NorthernLights67
Member
Hello. I am a CT resident seeking a medical card. I have done my research and from what I understand it is not going to be easy. I suffer severely from anxiety. I had a traumatic experience happen to me when I was younger and its the basis of all my anxiety of my entire life. Up until about 3 months ago, I did not use any type of substances such as alcohol or drugs for 11 years. When I was younger I partied hard and it got out of hand so I quit. About 3 years ago, I seeked help from a psychologist to work on my issues. I then went to see a (pill pushing) psychiatrist who then put me on all sorts of pills. It was the wost experience of my life and it made my anxiety worse. I finally got off the pills after a few months. I kept on going to my psychologist on and off. She had diagnosed me with PTSD, which she specializes in. But on and off for the past 3 years I have went back to benzos to try to help with my anxiety and it just did not work. Pills just bring me to a dark place and I hate the feeling of relying on them. I was fed up. I took a big risk and I started smoking marijuana at night. It was the best thing I could have ever done! I take a few puffs at night to relax me and it also helps me sleep (no more lunesta). I know it may seem stupid to try to get my card because I never leave the house with it and I only use it at night. But here is the thing, I am a local business owner with kids and my wife is a teacher, god forbid I was caught with it for what ever reason. I know the chances of getting caught with it are slim and it has been decriminalized. I just want to do the right thing. My psychologist has diagnosed me with PTSD and will refer me to any doctor that can prescribe me MMJ. She told me she would prescribe it to me if she could. I am going to talk to my physician. They know my anxiety history, they have actually prescribed me Xanax on several occasions. I know this is probably more information then you needed to read, but I just wanted to share my experience and hopefully get some feedback/advice, or to hear other experiences. Thank you.