Had shit relationships, been cheated on, Went through a best friend ratting me out and sitting on rocks for 3 years. Not to say me, or my real friends let the shit go unanswered I was REALLY pissed at first, and for years after. The snitch literally went through years of not being able to keep a place to live due to vandalism, and more beatings than I can count. Don't know why the fuck he never moved more than 20 minutes from the city. I forgive him. Not for him, but for me. Because I understand he's just a weak fuck and he was doing what comes natural to him when push comes to shove. Same with the skanks. My Dad walked out on us when I was young only to show up 17 years later like "what's up". He's missed out on my life. He was a douche bag arrogant kid when he had me, and he can never get those years back. We're cool, and jam together regularly. Couldn't do that if I never forgave him, and I would have been the one missing out at that point as he's a musical virtuoso who's taught me to play guitar, bass, violin, and helped me early along in playing the drums. I guess the way I see it is Fuck Em. I like Me. I'm proud of who I am. If someone fucks me they have to live with it. I'm not saying it's the same for everyone, but when I look at people that act ignorant toward me in one way or another I can ALWAYS find unhappiness in their life. They ALWAYS seem to get more than what was coming to them in one way or another. There's only a few things in this life that truly matter to me, and I handle my shit accordingly with those few things. I don't put anyone in the position to fuck with those few things as far as I can help it while still living my chosen lifestyle. The rug can be pulled out from under us at any point in our lives through fault, or no fault of our own. That's life. In the end I try to remember that we are all human, and fuckup in one way or another. Just never let let anyone fuck you twice. Take every precaution not to get fucked in the first place, but if you do don't be bitter about it. Move on after the initial "fuck you, die" period and be better than the person who fucked you and you're that much of better person. You can take pride in being that much better than the average piece of shit. There's no getting around getting fucked by the human element at some point in life. Hate makes you bitter. The definition of forgiveness to to let go of anger, or resentment toward something. Neither one are good for me in the long term. In the short term they are normal emotions, and reactions to an unjust situation. Currently I fucking HATE most of our Government. The fucking they are giving the american people is inexcusable. I resent them, and hold quite a bit of anger toward them, but forgiveness is a process. It's hard to forgive anyone during the present. Forgiveness takes time and is a process, but if possible I think shit should be let go or it will haunt you in one way or another at one point or another only adding insult to injury.
A lot of times forgiveness is easiest through understanding the weakness of those who have fucked you. It's the shit you can't wrap your mind around that's hard to forgive. Sometimes it's good NOT to understand why people fucked you as it takes one to know one. If you can't figure it out, chances are you don't want to. Sometimes people are just pieces of shit plain, and simple.
There's my rant on forgiveness.
Hardest to forgive for me-
-Liars- They will steal from you. They have already stolen your trust.
-Thieves- They will fucking lie to you about stealing your shit, and are stealing your trust in the process.
-Anyone fucking with the people I truly care about.
Peace.
Tav
