Seriously, no offense, but when I was younger and we saw a whistling-dixie fool like you walking down the street, we all said the same thing in our head at the same exact time, "JACKPOT!"
Everyone who is telling you it is not for you, is right. Even strangers can care about your well being. I do, and please seek another profession. You'd be safer robbing businesses, even though everyone gets caught. You seem like a clever kid, how about making legitimate money? Have some pride in yourself though. You know damn well what you're capable of. You don't have to be straight about it if you still want to be a cowboy. Try prostitution or something if you're so hard. With women or yourself, depending on what you have to prove to the world.
Here's just a simple question: Do you believe in fair fights?
Do you really want to know what it's like to be called white boy and know it's the worst thing in the world at the time?
Please just get a regular job or even start knocking on doors and asking for odd jobs. Old folks love that shit.