Bouts of depression

writtin

writtin

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Does anybody else ever have to deal with random bouts of depression for no apparent reason? I can not come up with 1 reason why I should/would be feeling this way - and I cannot think of a way to get over it. What can I do? I haven't felt "Normal" in 2 days I have just been really down. Whenever I feel this way I have a really hard time organizing my thoughts.

I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2009
 
bowlfullofbliss

bowlfullofbliss

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I've been in crisis depression for 2 yrs now. I can't break it either. There are a few really good threads about it on here in this section though. \

In all seriousness, this is the last place to look for answers man. I hope you can find some help in the real world. Remember that drugs, even pot, can have serious effects on mood, and can contribute to mood disorders. Keep that in mind as a possible thing to change to see the effects.

That said, I try writing things down, and really thrive on completing a task that I start, I have a bad habit of starting things and not finishing them, and getting more depressed from that.

I'm pretty fucking lost too, so you're not alone. I know a few people on here that are in the same boat.
 
Jesta

Jesta

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I've been depressed for a bit, had to be put on some intense meds, slowly weaning off 'em now. Last 3months I've had some brutal stress, I've thrown up on sidewalks on the way to work, when I start thinking about things more, my brain feels like it's shocking, and I can't get meds for what I'm feeling because the truth of why I'm so stressed would only make my doctor say "hell no, gtfo". I've hinted toward valium, but too many addicts have tainted doctor-patient trust issues. Anyone else get this? Weed used to help, even that doesn't help anymore.

I don't think pot has anything to do with mood disorders to be honest, though.
 
cannabineer

cannabineer

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Jesta said:
I've been depressed for a bit, had to be put on some intense meds, slowly weaning off 'em now. Last 3months I've had some brutal stress, I've thrown up on sidewalks on the way to work, when I start thinking about things more, my brain feels like it's shocking, and I can't get meds for what I'm feeling because the truth of why I'm so stressed would only make my doctor say "hell no, gtfo". I've hinted toward valium, but too many addicts have tainted doctor-patient trust issues. Anyone else get this? Weed used to help, even that doesn't help anymore.

I don't think pot has anything to do with mood disorders to be honest, though.
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Are you willing to let us in on this? cn
 
Jesta

Jesta

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I can't tell if you're being sarcastic, sorry lol. Most of your posts seem sarcastic, but if you're being serious then idk how much of it would be clean for the forums. Nothin' far, just don't wanna get banned for an innocent mistake.
 
cannabineer

cannabineer

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Jesta said:
I can't tell if you're being sarcastic, sorry lol. Most of your posts seem sarcastic, but if you're being serious then idk how much of it would be clean for the forums. Nothin' far, just don't wanna get banned for an innocent mistake.
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I love humor but actually try to avoid outright sarcasm. My post was sincere. I'm trying to figure out how to present it to your doc that he might recommend benzos. cn
 
Jesta

Jesta

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Alright, that's what I meant, humour, not sarcasm. I did a quick google search of benzodiazepines, they seem to be a class of drugs which valium is included in. I'll bring it to the attention to my doctor, only issue is actually getting it and not being blown off. I'd send you a PM Canna, but you need 25posts =/
 
bowlfullofbliss

bowlfullofbliss

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For benzo's the discussion with a Dr. needs to be around anxiety, and not depression. They are not an anti-depressant. You need to be able to describe fear of people or situations, feelings of crushing weight on your chest when in those situations, or while in a depressive bout, that kind of thing.

And valium sux. Klonapin is better IMO, I was on 3mg daily for a very long time.

Be well versed in anxiety attack symptoms, but don't call it that to the Dr. He/she'll tell you that is what it is, and let them know it interferes with your quality of life. That is a big phrase to use.
 
dvs1038

dvs1038

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I know a great cure for depression. SEX!!! When I was outta shape my X would call it sexercise, I wonder if I should come up with a class kinda like the strippers that teach stripperrobics and the class provides u with a partner, hang on this is startin to sound like a whorehouse not a sexercise class, Lolz. I can just hear the teacher now "Ok now class with this stroke I want you to go balls deep(might be deeper for some than others) and hold it, now women when ur partner has gone balls deep I want you to practice squeezing the penis with your vagina muscles, see if u can make him cum just by squeezing.
 
cannabineer

cannabineer

Ursus marijanus
Jesta said:
Alright, that's what I meant, humour, not sarcasm. I did a quick google search of benzodiazepines, they seem to be a class of drugs which valium is included in. I'll bring it to the attention to my doctor, only issue is actually getting it and not being blown off. I'd send you a PM Canna, but you need 25posts =/
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Oh trust me; I have more than that. ;)

And as a contrast to Bowlful's post, I always much preferred Valium to Klonopin (clonazepam). My favorites have been Xanax (the gold standard) and Ativan (no flavor when chewed, fast on and fast off). Response to (and preference for) meds is a bit subjective.
But he makes a point with which I unreservedly agree: the benzos are not for depression but specific for anxiety. cn
 
cannabineer

cannabineer

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dvs1038 said:
I know a great cure for depression. SEX!!! When I was outta shape my X would call it sexercise, I wonder if I should come up with a class kinda like the strippers that teach stripperrobics and the class provides u with a partner, hang on this is startin to sound like a whorehouse not a sexercise class, Lolz.
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Believe me, dvs ... if sex cures it, it was not real depression. Jmo. cn
 
april

april

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Please find someone u do trust to talk with, u need to be open, people care and want to help u learn how to deal with ur own moods when u find urself so unhappy. Having moved away from everyone I know I sometimes find myself alone, sad feeling like I can't shake this funk i'm in :( So I force myself to laugh, I look in the mirror and encourage myself to smile, be happy and learn that I can deal with any obstacle I face. Positive thinking, the law of atttaction says u attract what u think about, if u always think negative, well ngative things will be attracted to u.
 
bowlfullofbliss

bowlfullofbliss

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cannabineer said:
Oh trust me; I have more than that. ;)

And as a contrast to Bowlful's post, I always much preferred Valium to Klonopin (clonazepam). My favorites have been Xanax (the gold standard) and Ativan (no flavor when chewed, fast on and fast off). Response to (and preference for) meds is a bit subjective.
But he makes a point with which I unreservedly agree: the benzos are not for depression but specific for anxiety. cn
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It is funny how some of those benzo's are good for some and not for others. I tried them all. I have almost no benefit using valium, no matter what dose. I thought he xannies tasted so bad I couldn't stand them, since I chew mine, and very little benefit to ativan, oral that is. Invervenious is another story with ativan. Thats why I liked the klonapin. They taste really sweet, chew nice, and leveled me wonderfully with a beer. I kind of miss them sometimes.
 
dvs1038

dvs1038

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cannabineer said:
Believe me, dvs ... if sex cures it, it was not real depression. Jmo. cn
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Agreed, just wanted to find out if there was any volunteers for the Sexercise class I'm startin up, free to join for women, men must pay triple, just cause they're guys. No sausage fest would defeat the purpose of the class, well I guess guys can get a discount if they bring their own chick.

But ur freakin me out Neer, ur the last person I would expect to give me a literal response, Lolz. I think the body snachers got him.
 
writtin

writtin

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cannabineer said:
Oh trust me; I have more than that. ;)

And as a contrast to Bowlful's post, I always much preferred Valium to Klonopin (clonazepam). My favorites have been Xanax (the gold standard) and Ativan (no flavor when chewed, fast on and fast off). Response to (and preference for) meds is a bit subjective.
But he makes a point with which I unreservedly agree: the benzos are not for depression but specific for anxiety. cn
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I have been on xanax klonopin prozac and multiple other kinds of pills - they DO NOT help me at all.
My sex life is average - and with the partner I would like to stay with. It is not a miracle cure
I will try the writing like bowlful said
to april - I am in a sort of situation like yours minus the moving, instead I removed myself from the group of people I was hanging around turned out to be nothing more than alcoholics and drug abusers, something I was trying to get away from(as I was abusing pills, and mixing them with alcohol great combo...) My family is gone and all I have is my girlfriend and her family which might be one of the causes of my depression. I have no physical or emotional connection with anybody that I am related to and I have not for over 2 years weather it be them living too far away or them moving away. I have been living the life of a hermit for months - I go hang out with 2 people... thats it. Me and my girlfriend go for a drive to a lookout to get smoke to a new view or go out and get something to eat. I get annoyed with people very easily in person and I have been able to connect with others online much better(If I talk to somebody in person in person like a counselor or a therapist I get a HUGE HUGE HUGE fear that they are going to know the people I have problems with and it keeps me from talking to them.)

I can not remember them off the top of my head but there is a list of 20+ different medications I was prescribed for various "diagnosis" of different mental health dissorders. It was not until 2009(my first incidence with a mental issue severe enough for me to speak to a doctor about it was in 2001)
 
Total Head

Total Head

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writtin said:
I have been on xanax klonopin prozac and multiple other kinds of pills - they DO NOT help me at all.
My sex life is average - and with the partner I would like to stay with. It is not a miracle cure
I will try the writing like bowlful said
to april - I am in a sort of situation like yours minus the moving, instead I removed myself from the group of people I was hanging around turned out to be nothing more than alcoholics and drug abusers, something I was trying to get away from(as I was abusing pills, and mixing them with alcohol great combo...) My family is gone and all I have is my girlfriend and her family which might be one of the causes of my depression. I have no physical or emotional connection with anybody that I am related to and I have not for over 2 years weather it be them living too far away or them moving away. I have been living the life of a hermit for months - I go hang out with 2 people... thats it. Me and my girlfriend go for a drive to a lookout to get smoke to a new view or go out and get something to eat. I get annoyed with people very easily in person and I have been able to connect with others online much better(If I talk to somebody in person in person like a counselor or a therapist I get a HUGE HUGE HUGE fear that they are going to know the people I have problems with and it keeps me from talking to them.)

I can not remember them off the top of my head but there is a list of 20+ different medications I was prescribed for various "diagnosis" of different mental health dissorders. It was not until 2009(my first incidence with a mental issue severe enough for me to speak to a doctor about it was in 2001)
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that sounds a lot like my situation. truthfully there is some anxiety and some depression, but treating those specific things never pans out. the last of my string of diagnoses included a diagnosis of aspergers. i guess it makes sense but at this point everything the white coats tell me goes in one ear and out the other and autism seems like the diagnosis du jour and there really isn't anything i can do about it anyway.

the only thing that makes me feel any better is the anonymity of the internet allowing me to be myself and seek out people who can't see the sour face i'm making but can read the words i write in the context that i write them (i belong to several themed forums). my life is one big quest for another distraction. i'm very lucky to have some friends that have known me for over 15 years. they are the only people on earth who have ever come close to "knowing me" and they still think i'm weird as hell.

i sometimes wonder if i would still feel like crap all the time if i didn't have all these people in my ear explaining that if i would just do this or just do that my life could be sunshine and roses. i like solitude in real life and socialization in the virtual world. i've worked in call centers for over a decade because i have this thing with eye contact and it makes me look like a creep apparently. i imagine the occasional motor tics don't help, either.

i wish i had something more to offer you, but the only thing that ever makes me feel any better is interacting with strangers on the internet and attempting to do what i cannot do in real life (connect). i write short stories and silly poems. i try to read articles that excite me or inspire me. i snuggle my cat. good luck.
 
writtin

writtin

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Total Head said:
that sounds a lot like my situation. truthfully there is some anxiety and some depression, but treating those specific things never pans out. the last of my string of diagnoses included a diagnosis of aspergers. i guess it makes sense but at this point everything the white coats tell me goes in one ear and out the other and autism seems like the diagnosis du jour and there really isn't anything i can do about it anyway.

the only thing that makes me feel any better is the anonymity of the internet allowing me to be myself and seek out people who can't see the sour face i'm making but can read the words i write in the context that i write them (i belong to several themed forums). my life is one big quest for another distraction. i'm very lucky to have some friends that have known me for over 15 years. they are the only people on earth who have ever come close to "knowing me" and they still think i'm weird as hell.

i sometimes wonder if i would still feel like crap all the time if i didn't have all these people in my ear explaining that if i would just do this or just do that my life could be sunshine and roses. i like solitude in real life and socialization in the virtual world. i've worked in call centers for over a decade because i have this thing with eye contact and it makes me look like a creep apparently. i imagine the occasional motor tics don't help, either.

i wish i had something more to offer you, but the only thing that ever makes me feel any better is interacting with strangers on the internet and attempting to do what i cannot do in real life (connect). i write short stories and silly poems. i try to read articles that excite me or inspire me. i snuggle my cat. good luck.
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Thank you very much for opening up - I as well come to the internet to try to connect with people I think that is one of the reasons I posted this thread. I do NOT talk to my girlfriend about it even. I have a lot of issues stemming from problems with my parents, and past trauma I dealt with when I was a child. I sometimes just make a thread to talk to people when I am bored. I have at times seperated myself from my "friends" because I feel they know me too well and I do not like to make friends in the town I am from because I do not need everybody knowing what I am doing and where and when I am doing it. I feel like that's how it is in my town
 
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