living with it.. but I took am on meds. Doctor put me on Tri-lip-tol and Prozac. Neither of which do anything for me.. they don't help me out at all. I had
major head trauma to my left frontal lobe of my skull/brain and my left eye socket which was shattered from the impact as well. I got hit by a damn truck when I was younger.. around 10 or 11 years old. I've suffered from all kinds of problems since the accident, some of which have never even been looked at by a doctor. Such as nerve damage
which keeps me from moving my left eye-brow (its not funny either.. its embarrassing and depressing.). I can move it, but I only have around 5 to 10% movement availability.. that's as far as I can move it. Which makes my life much harder than most peoples.. because I can't even express emotions like normal people can, without looking like some kinda weirdo. I've had numerous (over 5) plastic surgeries (some were done while in the hospital, some were done years after) as well as reconstructive surgeries. I had brain swelling... all kinda of shit. It's not fun.. but I have my good days too.. even though they're fairly rare.. I do have them from time to time. But yeah, I suffer from pain each and every day of my life.. and its gotten worse since I've gotten older.
As far as my pain goes.. I've never been correctly diagnosed. It sucks because, when I get ready to go to the doctor, my anxiety takes over.. and I get so anxious and nervous that once I get to the doctors office, I end up being unable to explain/express to the doctor of how bad I'm really feeling.. and it ends up being a misdiagnosis again. It's almost like a non-ending circle.. the whole doctor thing. I just can't seem to find a doctor, that will actually listen to what I'm trying to tell him.. and understand what kinda of pain I have.
I've got records, or well my doctor that handled my accident in the hospital and after the hospital has them. Only problem is, is I don't live in a legal state, which I think should be changed. I could always move to a legal state I suppose.. but even then, I think you have to wait a year before you can apply for one right?? Buddy of mine told that you have to wait a full year before applying for one, once you move to a legal state.
So yeah, I'm kinda stuck in a bad place right now with everything the way it is. So I guess until they legalize it in my state, I'll just have to keep doing what I'm doing.
Good luck to ya David104.
peace everyone.
p.s. - sorry for rambling everyone.. I just got done smoking. Have a good day ppl!