What to do when nothing makes you happy?

I am somewhat pathological. I cannot be happy. My moral compass keeps on spinning. I don't feel close to anyone. Every bit of happiness I have ever shared with anyone now seems fictitious. I want to believe for some reason that I deserve to be happy but everything that makes me happy is out of reach. And when things I want are not in my reach I get confused because I feel like I deserve them, and when I dont get them I feel like the world is trying to make me not only not get what I want but feel bad for wanting it. Mainly, I just want someone else to want me to be happy. I have had people tell me they want me to be happy but they never help me out or encourage me. Like with my family, I tell them repeatedly my goals in life and tell them that I have potential at the things I like to do but people seem to just want me to exist. I am the type of person who ALWAYS wants to get better and will never be fully satisfied. I dont want to ever be satisfied. I want more! (at the same time I am really generous with my money or material items when I have extra). I just cant be doing the same thing every day. I just hate how everyone wants me to be stuck in the same spot. Im not fucking happy.

I just dont know what to do anymore.... I recently god laid off from my job as a painter.(they only pay me 12$ an hour even though I literally slow myself down so that other people can have work also) . I got a sidejob off craigslist recently (no contract) and left the jobsite halfway through because they were being really cheap and expecting too much quality for the price. A two story 4 bedroom house, two coats of paint on the sophets, facia, 15 window trims, garage door, two doors and doortrim AND touchups on the body paint. Also, scraping and spot priming half the house.Originally I told them my bottom line was 1500 for a decent job. They offered 600 and I told them for that I could do a blow and go job. Basically, long story short somehow they translated that into me doing everything on the house for 600 and doing a 4000 dollar paint job. I told them, its going to take 100 hours for me and I am a fast painter.

I am a really good painter, and if I were to have my own company I could be earning thousands and thousands a month due to my efficiency on ladders, my dexterity, my speed and attention to detail. I have always been good at everything, but nobody ever really said it to me. Ive gotten glimpses of that, but usually its when im super depressed and not functioning at my normal level.

Ugh, there arent enough words for me to explain my frustrations without typing a fucking novel. I feel like the world owes me at this point. I know that is a pathological way of thinking but its the truth. I feel like I am worth more and the world needs to give me an opportunity to reach my potential soon or I would rather not exist in it anymore.

I currently am forced to live with my cheapass brother and his faggot roommates and have been paying them 300$ to stay in the living room. They stay up all night every night and be noisy and give me no respect. My brother is such a cheapass faggot that his girlfriend became attracted to me because of my caring attitude. I can tell my brother probly thinks its my fault but really its his...

the way I feel is that nobody wants me to succeed in life because not only am I good at everything I do, I am not that materialistic. I have things that make me happy of course but if I have more than I need I am the kind of guy who will go out of his way to share. I have always wanted to be that guy who makes everything good.

Why u bitching so much . Its life bro enjoy it while u can becouse its not gunna last very long. Life and the world doesnt owe anything to anyone, u shuld be grateful u get to experience it. Stop complaining about how no one tells you how good you are at shit ur a grown man . Live your life surround yourself with things that make you happy stop fucking your brothers girl live your life and die like everyone's supposed to. U sound guilty and sad and thats on you not everyone else, o and by the way your very good at venting like a woman and blaming everything and everyone for the misfortunes that happen in your life hopes this makes you feel better.

shagratt said:

Ugh, there arent enough words for me to explain my frustrations without typing a fucking novel. I feel like the world owes me at this point. I know that is a pathological way of thinking but its the truth. I feel like I am worth more and the world needs to give me an opportunity to reach my potential soon or I would rather not exist in it anymore.

I currently am forced to live with my cheapass brother and his faggot roommates and have been paying them 300$ to stay in the living room. They stay up all night every night and be noisy and give me no respect. My brother is such a cheapass faggot that his girlfriend became attracted to me because of my caring attitude. I can tell my brother probly thinks its my fault but really its his...

the way I feel is that nobody wants me to succeed in life because not only am I good at everything I do, I am not that materialistic. I have things that make me happy of course but if I have more than I need I am the kind of guy who will go out of his way to share. I have always wanted to be that guy who makes everything good.

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I came to this realization about myself a while back;


You're not special and no one owes you anything. If you want recognition you need to spend years and years and years busting your balls for someone else until you've earned your recognition and the opportunity for yourself. It may sound harsh, but the sooner you're happy with what you have, and start taking things in stride, the sooner you'll be happy with yourself.

Talk is cheap. Actions speak louder than words. I'm sure you've heard all the cliches.

Work a shitty job for a few years and save every penny until you can buy a van, and ladders, and all the shit you need to paint, and open your own shop.... at least do something! Get two jobs and move out off the couch! Earning your own keep, and not living off your brother will make you feel better about yourself too. "Making it" isn't easy and most people just want the rewards without the hard work.

Oh, and about the people you painted for; always negotiate before you get there and never change your prices. If it costs $1500 and you sell it for $1200, guess what? Next time they need your services, the starting price just dropped to $1200 and that's where they want to start negotiations next time. Just some sales advice from a former salesman.....

.....and never do your 'job' for free. If you're a painter, never paint for free, if you're a mechanic never fix friends cars for free, etc., etc. ESPECIALLY to friends and family; you'll never get out of doing free work.

life is what YOU make of it.

Hey, OP. I feel your pain, my friend, even though others here are offering good advice. The world doesn't give a fuck about anyone, so it's a pretty even playing field. You sound like a good guy, just realize how lucky you are: you were born in this Country (I'm assuming the Western world, anyway), you sound healthy and you have marketable skills. Most of the world is born into abject poverty, and they have REAL problems; where can I find clean drinking water? Where is my next meal coming from? Where can I find shelter to spend the night? Which gov't will be in power tomorrow, and will I be on the lucky side of that regime? Those are REAL problems, I doubt you've ever faced any of them. You know what really opened my eyes years ago when I was depressed? Volunteer at a soup kitchen. Go see the hundreds and hundreds of poor wretches who have NOTHING, and you'll get perspective really quickly. I hated the rat race and always busting my ass to make ends meet. BB had a good point, go work multiple jobs for a year or two, save money to rent a house or get an apartment that is lax on the maintenance, and start growing some dank. You'll be able to make a pretty easy and very decent living within a year after that if you're smart, and you won't be subjected to busting your ass and feeling under appreciated in society. Surround yourself with close friends, family you can stand, sleep 'til noon and do what you WANT to do. This is what I did and I've never been happier. Good luck...

Alot of what yall are saying is true and alot of it I already know. I hate living at my brothers house. I dont feel like I am living off his back really, its just that there is no better option right now. Its true the world doesnt really owe anything to anyone, but I have potential and its being wasted. I am applying for jobs and always looking for the best opportunity. Like I said its in my DNA to want more and move faster. If I dont have something to use my energy on I get this feeling like my nards want to explode with testosterone and I want to murder people. lol.... kinda like how most people feel when they dont eat, thats how i feel when my other needs arent satisfied.. I just cant think strait

Anyways, I feel better today. I havent been smoking weed lately, probly why i am a little bit unstable. I would delete this thread now if I could. I just needed a place to vent. I know that its annoying when people bitch about their problems but if I dont do it somewhere I cant think strait and take my anger out elseware. There should seriously be a forum specifically meant for bitching about life on here. I know thats not the "stoner" thing to do but it would help people like myself have somewhere they can find someone to relate to. I dont have anyone in the real world to talk to. If I bitch about somethin here I just feel like a dbag afterwards.

We all have bad 'days' mate. As long as your feeling better

"in every life we have some trouble, but when you worry, you make it double".. Take problems one at a time, and don't carry the weight of the world on your shoulders.

shagratt said:

Anyways, I feel better today. I havent been smoking weed lately, probly why i am a little bit unstable. I would delete this thread now if I could. I just needed a place to vent. I know that its annoying when people bitch about their problems but if I dont do it somewhere I cant think strait and take my anger out elseware. There should seriously be a forum specifically meant for bitching about life on here. I know thats not the "stoner" thing to do but it would help people like myself have somewhere they can find someone to relate to. I dont have anyone in the real world to talk to. If I bitch about somethin here I just feel like a dbag afterwards.

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Meh, you can always vent here.

Glad you're feeling better!

shagratt said:

Anyways, I feel better today. I havent been smoking weed lately, probly why i am a little bit unstable. I would delete this thread now if I could. I just needed a place to vent. I know that its annoying when people bitch about their problems but if I dont do it somewhere I cant think strait and take my anger out elseware. There should seriously be a forum specifically meant for bitching about life on here. I know thats not the "stoner" thing to do but it would help people like myself have somewhere they can find someone to relate to. I dont have anyone in the real world to talk to. If I bitch about somethin here I just feel like a dbag afterwards.

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Bitch away pimp Its all good. i like the growing weed idea look into that one.

hope todays better for you. I often dig out this Joyce Carey verse "The truth is that life is hard and dangerous; that he who seeks his own happiness does not find it; that he who is weak must suffer; that he who demands love will be disappointed; that he who is greedy will not be fed; that he who seeks peace will find strife; that truth is only for the brave; that joy is only for him who does not fear to be alone; that life is only for the one who is not afraid to die".

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