im coming to the time in my life i have to quit weed for a while , job doing drug tests ( if i fuck something up ) its really hard , for me life is just so much easier when stoned ,( im only talkin two maybe three joints a day ) i can get on with a job i can be a good dad , i can care about people , i can get on with my familly and i can ignore the shit things about life , without weed , i just feel everything is pointless , ive smoked everyday for 15 + years , without it i become disconected with life , i dont care about anyone or anything , for me its not about getting HIGH i mostly smoke alone , its about getting through each day .
people say oh those negative feelings will go away after a couple of months , but they dont , i once did nearlly a year without weed , i put on weight disconected with friends and familly and getting up for work everyday was just torture , with weed i get up everyday , bright and ready to start the day .
i can literally be at the point that everything in my life is shit , i look to the future and just see bad bad things , but then i smoke half a joint and everything is suddenly better and the future seems bright .yeah im addicted to weed but i can honestly say weed helps me not hinders me , ive been sober and it really is not better for me .