What am I thinking? What should I do?

I can't believe you are actually reading through all that nonsense!

see4 said:

I can't believe you are actually reading through all that nonsense!

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...me too!

And if you are thinking this:

"He just said he is happy until someone thinks hes wrong meaning hes not looking at his own perspective."

But what I am telling you... and I swear to you.... is... I dont care what you guys THINK. I care about what happens to everyone if they dont try what I think.... Just try. You dont have to agree. you dont have to live this way.... I just want you to try it... and if you dont even get that far in my conversation... because of the problem I'm pointing out.... you dont even get the problem I'm pointing out... and it makes it impossible for me to do anything... ITS A PARADOX.

Not like... I'm tripping on acid and dont understand...

You guys dont listen ... because you're doing it.... even when I'm telling you not to do it.... and just to try. You dont try, you do what I say you're doing. And you ignore the question.

The paradox is my own. I'm stuck here because I cant get your opinions. Please tell me your opinions. Dont tell me I'm wrong. I dont care if I'm wrong I'M HAPPY. I'm only upset because I cant figure out how to help you. And by help you... I just want you to SEE my perspective. Just SEE what my point is....

I dont know how to make anyone see what I'm tring to say... because they are DOING what I'm trying to say.




Like everyone.

Every person in this thread... is describing things that they do to AVOID helping me.

The only help you can provide... is to tell me what I mean. Because I dont know how to say it in any other way then a big text of gibberish.

sooooo fucking lost...

But I guess that's the point of this thread...lol


Wait is this a coke head thread? lol

And I want to point something out....


Your troll... is on my page.... right now. Hes the only person in this entire thread who is listening... and its because its what you all AREN'T doing. If you had been a troll before.... and you understood how they work.... then you could MANIPULATE him into being who you want him.


I dont want his god damn fucking opinions though. I'm so tired of ONLY talking to trolls because I understand them. None of them are like me, and none of you are like them. But both of you together is WHO I am... and I need ALL of your opinions.



Ask yourself this.... have you ever purposely made austin do anything ever a single time? Or has he done the opposite of what YOU wanted him to do. So all I did... was make him not want to post on the thread... act exactly like you guys were acting.... and ALSO had a very valuable point.... THEN when you guys started being against me.... GUESS WHO AUSTIN STARTED FOLLOWING.

and if you seriously think... that this subpar guy who is probably 14-18 and builds his knowledge on this website... but doesnt know how to participate because you guys alienated him because he was different, is who I am just because I can describe his exact existence... is you not seeing my perspective...

BECAUSE I AM A TROLL, but I am NOT TROLLING YOU RIGHT NOW.

I'm the damn boy who cried wolf, but I cried wolf to other people so I dont deserve these unintelligible responses that TROLLS get when you see them.

eye exaggerate said:

...what you're describing is the difference between ego and being. The thing is we need both to experience life.

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Somewhere between the two (and joining them at nearly the speed of sound) is Boeing. cn

Intense..... someone needs a hug...or squeeze

Whelp, gonna go check out some lol pics.

And I know that. All of that I know. I knew that 2 years ago when I gave up being a troll... and I've come to accept that.

But right now... I'm using my abilities to see Austin's perspective... to divinely make him do what I want.

I dont want to manipulate though.... but I do know that I can. And this post... is my attempt into manipulating you guys to simply answer my question.


Because if I came on this thread and asked how I wanted to ask it... you guys would say something like "Get a job" or "You're taking too much shrooms." you wouldn't ever help me... you would try... but you would never answer my question... and thats what the fuck am I trying to think?

I know its there... I want you to see it... and tell me what you think. None of you EVER have this entire THREAD and ALL 4 OF THE OTHER FORUMS I WAS ON WHEN i ASKED. And it just slowly turns into... "This guy is just a troll" So I went on rollitup because I had a long post about growing marijauana here and figured that would be proof enough to show you guys im not lying... but clearly its not.


So what do I do? If I can't word it normally (I am right now, this is how i word what my thought is and all of my responses, all of them trying to word my original thought) because you guys keep saying im wrong... which isnt my question.... and if I word it crazily I get called a troll.....


WTF do I do?

Like....

Here is an example of what just happened to me... showing you how I think people should look at the world:

I know trolls.... thats who I am... so I can manipulate them. So now you guys think... because I brought that thought up (for the first time, its my attempt at manipulating you guys into believing I just want your opinions and I'm not crazy) some of you guys continue to think I'm austin. Just because I posted... saw your troll INSTANTLY based off his speaking... and your responses.... chose not to point out this fact at the beginning, because if I did you wouldn't believe me, you would just think I was austin, so I manipulated him instead... now I'm showing you that I did it... and you guys just tell me "Well what if thats not what hes thinking?"

THATS NOT THE POINT

The point is THATS HOW I SEE THE WORLD What does that mean? Is it right? Can it be used to our advantages... and how do I explain it to people without needing to go this into it... because:

they dont read past what they think they know to see my perspective.
they see what I have to say, make their opinion, and dont listen when I tell them what I really think
they dont listen to me
they dont respond to my actual question
they dont hear what I'm asking



I'm asking you guys to tell me what I'm asking. Tell me what my thoughts mean. Help me get my point across... because I know it doesnt make sense.... because I don't know how to word it...


But I take advantage of it on a daily basis... I see it working. i know it works. And I feel so good.

I'm not saying you have to live your life that way.... I want you see what I mean... consider if its good for you... and move on....

BECAUSE I KNOW THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE LIKE ME.

april said:

Intense..... someone needs a hug...or squeeze

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...or one of these

This discussion is bringing out soo many emotions in me. Laughter, confusion and... Mostly just laughter and confusion hahaha

Who have let it completely control their lives. And it turned me into a fake person.


I was this fake person. I see it now. Now I'm not like that. But I didn't know it was even there... until I saw things from other perspectives...








Now.... My question is....

How do I word EVERYTHING I just said... to someone who has never spoken to me before... in a way they will DO what I ask.


JUST try it. And have them ACTUALLY try it.... if they dont think its real. Because I didnt know it was real either.


And I ignored things like "Wow, do you not realize what an asshole you're being?" and did not literally say to myself.... Do I realize what an asshole you're being? I just heard they were mad... didnt listen... and kept going.

Sustain said:

How do I word EVERYTHING I just said... to someone who has never spoken to me before... in a way they will DO what I ask.

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...do you paint?

i think you need to relax, youre very like just going on about too much at one time, taking on too much so to speak,and youre acting super defensive, this isnt a mind help board i suggest going onto a health forum not a stoners forum , no one is going to take you serious or have the attention span to read your posts.

Did this poor kid eat a 10 strip????

And I'm also saying... from that fact... which is the question.... am asking....

That is why I believe shrooms and weed should be legal. Just because what it did for me.... and that you should all realize that shrooms can do that...

And people who dont know what shrooms are... dont realize it CAN do that


and they dont know what shrooms are... because I believe the greater part of the population is misinformed.... and was like me.


And I'm fine if you dont think most people are like me. Thats your opinion... and this is mine.... because it helped me... I NEED to change even just one person like me.


But I cant word it.... in a way... anyone understands.... its like EVERYONE is like this... like how I was... didnt listen to anything... only heard your own thoughts.... and thats why I'm mad.


People should not be like how I was.... its wrong..

And since I have felt it... and know its wrong for myself... then I can have that OPINION.

i dunno but him and jptrin could be best friends

Sustain said:

And I'm also saying... from that fact... which is the question.... am asking....

That is why I believe shrooms and weed should be legal. Just because what it did for me.... and that you should all realize that shrooms can do that...

And people who dont know what shrooms are... dont realize it CAN do that


and they dont know what shrooms are... because I believe the greater part of the population is misinformed.... and was like me.


And I'm fine if you dont think most people are like me. Thats your opinion... and this is mine.... because it helped me... I NEED to change even just one person like me.


But I cant word it.... in a way... anyone understands.... its like EVERYONE is like this... like how I was... didnt listen to anything... only heard your own thoughts.... and thats why I'm mad.


People should not be like how I was.... its wrong..

And since I have felt it... and know its wrong for myself... then I can have that OPINION.

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i aint no doctor but with your ramblings and crazy thoughts i would suggest shrooms ...prooobably not for you

sunni said:

i think you need to relax, youre very like just going on about too much at one time, taking on too much so to speak,and youre acting super defensive, this isnt a mind help board i suggest going onto a health forum not a stoners forum , no one is going to take you serious or have the attention span to read your posts.

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