Funny how hospital stay and 10 mins. w/ a neurologist can change your perspective

Hello all, im back home from a few days in the hospital. Please bear with me if this is a little disjointed. you'll understand why later.

Monday night I started having crazy sweating and felt drunk ( i haven't touched alcohol for almost 9 years), later on i started having problems walking and w/ my balance. I also had a crazy migraine.

My wife convinced me to go to the ER and the admitted me fast. After 1,000,000 tests and more blood being taken than I can remember, they still didnt have an answer. I was having a hard time speaking right, my right hand was shaking constantly and i could barely walk. Felt exhausted all the time.

They took a CT scan and an MRI of my brain. They found my brain had an inflammation and what they think is a small lesion, its hard to tell for sure because of the inflammation. That night I couldnt stop thinking of how was I going to support my family, no one wants a tattoo from a dude w/ a vibrating hand.

I started to freak out about am i gooing to die? Who's going to take care of my wife and kids? Fuck, am I ever gonna see my boys graduate, get married have kids?


All my test results that were of major concern (Cancer, Bacterial Meningitis etc.) came back negative. Its down to Viral Meningitis (the best outcome, its only temporary), a couple other things I cant remember and MS.
Neurologist is leaning towards meningitis or MS because of my problems w/ dealing w/ heat. The hotter I get the more all the symptoms come out.

I pulled something out of this fucked up situation already, it what is REALLY important. The house, cars and $ dont mean a damn thing. Trust me when youre lying in a hospital bed pondering your future that shit doesnt matter, its your family ,friends and whether you think youve been a good man.

Appreciate and value what you have that matters, it can all be taken away in seconds.

sorry to hear that, must be pretty nervewracking, especially not having a conclusive diagnosis yet.

I do however think that your point on lying in a hospital bed pondering your future is subjective. I've been there and personally, family, friends and whether i was a good man did not really hit the top of my thought train.

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sorry to hear that, must be pretty nervewracking, especially not having a conclusive diagnosis yet.

I do however think that your point on lying in a hospital bed pondering your future is subjective. I've been there and personally, family, friends and whether i was a good man did not really hit the top of my thought train.

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Well, at the top of the list is "i dont wanna die" of course

I forgot (its happens a lot now) to include that I am having a spinal tap on Monday, that should answer the last few questions.

There was a time when all that material crap was the motivating factor of my life. Thankfully ( in retrospect ) I had a house fire destroy it all. Standing outside watching world smolder with both my kids and our dogs safe and sound, I realized exactly what you did, the really important things in life can't be purchased. That traumatic event changed my life in so many ways, as I'm sure yours will for you. Good luck, and be healthy.

I mean that those thoughts were far from the top of my list. The only real thoughts towards my fmaily were that it was going to hurt them emotionally, other than that i had other things i spent more time pondering, things to come from a level of acceptance, what comes next etc, than one of fear for loved ones and children and such. Call me a little potty

i hear you on the life changing part man, im 21 yrs old and i have been going through the neurology shit for the last 2 1/2 yrs, but they cant seem to give me a straight up awnser. it really is fucked up because i have siezures whenever im "not feeling right" or usually when im really pissed off...(ive had about 8-10 since they started)...they say its a brain scar but they cant see it. wich is kindof fucked up.

and for these last 2 years ive been scared to go out w/ my buddies, scared of life in general because i never really know what caused them. just recently ive decided to man up and live my life because ive been just wasting it away. what makes me feel safer is doing research about it and gaining an understanding of whats going on. i have learned more myself than the doctors have ever told me. (looking up things online and seeing other ppls experiences)

i hope that your problem is not as long lasting as mine, but what your going throug sounds alot like what i went through in the begining

all i can say is roll with the punches and stick it out for your familys sake.

hopefully your problem can be solved and good luck dude.

Good luck brother. My step mom has MS. Thanks to bud she was able to get out of here wheel chair though and the docs don't know why. Ah the magic of herb! You'll make it. The tough ones always do.

I've already learned the whole "enjoy every moment you have because in one moment it could all be gone"

But good words my man, some people still don't get it until some shit goes down.

I wish you luck, and I do believe in karma. There is a bright side to your problem, somewhere. Sometime in the future you will realize this, as I have noticed many turning points in my life years later and realized how much better my life now is because of those moments.

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