i'm not sure why you chose to subject us all to this sordid little confession. maybe you are so in need of attention that you'll go to any lengths for it or you're starting to doubt your sexual preference and thought you might get some reinforcement of your masculinity here. hopefully you did it because somewhere in the back of your little mind you realize just what an immature scumbag you've been and this is the only atonement your ego would allow you. what i do know is that in the space of less than a week you've managed to show the members of these boards your lack of self-control, your total absence of any capacity for introspection and an ego that somehow allows you to completely disregard the trust needed to maintain a relationship and the well-being of the woman who is destined to bear your child.
get a clue, buy a vowel or whatever it is you need to do to get yourself under control. unlike quite a few of the folks here, i don't think you are bi-sexual in the truest sense of the word. you seem to have no desire to reciprocate the pleasure you receive from this guy and i don't doubt that you barely even see him as human. i wouldn't be too proud of this, it shows us all how self-centered your universe is and how unfit you are to help raise the child you are about to bring into this world. i think you'd better do some serious growing up in the intervening months. you might start with a heartfelt confession to the mother of your child. she has the right to know what kind of man she's involved with, whether it's convenient for you or not. all lies, whether outright or mere sins of omission, come out eventually and the longer they are buried, the more they fester. if you are man enough to confess, consider yourself lucky if she doesn't kick you to the curb and expect to spend a good part of the rest of your life making up for the fact that you did cheat on her and were too self-absorbed to even realize it.