Really need help...

I'm new here, and not entirely sure if I'm even posting this in the right topic. Anyway, this is going to be long, but ANY help is appreciated.

I'm 17. I started smoking in mid April. I smoked mids and got really high my first time. It wore off after a few hours and I was back to normal. Days later, I smoked more, not really getting that high though. It wasn't until May started that I smoked dank weed for the first time out of a bottle bowl. It smoked pineapple kush and got REALLY high. Keep in mind, I haven't had any anxiety attacks or anything, I love being high and smoking weed. Anyway, I smoked this pineapple kush all weekend and was fine by the time I went back to school other than maybe feeling a bit tired. Days later, I smoked just some plain dank weed (skunk weed perhaps?) and pineapple kush. The next few days I still felt high, and I didn't like it. I read about depersonalization and derealization but I don't really understand it. Saturday I still felt this way and I smoked more. The next day, I woke up feeling fresh, it was gone. Smoking got rid of it somehow. Moving on to mid May. I bought three grams of purple urkle and went to town with it on the weekend of May 20th. By now I was smoking joints and out of a bong, not a bottle bowl anymore. I never got so high. When I was at my highest, I watched Paranormal Activity and the Blair Witch Project for the first time. It was really not a good idea but it didn't really phase me much... I smoked this on Monday and Tuesday as well, and I never got that high feeling for days after until Wednesday. I felt a little spacey but it was NOTHING like when I smoked Pineapple Kush and skunk. So on Wednesday, I went home from school feeling pretty good. I took a nap since I figured, rest will help this. I woke up feeling INCREDIBLE anxiety because for some reason now I was paranoid about the two horror movies I saw. I don't know what made it hit me here but I can't explain it. I've had this paranoia ever since and it put me into a serious depression (I just got over the depression, I don't know where it came from though haha.) But after the paranoia, I smoked Green Crack all weekend, 4 grams this time. Monday was no school so me and my friend just smoked and smoked... Green Crack is great. It made me feel great and had terrific after effects. But I still had paranoia. Later that week, still feeling dazed everyday, I bought bubba kush and some more green crack. Smoked it all weekend, starting this week. All week I've had anxiety as night time approached because of those movies, I don't know why. During school and just in general, I feel dazed. I don't feel totally detached from reality, I just feel sort of dazed. It's not depersonalization I don't think, because it's not that intense. I haven't slept really any through all of this smoking, so I have to wonder if the dazed and spaced out feeling is related to lack of sleep. I've read all over the net about people in this position and I don't get it... I'm smoking cheese kush tomorrow because I just want to get high. But my perception of everything has just been weird lately, not the same. I can't take naps because I feel so out of it when I wake up. Can someone try and explain to me what this is, and if they have experienced it? I'd appreciate it. I may just be feeling like this because of the anxiety, and how much I've been thinking about it. I'm going for a jog later so well see how it goes.

PS: I don't think green crack or bubba kush caused me to be dazed out. I think it's from the purple urkel and the anxiety, but I've been getting better as I've gotten more sleep. It seems as though I need a lot of sleep when I smoke a lot, and if I don't I'm screwed until I get high again and then get a massive sleep, but I don't know... I don't want to quit smoking because I love it. Sorry if this is too long.

your 17????

I turn 18 tomorrow actually, but yeah.

You should maybe come back tomorrow.

Most awkward block of text.. ever.
This is why kids shouldn't smoke weed, they act all weird about it.

As much as I can understand where you are coming from, I don't see why it matters at all. I have seen posts from people claiming to be 15 and smoking weed on this same forum.

I guess the forum rules are 13 and over.

Now disregarding my age, it would be nice to hear SOME bit of advice...

Cool story bro









Seriously though maybe its time for a tolerance break, so you can sleep normal. Honestly I just read the ps part.

I can't blame you. There is a lot of redundant text on here. In the long run all I want to know is if other people have ever felt spacey for a few days after they smoke, or spacey if they never sleep after they smoke a lot.

I also have a feeling that I have a really low tolerance. I'm 6"1 and only weigh 130.

my advice would be to keep posting on this forum, because you will learn how to block out those thoughts. You'll learn. There is a lot of ate up motherfuckers who post on here, but I still learn from them.

The rule is don't get all weird about smoking. I've learned that the hard way lol I used to have absolutely terrible anxiety when I'd smoke. Just chill and enjoy being baked. And the other rule, is NEVER, EVER, under any circumstances, try to think about what other people are thinking about you when you are baked. Unless your by yourself and you are thinking abut life going to bed or something. you will almost always have an anxiety attack and think you are annoying everybody. just relaxxxxxxxxxxx

Everyone has the feeling of low tolerance. Nobody is special. with a couple exceptions. when I first started smoking, I legitamately tripped. If the lights were off I'd see waving colors and hear voices.. All sorts of shit that now only happens under the influence of psychedelics.

You'll learn more as you spread out and attempt other drugs. I would highly reccomend trying shrooms, lsd, mescaline. Anything natural first. Those will teach yo real quick to get over your anxiety. More mescaline and lsd. Shrooms might cause you to freak out. On second thought. Don't eat shrooms unless your dose is going to be small. Those things are bizarre. just ate 5 grams last night It was beautiful. Mind blowing experience.

I don't get anxiety WHILE I'm high... I got it afterwards because days after I feel just dazed and a little out of it (my eyes are particularly sensitive to light, and I'm also lightheaded.). Then again I don't drink anything while or after I'm high, along with lack of sleep to make it a bigger problem. The night I got high off bubba kush, my eyes were red from being tired. When I got high, they were so red it was like I got them stabbed.

Anyway while high off weed no matter what, I don't get paranoid really. I see all kinds of trippy images in my head and talk alot, but I can honestly get back into reality somewhat if I try. Like if I go to school high (I've done it twice) I can usually cover it up pretty well... well I do twitch alot lol but thats it.

From what I read I would suggest you try some ChemDawg...it'll help with your anxiety. you'll like it.

Ok, Don't try harder drugs man, if you've got anxiety you don't want shrooms, trust me. Otherwise, maybe don't smoke for a while, and above all, you could do this: Keep smoking whatever, and see a private psychologist and tell him/her about everything, it's completely discrete and your parents don't have to know, I went when I was your age I didn't even smoke, but it'll help you get rid of any bad feelings in your life really really fast.

Peace and love.

Well the anxiety is gone. I just feel dazed. Whatever, I'll just smoke more tomorrow and then sleep tons and I should be fine.

So, you've discovered weed and like it. That's fine, but it sounds to me like you're doing what a lot of folks do when they get to college with booze, you went freakin' nuts with it. Again that's fine, but it sounds like maybe you need to ease into things.Take some breaks between smoking and maybe smoke less when you do, that way you can learn to deal with any anxiety/paranoia in small doses first. Also, THC can mess with REM cycles. You'll sleep more, but you might not wake up feeling rested. Some people experience this, some don't. Anyway, relax and have fun. Because if you aren't, then why do it?

Dr.Nick

Dr. Nick has a good post there, take his advice.

I believe your just over thinking it. Its JUST getting stoned dude. Everyones done it, just chillax maannnnnnn

Yeah man, everybody's doin' it - LOL.