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How's it going guys/gals? ( sorry for the long story I just have to explain every detail )
Just felt I wanted to reach out and try to talk to someone to see if this has happened to anyone and if you have returned to normal.
I'm a 25 year old male who started smoking around the age of 18 and 19 and have been doing it off and on through out my life.
About 3-4 months ago I started vaping again using a Davinci Iq vaporizer and everything was fine and marry. I did it at nights to just chill out watch a movie or play a game.
Last Monday ( right after Easter Sunday around 3am ) I vaped some hi-grade bud from a reliable source and after that I have experienced something that I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy. It's been literally hell. After smoking it I couldn't sleep and at 5-6am anxiety/panic hit pretty strong. I thought to myself "well this is just a bad trip and I'll get over it". Got up to eat something to try to bring it down to only realize it didn't get better. I felt disconnected with myself and an uncontrollable feeling of fear/anxiety.
I finally went to sleep for a while to wake up to feeling the same. All of this week I've been feeling scared with thoughts of "did I screw myself up?" "Am I ever going to be normal?" "Am I going crazy?" It's honestly been the scariest part of my life.
I ended up in the ER 3 times since then due to heart palpitations, feeling like I was going to have a heart attack, etc but everything every time including blood work showed that everything is perfectly fine. ( only thing I haven't had checked is my mind ) They also ran a piss test and they found marijuana and nothing else so I know the bud I vaped wasn't laced.
Even though some days i feel better I come back and start feeling depressed and just scared. For example yesterday I went to class and I had to leave because my anxiety was too strong, I literally thought about calling 911 while walking around campus. Only thing that called me down was talking to an old professor I had and I prayed for her ( that felt awesome ).
To mention my appetite since my last time smoking hasn't been there at all so I find myself forcing myself to eat. Sometimes I try to eat and the food just tastes blah. I'm a big guy so eating was never a problem.
Yesterday I went to my primary doctor and explained everything to him and he said it messed with my psyc and to try a a low dosage SSRI for a month or 2 then lean myself out of them to normalize my brain. I of course as a Christian feel condemned of my choices and especially taking an anti depressant / anxiety controller because I've NEVER EVER had a problem with this and I don't take any medication of any kind. I have a good family and there is nothing going on in my life causing these issues just in case you are wondering.
Overall before last Monday I was always the guy who was always laughing and making people laugh because that's who I truly am. I'm the guy that in the midst of troubling circumstances I usually say " ahh God is with us and we will see this through" and not have one care in the world.
Just to clarify these feelings IMHO feel like they are uncontrollable and they just come over me, it's hard to snap back and get my mind off of it. I usually call a good pastor friend of mine and we just pray and I start to encourage myself to get my mind off of it.
My question is has any of you felt like this? How long did you have it for? Any advice? Should I not take the medication that the doctor gave and just ride it out?
I know this is long and just like myself I hate to read but I appreciate anyone that takes time out of their day to read and reach out. I love you guys/gals to death and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for any replies.
God bless you all and may you have an awesome blessed joyful day!
Rock on my rollitup brothers/sisters.
Just felt I wanted to reach out and try to talk to someone to see if this has happened to anyone and if you have returned to normal.
I'm a 25 year old male who started smoking around the age of 18 and 19 and have been doing it off and on through out my life.
About 3-4 months ago I started vaping again using a Davinci Iq vaporizer and everything was fine and marry. I did it at nights to just chill out watch a movie or play a game.
Last Monday ( right after Easter Sunday around 3am ) I vaped some hi-grade bud from a reliable source and after that I have experienced something that I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy. It's been literally hell. After smoking it I couldn't sleep and at 5-6am anxiety/panic hit pretty strong. I thought to myself "well this is just a bad trip and I'll get over it". Got up to eat something to try to bring it down to only realize it didn't get better. I felt disconnected with myself and an uncontrollable feeling of fear/anxiety.
I finally went to sleep for a while to wake up to feeling the same. All of this week I've been feeling scared with thoughts of "did I screw myself up?" "Am I ever going to be normal?" "Am I going crazy?" It's honestly been the scariest part of my life.
I ended up in the ER 3 times since then due to heart palpitations, feeling like I was going to have a heart attack, etc but everything every time including blood work showed that everything is perfectly fine. ( only thing I haven't had checked is my mind ) They also ran a piss test and they found marijuana and nothing else so I know the bud I vaped wasn't laced.
Even though some days i feel better I come back and start feeling depressed and just scared. For example yesterday I went to class and I had to leave because my anxiety was too strong, I literally thought about calling 911 while walking around campus. Only thing that called me down was talking to an old professor I had and I prayed for her ( that felt awesome ).
To mention my appetite since my last time smoking hasn't been there at all so I find myself forcing myself to eat. Sometimes I try to eat and the food just tastes blah. I'm a big guy so eating was never a problem.
Yesterday I went to my primary doctor and explained everything to him and he said it messed with my psyc and to try a a low dosage SSRI for a month or 2 then lean myself out of them to normalize my brain. I of course as a Christian feel condemned of my choices and especially taking an anti depressant / anxiety controller because I've NEVER EVER had a problem with this and I don't take any medication of any kind. I have a good family and there is nothing going on in my life causing these issues just in case you are wondering.
Overall before last Monday I was always the guy who was always laughing and making people laugh because that's who I truly am. I'm the guy that in the midst of troubling circumstances I usually say " ahh God is with us and we will see this through" and not have one care in the world.
Just to clarify these feelings IMHO feel like they are uncontrollable and they just come over me, it's hard to snap back and get my mind off of it. I usually call a good pastor friend of mine and we just pray and I start to encourage myself to get my mind off of it.
My question is has any of you felt like this? How long did you have it for? Any advice? Should I not take the medication that the doctor gave and just ride it out?
I know this is long and just like myself I hate to read but I appreciate anyone that takes time out of their day to read and reach out. I love you guys/gals to death and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for any replies.
God bless you all and may you have an awesome blessed joyful day!
Rock on my rollitup brothers/sisters.
