Sensimila, I was airborne for a bit too long in the 82nd airborne. I know back pain and troubles better than I care to admit as well as working my way through a nurse practioner nursing program. I don't know everything but I know a lot and would like to help. What kind of back pain do you specifically suffer from? muscle, nerve or both? Most of my back pain began as muscle spasm problems as far as I knew. The army was not big on doing imaging so when I got out I suspected that not jumping anymore and staying in shape would help and it did for a time. Then I had a major muscle tear in my lower back as a result of being a very active person. I never recovered from the muscle tear and constant spasms. As it turned out I had three bulging discs that acompanied the spams. These bulges pressed on my lower spinal nerves and redefined back pain for me. After time the muscle healed but eventually a disc ruptured. Because of the bulges the Doc had me on a tylenol free form of vicodin and muscle relaxers. When the disc ruptured it pressed on all the nerves on my lower left side. This was an unescapable constant pain that was maddening. My doc then labeled me as an addict and pill seeker because I was going through about 20 pills a day with no pain relief and I was still working. Oh I didn't mention that although I had a ruptured disc the doc never confirmed it by MRI so he didn't treat me for it he just called me an addict. I found a new doc and two days after our initial consult before my imaging could be scheduled I lost control of bowel and bladder. At this point I went to a bigger hospital and explained the situation and I was rished back for an MRI then rushed to a morphine IV and rushed into emergency surgery the following morning. I lived for two months with a disc crushing my nerves and although the surgery helped I have permanent nerve damage and am in constant pain. Some days are better than others and sometimes I can barely get out of bed for two weeks. Before the surgery I was suicidal and after the surgery during those extended periods of nerve pain I get there again. For me there has never been a pain like nerve pain and I was airborne infantry. When you combine extreme chronic pain with existing mental disorders like PTSD; thoughts can turn bad in the extreme.
What I do know is that a low dose of methadone "5mg" has provided a great deal of pain relief so long as I take it three times a day evenly spaced out. I know that methadone provokes bad thoughts of heroin addicts but this is a slow release form in a pill that cuts pain and DOES NOT fuck up your head like vicodin and percocet will it is also a less addictive form that you can better regulate and stop using if you feel you can. you can occasionally skip a dose if you don't feel you are in pain also. This has helped me greatly. I have been on different nerve pain meds for issues like fibro mialga and none have touched the nerve pain just put me to sleep. Don't let this discourage you though the nerve pain meds have really changed lives in many patients.
Secondly I have found that some slightly early harvest kush or afgahn kush at 5 to 10% amber heads has a very similar effect to relieving pain. For me a half bowl works very well and for an hour or so, clearly different people at different levels will have different tiime effects. This early harvest stuff has also provided energy and thought clarity. As you know from being in extreme back pain it can rule your every thought. This is the part of my medication that pushes away the suicidal thoughts. I am actually off all other meds at this time just my low dose pill of methadone and early harvest kush. I went through eight different anti depressants and two anti-psychotics trying to get a handel on my brain and I have never been this clear and normal thinking since my early military days.
If you are in Oregon and Ommp let me know I have some early harvest if you would like to try some. If not we may still be able to figure out a way to get you some relief