Beautiful substance..
1st time - 55mgs vape. 4 large hits. Kept smoking until the concept stopped making sense and I could no longer see the machine. One more big hit. Hold my breath... Intense open and closed eye visuals. Feeling of being surrounded by entities. Never lost touch with myself, no breakthrough. Absolute bliss. Perfect happiness. No fear, no anxiety.
2nd and 3rd times - 60 mg vaped. Very similar experience as far as depth. No breakthroughs. Perfect bliss. I love this chemical.
4th time - 75mg vaped. Continued smoking till I couldn't see, took one more big one, held it in and laid down. Faint classical music playing in my room. Time stopped. It seemed like forever and I remembered my breath was still held. With an explosion I let it out and breathed in. My body drifted up from my bed and into heaven. I felt like I was dead. That concept was accepted without fear. I told myself that it was just my body dying and it was ok. I tried to dismiss the concept of me and the necessity of life but I remained tethered.
I lose the ability to continue to explain with words the way the trip enfolded. I came back with an intense feeling of love and appreciation for my beautiful wife and children. And a firm understanding that my life is on the correct path. It is beautiful.
No breakthroughs to hyperspace, but it may be that I'm not ready yet. I'll wait a couple weeks to go again so as not to diminish my tolerance. I think I went through 230mg in one night. I could have done more. There was no fear. No anxiety.
I love DMT.