What a fucking experience. Great way to make your own family member feel worthless!

Hmmm I bet it wouldn't be that hard to track you down...
I bet only a handful of judges retire on a daily basis We know he was an Administrative Judge in Workers Compensation Commission, and he was a federal judge before that...

:lol:

Track him down? Dude in the thread I was refferencing he posted his neighbors full name, so it wasn't hard at all for me to find out exactly what block he lived on. Pretty sure he lived in Philly if memory serves.
 
ROFLMAO ...

I sometimes type those lettes above... but yeah this time you made me spill my drink, out my nose from laughing:D
 
Hey everyone..

As some of you know, my father is retiring today. He's been serving as Administrative Judge (Workers Compensation Commission) for the past 15 years. Before that, he was serving as Federal Judge; then moved down to Federal Court Judge. So he's done a great service to the state and I totally agree with everyone on that. I love my father.. I mean shit, he's my father. Not perfect by any means.. but I bet he's one of the better fathers out there.

Anyhow, today's his retirement "party" and their holding at his new office, where he's going to go into practice for himself right? Well, I just got back from there.. and I feel like my own fucking family shunned me for the way I came dressed. But the fact is, is nobody bothered to fucking tell me that everyone else was going to be wearing a fucking suit and tie!!!! NOBODY FUCKING TOLD ME! So not only were the 40 other lawyers, judges, etc.. eyeing me and staring me down for the way I was dressed.. but my own sister and brother in-law kept looking at me as well. I know its also because of my past.. I used to be addicted to oxycodones and Roxycodones.. But for Christs sake people, I've been fucking CLEAN of ALL AND ANY OPIATES for the past fucking 3, almost 4 years now!!! When will my family realize that, that part of my life is fucking over with?!?!? I mean, it kind of makes it really hard for myself to stay on the clean road.. when my own fucking family STILL, after almost 4 years of sobriety (except pot.. but, bleh.. its not a drug IMO) won't even give me a chance!

I mean, everyone in that fucking place was looking at me!! And, I wasn't even dressed all that bad.. its just I didn't have a fucking suit and tie on.. well, kinda fucking hard to comply with the fucking rules when nobody takes it upon themselves to fucking let me in on the secret!!! Fucking bastards... just go fucking off myself, be better off that way. I'm 29 years old; no job; never been married; no girlfriend to lean on or talk to; no friends really to speak of.. except one, and he's got two kids now.. so he's never got any free time these days.

Gah damn man.. I mean, if its going to be like that, well, then I need to just disappear. Maybe get back in with the people I lost touch with.. get back into shooting fucking Oxy/Roxy's all fucking day. Maybe when my family hears about me overdosing.. maybe then they'll realize that "hey, maybe he was actually clean.. maybe we were too hard on him."

It's the only way I can see any peace in my life.. is to just end it. I mean, the way everyone was looking at me.. because I know they've all heard about my past.. and they fucking judge you/me on that.. and its not fucking fair!! Tired of this shit.. So I made some fucking mistakes in my life.. so what, its in the fucking past!

Freaking bullshit IMO.. I wish I still had some of my old connects right about now... :evil:

Ah, feels good letting all that out. Thanks everyone.. cya.


P.S. - I arrived at the "party" dressed in clean/nice kahki shorts with a nice Polo dress shirt wearing my Nike Shox. I thought I looked decent. But again, if nobody tells me that everyone else is wearing a suit and tie.. how the FUCK am I suppose to know that?!?! FUUUUUCK! fuck it.. peace.

well u must relize that, that grouop of ppl were proably talking about u the whole time u were addicted. and now it is hard to forget that. instead of trying to proove ur clean t o that group. just stay clean, burn trees, and say fukk'em all, just do U. I come from a long line of addicts, and can tell u they got through it with the "fuck 'em all attitude" dont worry about them be clean and do you.
 
If there's gonna be a judge in the room it's a safe bet that all the lawyers will be wearing suits. My experience with lawyers is they're all about keeping up appearances and "proper etiquette." But fuck em. Should have walked in, gave your old man a hug and a big congratulations. If he didn't have a problem then everyone else should eat a dick.
 
Yeah I agree with so many people on this thread. Everyone knows dressing up isn`t necessary, theres a story by Nasreddin Hodja, I`ll translate it from Turkish. Itl cheer you up =)

In Ottoman times, a very important and rich person was getting married in Nasreddin Hodja`s village. There was a mighty meal held with loads of food so Nasreddin Hodja comes back from working at his farm and attends this meal in his normal, patched up but clean clothes. The guy at the entrance gives him one look and points to his place on the table. Nasreddin Hodja sits on the part with the poor and middle class folk and gets served some cheap rice with chicken and notices all the rich and finely dressed up folk eating gorgeous food with desserts.

He gets up and leaves, goes home and puts his best and very expensive jacket on, changes his pants and comes back to the meal. The guy at the door takes one look at him and points to the place amongst the richer people. He takes a seat and instantly gets served a lovely roast dinner and a glass of wine with dessert to follow.

At that point, Nasreddin Hodja unbuckles his posh jacket and starts shoving it in the meal saying "Eat my jacket, eat!!". The suprised people around him look and say "Hodja, what are you doing, have you lost your mind??" Hodja replies, "I came to this place with my normal clothes and was served plain rice with a little bit of meat, now I put my posh jacket on I get served gorgeous food so clearly this food must be for my jacket!" And continues to stick his jacket in the food saying "Eat jacket, eat, enjoy your food!!"

Its far better in its original language but I hope you enjoyed :D

I think your damn cool and theres nothing wrong with you. Don`t turn to the Opiates and the people who shoot them, they are not a way out, they are a way to suffering and thats why you quit them in the first place. Nobody in this world should be able to plain do nothing while young and take drugs and we all know that. Please concider getting a job. I just been to Jobcentre plus and the advisor was telling me how hard it was for people to get jobs after not working for a while. She said sadly its dead easy to get a job when your in the game but once your out, you have no confidence which is the biggest drawback. There are millions of jobs and opportunities out there man and your so young! I`m trying the local pub today after tarting my CV up a little. Smoke your bowl and serve people some booze, get them smiling after their day at work!! Never worked at a pub but it should be a nice social job for me :) Planning to get some free government training and move into the electrical sector once I get myself some cash =) Don`t forget, when theres will theres a way!! There are people coming in the USA and UK which are living in very poor countries. Some manage to come in illegaly with no passport and get some off the book jobs and work damn hard to earn a living. Both you and me are much better off than them so lets not be lazy :) Good luck!
 
You were in a room full of lawyers and family members...

The family members were looking at you because of how you dressed and because of your drug past.
The lawyers overheard and the greedy bastards just wanted another client.

Either way, who cares? I won't even talk to 99% of the people in my family... bunch of fucking psychos
 
Either way, who cares? I won't even talk to 99% of the people in my family... bunch of fucking psychos

I kinda thought the same about mine but my thoughts changed entirely when I realised they were all there for me when I was in difficulty. Wheather they feel as if they have to as your family, or they do it out of the kindness of your heart chances are they, amongst your good friends are going to be the ones that help you/save your ass in times. This put a few tears in my eyes when I realised... I don`t know what your family is like but %99 is a little heavy don`t you think?

Though it also depends on what you judge people on too. Its easy to be nice, sweet talk, smile and not do anything else but some of my family may lack the empathy, but like I said they will be there for me, as I am for them. Thats the main scaffolding of "family". Like the idea of a community, only on a smaller and more personal level. Its around because we needed it for so long and it was a win-win situation for all the members, kinda like an insurance. With the abundance and rules/laws of today it seems to be forgotten and everything from a partner to a family gets less importance in our "unpersonal" lifestyle, and this sentence was a rant :)

Letting out whats in my mind, I`m sorry if you were right but give it a think :) I`m not too spoilt when I judge people anymore...
 
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