Hello. Thank you. I too, wish you the best and hope you are enjoying life. I do have some info on those items. You don't want them. They will not help you enjoy life.
But, they are usually available at the worst looking store you can find. It'll cost you some money, your dignity, and maybe your sanity.
If you really care that little for what you put in your body to be high, why don't you just find some good old fashioned hard drugs to become addicted to? Why try the experimental chemical stuff? If I send you some stuff sprayed with some other stuff sprayed with some stuff to make it taste like watermelon, would you smoke it? It sounds like you would. None of this sounds very smart, does it? That's because those are all horrible ideas. The corner of12th avenue and Broadway, Tues and Thurs 12-3 (he's gotta pick his kid up.) Ask for big T. Just kidding.
I got tricked by the title. I've been searching for some herbal incense. It was a NW blend of sage, sweetgrass, cedar, and maybe something else. Came in little pressed cylinders and a stone base to burn them in. Now I want to get some Copal and some Oud. I LOVE SCENTS.