Blunted247
Active Member
salvia is way wierd....
it always starts off feeling like i am being pulled back into something, or like everything is being folded up, or rolled up, then the whole universe becomes flat, and eventually everything starts to disapear, and it feels like someone is telling me in the back of my mind to just relax, and that this is normal, eventually the subtle hallucinations take a crazy turn that i am never prepared for, i feel like i am about to learn a big secret.... and then (this is where i always start to freak out, no matter how hard i tell myself its a trip)....and then its like i am finally seeing the REAL world...and my life as i thought had existed was simply a memory of a long long time ago.... then in the real world i have no tangable body, so i cant talk and i am a peice of something else, and all the people i have ever known in my life, such as family friends and anyone i ever met are just peices like me that are all a part of a bigger being, and the only reason i thought i was "related" or close to some people was because in the real reality (salvia world) they are the ones that are closest to me its like im a cell and they are the cell next to me and thats the only connection we have, but i have an attachment to the ones closest to me because they appear to be my friends and family(at the same time they are just tiny cells compacted together on a microscopic scale, and as the trip keeps going i end up turning into the larger being that me and all life are a part of, and now i'm really entering the REAL world, but then that large, thing/person/entity/me ends up being a tiny peice of an even larger peice and it just keeps going and going and going..... i always try to fight it because it's like i am losing my identity, and in my mind i would rather die, but in this new world there is no such thing as dying, and if there was i wouldn't be in control of it.
it feels like i keep zooming out, like first i am only a cell or a part of a larger thing/person/being/me(i cant explain what it is it feels like it's everyone in the whole world, and at the same time it feels like a complete stranger, and at the same time its me), then i am that larger thing, then there are many large beings like me that are all just a part of a larger thing, and it keeps going, the reason i get so scared is because when i am doing this "zooming" time on the scale of microscopic object is really really fast compared to the larger, and since i keep zooming out time keeps slowing down..... so in my life before i started tripping, when i thought time was normal, now feels like an ever shrinking moment.
hard to explain..... its like time is relative to the space that you take up..... so when i was just a tiny piece of very large object, i only saw a very small piece of a very large time..... eventually i zoom back into my "normal" body, and when i finally come back its like i just woke up from a nightmare....lol i know i probably sound nuts, but the words cannot describe what i felt and saw..... anyway, i have done salvia over 40 times, i liked it otherwise i wouldn't have done it so many times, at first my trips were nothing like this, this is what has been happening the to me every time i smoke salvia in the exact same way
but the last six times were very terrifying and i decided to never do it again. i told myself that the last couple of times but i always forget the feeling and want to feel it again, but once the trip starts it feels like i never actually stopped tripping from the first time and every time i smoke it in my real life, i zoom out of a being in the salvia world......
anyway it makes me feel like my whole life is fake, and all the things i care about in this world are meaningless, and i don't mean like material possessions i mean like things like talking, or having a body, or time. salvia is fucking weird and a complete mind fuck.... anyone who says it doesn't do anything to them... then lucky you, but i think that everyone should try it once, it is honestly a life changing experience and is something you will never forget, and it is something that is very personal
that was some raww ass shit.....u made me decide to go pick up some saliva .....time to learn....
thanks!