How much longer do you think you'll live and what will happen to your grow?

I am realizing today that nobody around me condones my way of living. Under it all I get a lot of eye rolling and other negative body language. People are judging me for the way I live and it doesn't make me happy. I work hard to not live a corporate life, to not be in a box, to not live by the rules of others. Fucking useless people. There is no greater feeling of truly being alone then when the people closest to me want me to live with their fears, their obstacles, and their visions. It fucking sucks and now I am absolutely alone. It's been a facade all this time. Fuck them people. They better stay the fuck in their own lanes.

I'll have to forget about leaving my grow to anybody.