When people I love say that to me. I tell them that life's short and they should wait it out. It's eventually going to happen anyway. to many people are going to be affected because you didn't have the patience and strength to wait it out. get out of your own head and think of others, don't you get tired of thinking of yourself all day?
Yes I know I'm a dick..
I could make your skin crawl with the thoughts that would go through my mind.
Some seriously messed up shit. The only way to "turn it off" was to sleep, or to watch hours and hours of mind-numbing televison. Other than that, I would cry.
All I had to do is get help, and stop doing what I was dong. And eventually, I did.
But FUCK me if I wasn't 100% positive that it would never get better.
It's called the "negative thinking loop".
You've seen me. I have a shit-eaters grin on my face 24/7. Sometme in January I looked in the mirror, and realized it had been months, and I meant MONTHS since I had really smiled and meant it.
No one could know to look at me. I have become so good at faking it over my life, that it's scary.
But, getting help was the way to go.
Beeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwop!