super update: ok this morning I hit her up on aim because her away was like i pushed her away and blah blah. she had to get off the computer so she called me. we argued like cats and dogs. she was like "well do u wanna be with somebody who still has feelings for her ex?" im like na i dont, but i kno thats not the case. and if it is then that means you have been playin me this whole fuckin time. so dont sit here and play the victim, actin like i was the asshole when clearly im not. and she starts crying and she hangs up. i call her back and she dont answer. so im talkin to my boy who is goin through a similar situation and he winds up putting the convo as his away message. she sees it and she says to me "oh you think u and ur friends know everything, your going to reap what you sow" im like wtf did i sow? i didnt do shit to you. and then i hit her back on aim and im like yo wtf is your problem seriously? and she tells me that she thinks that i need to focus more on how to get out of this situation then to worry about a gf. she says that she wants to settle down and have kids and stuff and that im not ready for that. and she wants stability and what not. but the thing is when she met me, i didnt have a job, i was a drop out, i wassnt thinking about school, let alone a career path. now i got a job, i take my ged next month. im enrolling into college. and everyone is like damn kid, u changed alot. and she dont see it. or maybe she does but she is letting her fear run her life. she got mad when i said that she didnt love me this entire time and i was just a puppet on a string. so now either its that she has her little issues which we can work out, or she played me. but i need to really know whats going on so i can either be done with this and move on, or work on it. but she said she wants to talk about it more when she gets home tonight so idk. but based on the next convorsation, that will determine whats gunna happen.
