my pittance of synthetic psychedelic is currently stored in just such a vessel...but wrapped in aluminium
it was plastic wrap before, but I switched it out last time. anythoughts on problesm with either of these touching the good'uns.
anecdotally, after pissing off my friend a bit because I wouldn't trip one day, I got frustrated with myself, and in a prime act of forethoughtlessness, licked the entirety of the plastic wrap used to store our tabs (in my mind it was to not waste it). I smoked a big bowl and sat down to watch and episode of Chuck with my friend. Some part of the way into it, I recognized that my correllation between the actor's 'presence' and his sense of sexual ownership of immediate territory, and the reproducability of this phenomena within myself, was indicative of me not just being stoned. My friend opted to go to sleep and let me deal with it, but it was quite the crisis at first. I felt like I had unwillingly drugged myself, and what a horribly jarring thing to do! I was also not able to convince myself if it was actually working, because whenever I accepted that it was happening, it would get stronger. If it wasn't for the unkown dose, and my complete lack of preparedness, I would have settled in much faster. It was a 'stupid' mistake, but one I needed to make.
Are all of you practiced enough that you can make the transition into the experience without existential crisis of any kind? I harbor a lot of skepticism, and I come up with what in hindsight seem like elaborate rationalizations. It comes down to thinking anything 'different' and 'better' must be 'wrong', that I will percieve myself to change but down the lines it will all subside, and it is all a game of self-deception, that I have kicked off in the past and have no control of now.
I'm coming to think that the real work, or the first true work, is done in this boundary layer. If I transcend the dissection of my reality into self and non-self, real and illusion, there is nothing to block movement.
Given I've been to these states before, and I inevitably have really great and opening experience. But taking that back to earth is the real trick, and I've been convinced I've succeeded. I guess, why do I think that I've ever come down? And forgotten?
/hijack
