You should be a therapist lol. You ask a lot of leading questions.
I drove from Seattle to Santa Cruz on a motorcycle in 2-days once. It was dangerous. I didn't study up on the specific risks ahead of time. It wasn't the best decision I've ever made. It was risky. I was younger and stupider then.
Just chasing it down hoping at some point you'll see that you're not consistent, because it's simply not possible to be when taking issue with one in a million risk. There has to be another element in your risk assessment formula that you haven't brought up yet, but don't worry, I don't have much more motivation left.
Would you say you're a motorcyclist? I've been riding for over thirty years and one thing I can tell you is, no motorcyclist refers to it as driving, but maybe it was just a time where a friend talked you into it or something.
Regardless, it was a great decision *in hindsight*, even though you took on extra risk. I hope you don't have the opposite feeling someday about yourself, or someone you care about, with regard to Covid and vaccinations.