numb and warning

buzzardbreath said:

It is easy to hate and it is difficult to love.

This is how the whole scheme of things works.

All good things are difficult to achieve; and bad things are very easy to get. -Old Asian Badass

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After reading this, I'm thinking that nowt I'm a hypocrite...digging a hole.

drama done.

Padawanbater2 said:

So sorry, man

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knuckle bump

@Singlemalt
i know u have heard of split personalities .........a bi polar is not that they are the same but they are 2 halfs of the coin like everyone else but amped up to the extreme ends
normal ppl always care and have empathy for others limiting the actions the person is willing to do get end results .......a bi polar person on the low end has none of those basically psychotic sociopath....some implode on them self taken out what they feel on own bodies ......others are exploders that take it out on the ppl around them ( lady on a bad period times 100 ....sheer bat shit crazy to everyone but self ) ....yes i know most ppl think i am that way all the time.........u have not seen shit when it really snapped in my head they had police tracking me tho corn fields (willing to break your own thumbs hand cuff will not hold u) hence why i am always leg shackled when ever i get taken in they run my name in booking tell them too i will escape if i can....i told u beat up 4 cops and got 9 total month under mental ward 6 in lock down 3 had to come in every day (getting pills right and making sure before release) it was that or jail for what i did......full blown bi polar is like retard str on pcp during a white out tazers do not hurt but mace does (incase u need to save your ass)

that is what i am worried about passing on to someone else .........not a gamble u would take if u really seen it ......i am not shitting u at all just look up meds they give us ......those that do not refuse them the side effects from taken them every day for years is worst then death ......study after study shows that cognitive and verbal function decreases ....one of the studies in UK were using cannabinoids to treat ppl on those meds and shows they retain almost everything with cannabiniods vs the ppl that did not use on the pills ( weed makes u smarter or protects from the chemicals they feed us) i used that in court ....to justify a medical defense in this state 100 buck fine unsupervised probation
http://www.ukcia.org/research/CannabinoidsInBipolarAffectiveDisorder.pdf

if ppl want to get fucked up and leave their body go get some meds they use for bi polar ppl

it's time to reflect. just say, justugh and chill. it's summertime appreciate what you got. maybe make some amish furniture, like some shelving or an herb rack out of recycled pallets. or pick up that 8' x 40' shipping container ya been thinkin about. get back to what you most enjoy doing. maybe get a canine companion like seeing eye dog

abe supercro said:

it's time to reflect. just say, justugh and chill. it's summertime appreciate what you got. maybe make some amish furniture, like some shelving or an herb rack out of recycled pallets. or pick up that 8' x 40' shipping container ya been thinkin about. get back to what you most enjoy doing. maybe get a canine companion like seeing eye dog

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abe supercro said:

it's time to reflect. just say, justugh and chill. it's summertime appreciate what you got. maybe make some amish furniture, like some shelving or an herb rack out of recycled pallets. or pick up that 8' x 40' shipping container ya been thinkin about. get back to what you most enjoy doing. maybe get a canine companion like seeing eye dog

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getting the old man in the ground then taken a week someplace not here ....distract myself and then come back form a hard plant and take care of the shit get the hell out of this state
right now one of the rare things make me happy is going on doctor who marathon ........stories that will distract me let mind go to other subjects


to all

thanks i am good i am numb with out overwhelming rage ........used my head found a list of what i should do when family member dies(AARP) ......nothing more can be done until Monday 1:45 finalize the details

death was caused by ruptured thoracic aortic aneurysm....killed grand pa not a damn thing anyone could of done ...basically u feel back pain leg weakness then u get drunk like from lack of blood and black out die .......so not bad only little discomfort like a pulled muscle .....better then my mom so that is one thing

thanks ......sorry if freaked anyone out and thanks for not making this a joke

going to use the god given power of sleep for next day