EarthlyPassions
Well-Known Member
I know what you mean! I hated having to buy my stuff from shady dealers, knowing I was getting ripped off, but nothing I could do about it...I have always referred to it as my leveller. keeping things on a more even keel. I have for reasons associated with circumstances at the time...gone without sometimes for extended periods....I have had the tendency at time to abuse alcohol. I have been on a multitude of anti-depressents and seratonin inhibitors.....to me they are took too much of the edge off and left me with nothing. marijuana leaves me free and enhances my exploratory nature....I find myself in that peaceful place where all seems to be in its proper place, able to manage and adjust more comfortably than when without. I am so happy to have been able to make progress on my own growing....security of supply and anxiety over trustworthiness has held me from having a reliable and consustent opportunity to enjoy this wonderful weed. for now....I have to wait until my bud is ready....
And I love growing my plants, I see those little leaves spread, like so many arms reaching out for hugs, and it makes me warm and fuzzy inside.