its your choice mate, all i know is that sumtimes you gotta bite the bullet and do shit that you dont want to in order to sort yourself out. i've got an addictions therapist myself, i dont enjoy spilling my soul to him(its fine doing it behind a keyboard in here) but i feel its gonna help me, ive also got a son that that i want to see and enjoy being a dad to, lifes hard but fun, u gotta face hard choices at time. ive had sum real bad experiences in life, my ex was murderd, my step daughter commited suicide and ive buried a child(not alotta fun) but you've gotta get over it and face the future and enjoy what you do have.( sorry for the depression but ...)