DMTER
Well-Known Member
There was a time before the me who I am today
.this is the story of me getting there.
It was late August in Phoenix, AZ, we had the wonderful monsoons roll through to comfort us after the long months of 115-120 degree days (although no to much of a comfort if you have lived in Phoenix you know). It was a wonderful time for my wife and I, we were connecting on many different levels then the way we had before.
It was August 23-24th that this occurred (years in the past). We went into the trip not knowing what to expect, the normal anxieties that pop up the weird feelings the confusions. It had first popped up on my wife she was feeling pressures, pains and anxiety. I couldn't do much as I had just worked the night shift and was starting to get anxious myself (which is never good ALWAYS be there for your partner!!!). Well this continued into the evening .emotional roller coaster when is this going to end. Then around 5AM on the 24th of august it happened you know what happened. Everything started getting super intense there was a part a few hours earlier where my partner was writhing in pain and I was so helpless and freaked out I almost blacked out .I could feel the energy surge through me into my stomach I was about to pop.
At 5ish on the 24th it just kept rising and rising the tension, anxiety, FEAR had crept in. My partner and I had no idea what to do. We just kept breathing I tried rubbing her feat as she worked on calming herself (it really helps if you do something repetitive and normal sometimes). As we kept rolling on the highs and lows the peaks kept getting bigger, bigger and BIGGER. My wife in immense pain, myself was seriously freaking out. We tried to keep our heads together but it was just SOOOO much to handle I felt one of our heads would explode.
This kept on going until around 6-6:30ish around the morning, until my wife looked like she had no clue what to do it was just way to much for her .way to much for anyone ..it was relentless it just came on like a freight train no stopping it no stopping it what is going to happen to us after this, why did we do this to ourselves (you know the standard questions) ..
And then one of the three most magical moments of my life PURE euphoria PURE ecstasy the best feeling of my entire life .We learned what LOVE truly is that night I realized this was the first time I truly had felt REAL LOVE I was so connected to my wife and she to me at this moment it was magical UNBELIEVABLE
It was the birth of our first child and the absolute craziest trip of my life ..
had an intense 7g's mushroom trip the other week that got me thinking about this childbirth and psychedelics so similar in a lot of ways it CHANGES you for life you truly feel LOVE in the deepest sense of the word .while the post trip can be kinda messy diaper changes, learning how to comfort a crying child, dealing with the day in and day out of being a family it is the most rewarding and enriching experience known to man it changes you FOREVER I have been brought to tears today again thinking about this just had the need to share with some of you who might not of experienced this kind of a trip yet .
It was late August in Phoenix, AZ, we had the wonderful monsoons roll through to comfort us after the long months of 115-120 degree days (although no to much of a comfort if you have lived in Phoenix you know). It was a wonderful time for my wife and I, we were connecting on many different levels then the way we had before.
It was August 23-24th that this occurred (years in the past). We went into the trip not knowing what to expect, the normal anxieties that pop up the weird feelings the confusions. It had first popped up on my wife she was feeling pressures, pains and anxiety. I couldn't do much as I had just worked the night shift and was starting to get anxious myself (which is never good ALWAYS be there for your partner!!!). Well this continued into the evening .emotional roller coaster when is this going to end. Then around 5AM on the 24th of august it happened you know what happened. Everything started getting super intense there was a part a few hours earlier where my partner was writhing in pain and I was so helpless and freaked out I almost blacked out .I could feel the energy surge through me into my stomach I was about to pop.
At 5ish on the 24th it just kept rising and rising the tension, anxiety, FEAR had crept in. My partner and I had no idea what to do. We just kept breathing I tried rubbing her feat as she worked on calming herself (it really helps if you do something repetitive and normal sometimes). As we kept rolling on the highs and lows the peaks kept getting bigger, bigger and BIGGER. My wife in immense pain, myself was seriously freaking out. We tried to keep our heads together but it was just SOOOO much to handle I felt one of our heads would explode.
This kept on going until around 6-6:30ish around the morning, until my wife looked like she had no clue what to do it was just way to much for her .way to much for anyone ..it was relentless it just came on like a freight train no stopping it no stopping it what is going to happen to us after this, why did we do this to ourselves (you know the standard questions) ..
And then one of the three most magical moments of my life PURE euphoria PURE ecstasy the best feeling of my entire life .We learned what LOVE truly is that night I realized this was the first time I truly had felt REAL LOVE I was so connected to my wife and she to me at this moment it was magical UNBELIEVABLE
It was the birth of our first child and the absolute craziest trip of my life ..
had an intense 7g's mushroom trip the other week that got me thinking about this childbirth and psychedelics so similar in a lot of ways it CHANGES you for life you truly feel LOVE in the deepest sense of the word .while the post trip can be kinda messy diaper changes, learning how to comfort a crying child, dealing with the day in and day out of being a family it is the most rewarding and enriching experience known to man it changes you FOREVER I have been brought to tears today again thinking about this just had the need to share with some of you who might not of experienced this kind of a trip yet .
