Very Depressed

I have been felling very depressed lately, life fells to short, i want to live it to its fullest but i dont know if i will ever get to. I always wanted to travel around the world, not like to florida or mexico, but i wanna go to the most exotic places and the southern parts of india and places like that. I dont know if i will ever get the chance because first, i dont think i am gonna go to colladge, my family is to poor and im to stupid. I dont know what kind of job im going to end up having, i wont have enough money to do these things that i would like to do. I dont have any weed right now, cant afford it. I dont wanna keep the war in mexico going but i cant grow my own cause we dont have enough money, also i have a criminal record because of a bunch of lies, so no colladge is gonna accecpt me. I dont know, i fell like shit right now. If smoeone could give me some inspiring info i would really appriciate it.

Well as far as I know dude...community colleges accept felons. My buddy just graduated and he has 2 counts of trafficking and 1 count of some other dumb felony. Stop making excuses. I know plenty of stupid people that have graduated. If you can get your GED or you have your diploma your set. Hell they will pay for the tutor and the classes you need to take so you can GET YOUR GED!!!! Colleges GIVE GRANTS THAT YOU DONT HAVE TO PAY BACK THAT PAY FOR YOUR COLLEGE! I really think you need to ACTUALLY look into things and make some phone calls and stop making excuses. You don't even know what you're talking about. Stop throwing yourself a pity party man. Get up...open a phone book...call your local college and ask to set up and appointment with an educational counselor. They will give you everything you need. Ways to pay Tuition and ways to pay rent. Hell you can work at the college as a class and they pay you! Sitting on your ass asking how to make meth and making excuses as to why you can't do things is only going to further your depression. There is nothing you can't do. You can educate yourself...go to the library. You can open your own business and be your own boss to get money for college....all you need is an idea brother.

Get off your ass and do it! I had a shitty life too...stealing to eat....having no where to live in the winter...breaking into homes so I could be warm....and I am only 21...I know how it goes. I am getting my GED and enrolling in culinary school. My mom sells drugs and my dad is a drunk...the state is paying for my college. ALL OF IT! Plus giving me enough money to pay my rent and my bills and buy buds..

If I can do it...you can to...I know the feeling of not even being able to get up out of bed because of depression...I did...you can. But making excuses and finding the easy way out isn't EVER going to get you anywhere but broke my friend.

Also I can't afford weed right now either...so I quit. I don't need it. Neither do you...or any of these people on this forum.

Heh I didn't finish college, and my career's really never had a thing to do with the little bit I did. Doin well. Just suck it up, get a job, and start your life. You'll have plenty of time to go back to sitting in classrooms. Just don't waste your money on some random crap school just because they'll take you now. Maybe it's just not the time, no big deal at all.

Yes thankyou! i fell alot better, i really never thought of that. I guess my family allways wanted me to go to a high class collage so i could buy them shit, when i never thought of a community collage. I mean really i didnt know they accept felons... Thankyou my friend, ps if you ever need a place to stay send me a pm, im trying to get off the tweek so it wont smell like ink everywhere...

but we love weed! so sorry u guys dont have any......in my experiance alot of shitty shit happens.ALOT.this might just be the begining to be perfectly honest with u.but who cares its LIFE!! and its great!the good parts wouldnt feel so good if the shitty ones wernt as shitty as possible....then shittier...i mean shit!so just buckle up, put a god damn smile on like the rest of us have to and live LIFE!the shitty parts and the AMAZING parts to come!i got popped growin because my roomate snitched on me!it was SHITTY!!! lost everything in one day!apartment(evicted),job(fired),girlfriend(baker acted by parents(forced rehab...for weed!6 months!)),freedom,PLANTS,hope.but whatever man u know what happened??got out of jail.got new job.got girlfriend back.got rental HOUSE with no roommates for cheeper then my apartments.grew the dankest weed ive ever smoked(regained hope).so bitch if u want like a bitch or just wait it out and get some god damn goals!keep in mind its gonna take alot of time!and go get some free anti depressants they really work if u think u need them.no biggie.everyones a little fucked up(especially my g.f!!!)KEEP YOU GOD DAMN CHIN UP!

dude.... I imagine you're about 19??? keep your head up. I'm 25, just got my felonies erased off of my record and have just started college last year.... dont take as long as me to figure shit out. Live life to the fullest by living.... meaning not in prison and not scraping by week to week.... best advice I can give you.

Lalaporo said:

I have been felling very depressed lately, life fells to short, i want to live it to its fullest but i dont know if i will ever get to. I always wanted to travel around the world, not like to florida or mexico, but i wanna go to the most exotic places and the southern parts of india and places like that. I dont know if i will ever get the chance because first, i dont think i am gonna go to colladge, my family is to poor and im to stupid. I dont know what kind of job im going to end up having, i wont have enough money to do these things that i would like to do. I dont have any weed right now, cant afford it. I dont wanna keep the war in mexico going but i cant grow my own cause we dont have enough money, also i have a criminal record because of a bunch of lies, so no colladge is gonna accecpt me. I dont know, i fell like shit right now. If smoeone could give me some inspiring info i would really appriciate it.

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Of course you can grow your own dude. My first grow was with a handful of household cfls, a pc fan and a small wooden box. I was in a similar financial position, and depressed as hell. Growing gave me something to focus on, and the small harvest i had saved me enough money (that would have gone instantly on weed when i got it) to expand my setup a bit. I was 100% self-sufficient by my 3rd grow, and haven't paid for weed since then.

I've never sold weed myself, but morally I have no problem with those that do, especially if it helps them out of poverty. This option will be open to you, if you can work towards a setup that produces more than you consume.

Lalaporo said:

Yes thankyou! i fell alot better, i really never thought of that. I guess my family allways wanted me to go to a high class collage so i could buy them shit, when i never thought of a community collage. I mean really i didnt know they accept felons... Thankyou my friend, ps if you ever need a place to stay send me a pm, im trying to get off the tweek so it wont smell like ink everywhere...

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From the sound of it your family isn't doing so hot themselves...so why should they expect you to do so much? I hate to say it but fuck em man. If they want you to succeed so they can mooch off you...disown them and never look back. They only person that matters in this world is you. Unless you have kids...which id hope not. Your options are only limited by your choices man. Its fucking america! If a homeless man can break into a run down bar and open it back up with nothin but a 6 pack...you can go to a community college. Cool thing about community college is the credits can transfer to a 4 year university!!! Skys the limit my brother. Tweekin isn't gonna get you anything but dead. Promise. I've seen the road...and its bleak.

Remeber...in life the only thing your guaranteed is death! So go big or go home. In your situation....you really have nothing to loose....and everything to gain. So when you can only go up why the fuck not?

P.S. I appreciate the offer for a place to stay.

yea man, Kodank is giving some real advice, listen man...I am depressed too, but i try not to be..i also am now looking to go to collage or some sort of a school to learn something that can make me money, and give ma a job in future, except growing, that i also cannot do at the moment, and that is the world shittiest thing, no being able to grow...Anyways, get your shit together and just try, u have nothing to loose, but so much u can win....

Lalaporo said:

I have been felling very depressed lately, life fells to short, i want to live it to its fullest but i dont know if i will ever get to. I always wanted to travel around the world, not like to florida or mexico, but i wanna go to the most exotic places and the southern parts of india and places like that. I dont know if i will ever get the chance because first, i dont think i am gonna go to colladge, my family is to poor and im to stupid. I dont know what kind of job im going to end up having, i wont have enough money to do these things that i would like to do. I dont have any weed right now, cant afford it. I dont wanna keep the war in mexico going but i cant grow my own cause we dont have enough money, also i have a criminal record because of a bunch of lies, so no colladge is gonna accecpt me. I dont know, i fell like shit right now. If smoeone could give me some inspiring info i would really appriciate it.

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well first thing you do is save up for a passport. half the people that travel the world are dirt poor, and there is no inteligence requirement, however common sense should be had or you may never make it home. if your criminal background doesnt stop you from getting a passport, then your gold!! now just pack your bags and go. you may need to go south, but find work. work for fishing boats. they sometimes go over seas to europe or africa, or australia. well once you get to a destination you like, quit and look for a new job in your new destination. life is only depressing if you let it be. yes, some people do have diseases, but lets assume no body here has a disease that causes depression. so open your eyes to the things that remove that depression. you may find that all you need for your depression is to propose to that hot little chick down the street you have known all your life. or it may in fact be in india, or australia, or isreal.

go to life my friend, because it does not always take the initiative to come to you!

gumball said:

well first thing you do is save up for a passport. half the people that travel the world are dirt poor, and there is no inteligence requirement, however common sense should be had or you may never make it home. if your criminal background doesnt stop you from getting a passport, then your gold!! now just pack your bags and go. you may need to go south, but find work. work for fishing boats. they sometimes go over seas to europe or africa, or australia. well once you get to a destination you like, quit and look for a new job in your new destination. life is only depressing if you let it be. yes, some people do have diseases, but lets assume no body here has a disease that causes depression. so open your eyes to the things that remove that depression. you may find that all you need for your depression is to propose to that hot little chick down the street you have known all your life. or it may in fact be in india, or australia, or isreal.

go to life my friend, because it does not always take the initiative to come to you!

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its not just about the passport. its about the way you live your life. 4 example, i always ask this to ppl like you that feel like the world out there is so much cooler and blabla. HOW FAR HAVE YOU GOTTEN FROM YOUR OWN COUNTY? WHAT ABOUT YOUR STATE? WEST COAST, EAST COAST? VISITED ALL THE NATIONAL PARKS YET? MONUMENTS? NOW YOUR COUNTRY FIRST MAN. IF YOU CANT SEE WHAT IS IMPORTANT AROUND YOU, THEN YOU ARE NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO SEE ANYTHING ELSEWHERE.

PEACE

Be happy your healthy. Work hard and you can change anything you dont like about your life or your self. Things always seen to work them selves out. Just have faith.

Manosapien said:

Be happy your healthy. Work hard and you can change anything you dont like about your life or your self. Things always seen to work them selves out. Just have faith.

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Faith in what exactly? Not all believe in higher beings. His faith may have been lost like so many others. Personally I look around at my fellow men/women and see nothing worth having much faith in...but that doesn't mean you can't have goals and a plan.

Depression is a very slippery slope. It's not always as easy as just getting up and being happy. Also his depression would classify him as unhealthy...mentally. Things also may always work out but unless you attempt to control how the outcome will be you may get really bad results.

The happy go lucky, get up and smile, shit happens suck it up approach RARELY works with the depressed.

The first post says it all. With your nothing will happen attitude, well nothing will happen.
2 years ago I was living with a g/f and 150lb dog in a 91 acura integra, no job, car didn't run, 500 miles from home. if I'd have gone ur way I'd be in jail or worse by now, don't get me wrong I know how easy it is to fall into that thought process. Instead I grew a pair and manned up.now I co-run a small business with a friend, we avg only about 120k annually as a company but from a car to 60k is ok with me, on the side I am fortunate enough to be paid to teach local patients self sufficiency via OMCU, in the process I have met many people and as before I put myself out there as a result I've met many many good to know people and acquired countless resources, I'm by no means braggin but if a 22 year old kid (20 at the time) can go from nothin to 60k a year ( on paper, not counting oddjobs etc... ) u sure as hell can do it. U just need to prioritize and really focus on TANGABLE goals. Start small and ull be amazed how fast it adds up. So its with love and good intention I say, shut the hell up, get off your ass and put urself out there, nothing is given it must be earned, and many times after its been earned it still needs to be taken, u can always get what u want, but if u try sometimes u might find u get what you need. Wed all like to see the world, but we don't sit at home and wish, we get up and do something about it. Try it out, what is honestly the worst that can happen? U end up right back where you are. Good things come to those truly deservingly in need. You have a pc to log onto, internet service to rant about this, use it to find a job on a carnival cruise line, get paid to see the world. My cousin did it, why couldn't u? I'm just sayin... Anyway gl with your endevors, and remember, when life gets you down, just look around and ull see it could be worse. Enough song qoutes for ya?

Thanks dudes, really helpfull. I like the idea of going down south and working on fishing boats and traviling that way. Umm bitt off topic, what is that country in Europe that has weed grow in the ditches and stuff?

Netherlands? GB?

Yea it might be it. Wouldnt that be cool to be driving and see weed growing? Be it smells good there

I got my GED, went to community college 3 times on grants never paid a dime out of pocket. I got my associates in Computers and hated the real world work, so I decided I wanted to sell coffee. I worked a shitty pizza delivery job for 3 years, first on a bike, then scooter and finally a car. I saved some money and rented a small 300 sq ft shop and opened my own business selling coffee. That was 5 years ago. I now have 3 cafes and I am working to get weed legalized in my state so I can run and Amsterdam type cafe. LIFE is what you make of it. Was I rich? No were my parents rich? Hell no!!! Did I do something with my life? Hell yes!!! I had to scrape by, I lived in my car for a year, went weeks with out food, to the point that I fast now for health. If you have the drive and stop making excuses, and throwing a personal pity party you will see that you can do whatever you want to do.

get a hooker-

that always cheers me up

Faith in what exactly? Not all believe in higher beings. His faith may have been lost like so many others. Personally I look around at my fellow men/women and see nothing worth having much faith in...but that doesn't mean you can't have goals and a plan.

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No one is talking about god faith doesn't always mean the lord. I mean faith in your self. Kodank you sound missarable go smoke buddy. Oh wait hahahaha. And i never said suck it up.