im not a 7 day a week drinker but im a full on binger, will go for days using lots of white just to keep me standing, ahll be the guy tapping his foot outside the pub at 2 mins to openin time and ahll be the last man out at closing, then when im either totally skint or completely physically destroyed i'll lie in bed for 2,3 sumtimes 4 days sweating and feeling suicidal. this is not a good way of life over a prolonged period of time. so i think this is it lads, im not stopping growing weed becoz i truly love watching the growing of a plant and knowing that i'm the guy that 'created' it (sorry god but i'm taking the fuckin credit!!) but im giving up the white and those fuckin crazy blue pills!! i know im gonna drink again, ive already got festival tickets booked so i WILL be gettin wasted at that but i need to break the cycle before it breaks me. just need to get my head and body a little more balanced....as a few of you who have read my posts will know i'm a sorta boom or bust kinda guy ...last week it all went tits up so i think i got a hefty wake up call.....from the fuckin cops when they dragged me oot the front seat, mite also have been done wi dangerous driving as well( according to my local newspaper although they got a few other facts wrong and they are prone to crap reporting), dunno yet, checkin wi ma lawyer maybe tomorrow or early next week.
improved my life a shit load , only thing i find hard is the hiding bit , i didnt have to hide jack he was legal :/