You're suffering from pms
Stop using drugs and alcohol it'll never help ever
Don't waste your time going to some ones office to talk because they have a diploma from the community college framed on the wall.
Find an N.A. meeting in your area walk in and sit down, you don't have to talk to anyone,there are no papers to sign, no payments to be made. The first move is up to you, nobody's hold your hand and nobody's gonna help if no one knows you need it. It might take a couple times of going but something will hit you and you'll realize you're in room full of people just as fucked up as you.
Option #2 is to keep smoking drinkin poppin pills whatever you have to do to make yourself comfortable until you find your one true love, the one you give everything to, family, friends ,money, smiles, dreams, health, heart, soul, eventually your life. They have a saying in those places, give it a shot and if you don't like it your misery can be refunded at any time.