I am seeking help from anyone who thinks that they may have been touched by the hand of some supernatural power. I experienced a sub conscienous episode with salvia divinorum where i woke up and had written a bunch of latin words and 1 ancient symbol that through hours of research has been identified as the indalo man dating back to 2500 BC. The indalo man is synonomous with the "messenger of the gods" I had never seen or heard of the indalo man in my entire life until now. It is the only symbol that has appeared in prehistoric europe as well as the prehistoric americas.
now that i have your attention I am willing to share with you my entire experience with salvia. It started as wanting to get as legally hammered as the kids on youtube...and the guy who drives, gardens, and writes a letter to congess on salvia....(3 of the funniest videos i have ever seen in my life...i highly recommend watching them)
My first experience with salvia was a complete abortion. I do not like losing control of myself. Salvia was completely taking control....it just layed me on my back. I did not break through at all....just felt really abused by it. I felt as if though thousands of needles were trying to pierce me. I was severely cold sweating. I layed there saying to my sitter..i dotn like this i dont like this over and over again. It did this to me, but it also intrigued me. I felt as if the salvia was trying to take me somewhere....i wasn't really sure where yet, but i knew that it wanted to take me somewhere.
The next night i tried it again. I had a sitter both occasions and I felt like i was trying to impress my buds by being an animal smoking salvia rather than letting salvia take over and take me where it wanted to. This second time, even with a sitter, i saw a portal. that is the only way i could describe. i am not a treky or an irrational person but On my side it was just some sort of energy...couldnt really explain to you at this time what it was, just some sort of energy. On the other side of the portal was nothing. This intrigued me more than ever. I wanted to know what was on the other side. I understood this time that i must let salvia take over. I couldn't resist. Resisting only leads to bad experiences.
I have found that the cold sweats, the feeling of having thousand of needles poking in to you, is the feeling you get when you try to resist salvia. If you embrace salvia, you can break through and come back at will, you do not feel intense poking of needles or heavy vibrations. Salvia opens a portal to an astral plane. Interested now? keep reading...it only gets better.
My third time with salvia i knew that i needed to let it take me over. I also thought i needed allot (not the case at all...maybe at first....but once you understand salvia and what it is offering you...you only need a little)
I decided on not having a sitter my 3rd time. I didnt want to impress anyone..i just wanted some answers as to what salvia is. It doesnt feel like a drug...it is so intense...well, to be honest....i think it really is exactly what the name stands for...a divine healer...
My third time i decided on 1/4 gram of 20x. I took three hits off my bubbler and held each hit as long as possible. On the third hit...i held it till i broke though for the first time......I saw the portal again....instead of trying to go through it....i subconsciensly asked it to take me. I was completely giving in to what it wanted. I had no sweating. I had no needles. I only felt as if my body was being caressed by the most gently and amazing thing.
Immediately upon asking the portal to consume me, i entered a place that seriously can not be accurately described. I will, however, do my best.
I entered a place where time didnt exist. It was a place where i didnt exist. It was a place where nothing existed, but where everything existed. It was heaven, it was hell. There was no evil, there was no good. But together, with this place.....everything existed. Salvia showed me a place that i can only describe as supernatural. You see...for anything to exist...there has to be you...there has to be your friends, and enemies. You are one and without one another you can not be anything. I believed that i was given a gift of seeing where all energy comes from. A collective pool unto which gave birth to us all. The earth the moon the sun and distant galaxies. It was a place that felt warm, and cold and evil and good. I believe this is where life not only spawned but where it still manifests us to what we are. I was able to communicate without words to some sort of being...it was cloudy and looked more like a ball of energy rather than a human life form. It told me that I took a great risk manifesting to human life. It is something that all energy has the ability to do but chooses not to. To manifest into the form that we are, it told me a great sacrifice. I am not sure what that means but when he was telling me...it felt warm...good. It then went on to tell me that we should not consume more than we need. Our planet is a place of spiritual growth. It is a place where you have a choice of saying fuck you to the person next to you....or helping the person next to you when the need to be helped. The consequence of saying fuck you...is far worse than anything you ever imagine. All of our energy depends on us all being one. From the dawn of time we have a had tribes, packs, countries, groups, clikcks. It was implanted in us to need the companionship of one another. And to not have this means a life of suffering, lonelyness.....a life of pain. This supernatural being described all of this to me in the most detailed description i could ever ask for, and i feel like i have been touched by the hand of something far greater than anything i have ever imagined. Now here is where it all gets a little wierd
I came out of my breakthough.....and beside me...on a piece of paper...i had ( in handwriting very similar to mine) had written the following.
Aspicio
Vestri amicus est non vestri habeo
Sit unus quisnam peto verum
Is ero vestri tantum ADMONITIO
(a drawing of the indalo man)
ASPICIO
I have never had any latin training or any knowledge of any ancient pagan symbol in my life. Using an online translator i have deciphered the following:
vestri amicus est non vestri habeo
(Your) (friend) (is) (not) (yours) (possess, have)
Sit unus quisnam peto verum
(He is)(the only)(who) (seek out) ( truth)
Is ero vestri tantum admonitio
(this) (is) (your) (only) (warning)
and of course the indalo man is a symbol dating back 4500 years ago meaning the messenger of the gods.
I have done salvia twice since then and have not been able to get back to this astral plane...or write any more messages.
I only get to feel pain of people( once was consumed in blood)(the other i was allowed to feel death i believe) I also hear voices telling me that changing this pain is only available though....us all becoming one. Not having any self interest is the only way to true salvation. I was also told that when you die on earth...your energy dies with you unless you are able to become completely selfless. I was told that if you do in fact become completely selfless....your energy becomes greater than ever...and the ultimate goal of all of us that manifest on our planet.
Pretty crazy shit right? I need help understanding this. Is this just the hallucinagen found in salvia? Or do you really think that salvia is a gateway. I am not seeking notoriety or anything close to that. If you feel you have been touched by this same entity...i need to share thoughts with you...so please feel free to post.
I would like to follow this post by saying that i am in no way crazy. I am a very rational small business owner who does very well. I have no history of mental illness other than slight depression at times. My depression was always an onset of not knowing what i was or what i was suppose to be doing here or what my place is on earth. I believe that to be completely cured by salvia. I feel as if i know exactly what i am and what i am here to do. And i need support either positive or negative to help me know how to handle all of the things that salvia has showed me. Thanks for reading and i look forward to your help...
now that i have your attention I am willing to share with you my entire experience with salvia. It started as wanting to get as legally hammered as the kids on youtube...and the guy who drives, gardens, and writes a letter to congess on salvia....(3 of the funniest videos i have ever seen in my life...i highly recommend watching them)
My first experience with salvia was a complete abortion. I do not like losing control of myself. Salvia was completely taking control....it just layed me on my back. I did not break through at all....just felt really abused by it. I felt as if though thousands of needles were trying to pierce me. I was severely cold sweating. I layed there saying to my sitter..i dotn like this i dont like this over and over again. It did this to me, but it also intrigued me. I felt as if the salvia was trying to take me somewhere....i wasn't really sure where yet, but i knew that it wanted to take me somewhere.
The next night i tried it again. I had a sitter both occasions and I felt like i was trying to impress my buds by being an animal smoking salvia rather than letting salvia take over and take me where it wanted to. This second time, even with a sitter, i saw a portal. that is the only way i could describe. i am not a treky or an irrational person but On my side it was just some sort of energy...couldnt really explain to you at this time what it was, just some sort of energy. On the other side of the portal was nothing. This intrigued me more than ever. I wanted to know what was on the other side. I understood this time that i must let salvia take over. I couldn't resist. Resisting only leads to bad experiences.
I have found that the cold sweats, the feeling of having thousand of needles poking in to you, is the feeling you get when you try to resist salvia. If you embrace salvia, you can break through and come back at will, you do not feel intense poking of needles or heavy vibrations. Salvia opens a portal to an astral plane. Interested now? keep reading...it only gets better.
My third time with salvia i knew that i needed to let it take me over. I also thought i needed allot (not the case at all...maybe at first....but once you understand salvia and what it is offering you...you only need a little)
I decided on not having a sitter my 3rd time. I didnt want to impress anyone..i just wanted some answers as to what salvia is. It doesnt feel like a drug...it is so intense...well, to be honest....i think it really is exactly what the name stands for...a divine healer...
My third time i decided on 1/4 gram of 20x. I took three hits off my bubbler and held each hit as long as possible. On the third hit...i held it till i broke though for the first time......I saw the portal again....instead of trying to go through it....i subconsciensly asked it to take me. I was completely giving in to what it wanted. I had no sweating. I had no needles. I only felt as if my body was being caressed by the most gently and amazing thing.
Immediately upon asking the portal to consume me, i entered a place that seriously can not be accurately described. I will, however, do my best.
I entered a place where time didnt exist. It was a place where i didnt exist. It was a place where nothing existed, but where everything existed. It was heaven, it was hell. There was no evil, there was no good. But together, with this place.....everything existed. Salvia showed me a place that i can only describe as supernatural. You see...for anything to exist...there has to be you...there has to be your friends, and enemies. You are one and without one another you can not be anything. I believed that i was given a gift of seeing where all energy comes from. A collective pool unto which gave birth to us all. The earth the moon the sun and distant galaxies. It was a place that felt warm, and cold and evil and good. I believe this is where life not only spawned but where it still manifests us to what we are. I was able to communicate without words to some sort of being...it was cloudy and looked more like a ball of energy rather than a human life form. It told me that I took a great risk manifesting to human life. It is something that all energy has the ability to do but chooses not to. To manifest into the form that we are, it told me a great sacrifice. I am not sure what that means but when he was telling me...it felt warm...good. It then went on to tell me that we should not consume more than we need. Our planet is a place of spiritual growth. It is a place where you have a choice of saying fuck you to the person next to you....or helping the person next to you when the need to be helped. The consequence of saying fuck you...is far worse than anything you ever imagine. All of our energy depends on us all being one. From the dawn of time we have a had tribes, packs, countries, groups, clikcks. It was implanted in us to need the companionship of one another. And to not have this means a life of suffering, lonelyness.....a life of pain. This supernatural being described all of this to me in the most detailed description i could ever ask for, and i feel like i have been touched by the hand of something far greater than anything i have ever imagined. Now here is where it all gets a little wierd
I came out of my breakthough.....and beside me...on a piece of paper...i had ( in handwriting very similar to mine) had written the following.
Aspicio
Vestri amicus est non vestri habeo
Sit unus quisnam peto verum
Is ero vestri tantum ADMONITIO
(a drawing of the indalo man)
ASPICIO
I have never had any latin training or any knowledge of any ancient pagan symbol in my life. Using an online translator i have deciphered the following:
vestri amicus est non vestri habeo
(Your) (friend) (is) (not) (yours) (possess, have)
Sit unus quisnam peto verum
(He is)(the only)(who) (seek out) ( truth)
Is ero vestri tantum admonitio
(this) (is) (your) (only) (warning)
and of course the indalo man is a symbol dating back 4500 years ago meaning the messenger of the gods.
I have done salvia twice since then and have not been able to get back to this astral plane...or write any more messages.
I only get to feel pain of people( once was consumed in blood)(the other i was allowed to feel death i believe) I also hear voices telling me that changing this pain is only available though....us all becoming one. Not having any self interest is the only way to true salvation. I was also told that when you die on earth...your energy dies with you unless you are able to become completely selfless. I was told that if you do in fact become completely selfless....your energy becomes greater than ever...and the ultimate goal of all of us that manifest on our planet.
Pretty crazy shit right? I need help understanding this. Is this just the hallucinagen found in salvia? Or do you really think that salvia is a gateway. I am not seeking notoriety or anything close to that. If you feel you have been touched by this same entity...i need to share thoughts with you...so please feel free to post.
I would like to follow this post by saying that i am in no way crazy. I am a very rational small business owner who does very well. I have no history of mental illness other than slight depression at times. My depression was always an onset of not knowing what i was or what i was suppose to be doing here or what my place is on earth. I believe that to be completely cured by salvia. I feel as if i know exactly what i am and what i am here to do. And i need support either positive or negative to help me know how to handle all of the things that salvia has showed me. Thanks for reading and i look forward to your help...