Hi dude, I had a self inflicted break-down.. which was bought on by me attempting to stop smoking bud, .. I also stopped drinking, I cut out all fatty foods and went strictly with salad and water during the day.. and a steak meal late at night.. I also started experimenting with weight loss pills and body building formulas... and a few weeks before that I had an ultra bad Mushroom trip in Amsterdam 'Mexican Cubensis' ~ they were strong and I had 2 double packs when I was drunk one night! all this together kicked my ass! I had no energy, lost my appetite, keep getting 'the shakes' really bad, dizziness, could look at car tail-lights at night as they seemed to bright, I developed an OTT paranoia of dying and death in general.. all things associated with death were blanked out I was bed-ridden and kept shifting from freezing cold to boiling hot body temps.....
Point is I was a shadow of my former self and was on prescribed meds from my GP... Diazapam, Lorazypam and some other sleep inducing anti-depressant, I was on meds for severe anxiety were I couldnt even stand in a que and wait more than a few mins without my palms getting sweaty and my mouth drying, and the fluorescent lights making me feel like passing out from the insane flickering..
In the end I decided to quit the meds... I cut out 2 of them instantly, and then eased myself off the Lorazypam over the course of a Month or so, I also kicked the Super Healthy diet and started eating and drinking the things I liked ie Pie, Pizza chips, roasts etc.. I also started drinking (in moderation this time) and I also started to smoke Med. Strength Cannabis again...
Now I am almost back to normal, If am really hungry...sometimes.. the anxiety creeps back and my mind reminds me of my bad mushroom trip.. but as long as I can have a couple of beers and a small doob, then the bad times dissolve more or less instantly.
I found that Sativa strains were alot more helpful with keeping me chilled and sweet, as opposed to Indica strains which kinda made some of my problematic feelings begin to surface again! ... Its now been months and months and I am 99.9% back to good health and can tolerate both strain types.. I just need to eat n drink normal food n drink and more often than I used too, I do know that I wont ever be touching 'Shrooms' again... since the whole breakdown spiralled from the bad trip as well as other things.
So what I found is that weed n alcohol actually straightened my life out and put me back on track, but I do look at life a little differently now and its a permanent change of personality qualities... anyhow hope that helps in some-way - STELTHY