Maybe you're the fucked upone. I just try to be decent loving person despite the fuckedup things fuckedup people have done to me.
How could you ever, EVER suggest I wanted it. You have no idea what it feels like. To hate yourself and think it's all your fault, that no one will ever love you, to cry yourself to sleep everybody wanting to rip your own skin off, to feel disgusted by your own body so much you throw up til you bleed inside to try and make it go away. To doubt yourself constantly, feeling like you'll only ever deserve to veto be treated like shit. And it wasn't one incident it was many over a period of years. If the only kind of intimacy you EVER had was from men abusing you and not even having someone to show you any different, you'd be biased aswell. Even other guys on this site admit alot of men abuse women or treat them like disposable items. Not all of them, because I DO have a boyfriend now, and I'm not hiding that to garner pity for me never having had a boyfriend before. I'm not saying women are perfect either, they can be the biggest manipulators, and us their sexuality to get what they want. But you know what? Alot of them do it because that's the way men taught them to be. Flaunt some and they'll want you.
Get on with my life? Like I said I an more proactive than most people with the perfect life. And I'm glad I stopped shutting people out so I could meet the wonderful man I'm with now. It took guts to go find my love.
I'm just tellin it like it is. I'm sorry if I'm too fucking frank for you.
You probably have alot of twisted shit bottle up inside. Maybe that's why I'm a sweet person to people who know me, I don't harbour all my darkness. I've gained understanding and cone to terms with areas of myself I do and do not like. Hiding things and lying to people or Yourself just warps you into an ugly person, and there are so many things I think I wouldn't have done and people I wouldn't have hurt had I been honest with them and myself in the first place, however much you worry it sounds screwed up.
So if you're too much of a fuckin pussy to handle that then maybe it's you that needs therapy,
People who decide they won't try and come to terms with their way of thinking or deliberately don't have their 'breakthrough' to talk it out are the ones who hold onto shit so they can play the victim
I just try and be helpful or insightful on this forum. I care my soul so people know the truth and feel safe enough toce talk to me about their own problems, whether they just have a sensitive issue or they find someone they can relate to.
Fuck this shit. You boys have your deluded sausage fest.